I'm just loosing my freaking mind

[StarMan]

why do I feel so alone? When people tell me that your not alone, it doesn't help. There's alot of nice people around me in cyber space and in the real world. But I still feel empty, sad and alone. Maybe I've come to a cross road in my life like I've been feeling lately was going to happened. I'm 33 soon. I leave alone in a small town. Got no steady job, no car, almost no money. My girlfriend is 6000 miles away. I try my best to work on my album, but it's like I've lost the energy to keep it going and finish the record. It's like my life energy is totally gone. I don't know where I stand in my beliefs anymore either. I spend more time online than ever, because I'm lonely. Going to bed alone, wake up alone, eat alone, watching movies alone, I cry alone. The sad part I can't see the future, I have no goal what so ever. It's like I feel there's no point in having any goal. The future is going to change pretty soon, this planet is going to go through a major change.Many people will probebly say I'm nuts, but I don't care. Well it's going on now as I type this. I've felt this my entire life. Ever sense I was a kid I 've felt the pain of other people around me. Now I'm feeling the pain of mother earth. She is crying too. Her children is soon to have an experience so big that not many will make it. Walking in life being an empath is hard. Sometimes I wonder why I was born. I've got the answer from many telling me that you count, but I can't feel it. Self centered, me? Maybe I am. But is it so wrong to want be happy. I don't care about fancy cars and houses, that's not me. This world we see is a sad picture of a reality. Kids in Africa starving every day wail millions of people go to Burger King getting fat. The picture is so wrong. The problem is that we can if we want change this world, turn it around now. But it's like most people turn the other way around in stead of helping. We care only when we see a picture on the TV screen. The next day we do nothing. I think the modern world has been and still are being brain washed by the world government. Commercial adds on TV is nothing els but brain washing propaganda for the people. I better stop. I will be hanged for this and I can hear someone say: "Starman, get a life, don't waist your time on trash like that." Yeah I know, I don't have a life. I'm just loosing my freaking mind, that's all!

[QUEEN OF THE DAMNED]

why do I feel so alone? When people tell me that your not alone, it doesn't help. There's alot of nice people around me in cyber space and in the real world. But I still feel empty, sad and alone. Maybe I've come to a cross road in my life like I've been feeling lately was going to happened. I'm 33 soon. I leave alone in a small town. Got no steady job, no car, almost no money. My girlfriend is 6000 miles away. I try my best to work on my album, but it's like I've lost the energy to keep it going and finish the record. It's like my life energy is totally gone. I don't know where I stand in my beliefs anymore either. I spend more time online than ever, because I'm lonely. Going to bed alone, wake up alone, eat alone, watching movies alone, I cry alone. The sad part I can't see the future, I have no goal what so ever. It's like I feel there's no point in having any goal. The future is going to change pretty soon, this planet is going to go through a major change.Many people will probebly say I'm nuts, but I don't care. Well it's going on now as I type this. I've felt this my entire life. Ever sense I was a kid I 've felt the pain of other people around me. Now I'm feeling the pain of mother earth. She is crying too. Her children is soon to have an experience so big that not many will make it. Walking in life being an empath is hard. Sometimes I wonder why I was born. I've got the answer from many telling me that you count, but I can't feel it. Self centered, me? Maybe I am. But is it so wrong to want be happy. I don't care about fancy cars and houses, that's not me. This world we see is a sad picture of a reality. Kids in Africa starving every day wail millions of people go to Burger King getting fat. The picture is so wrong. The problem is that we can if we want change this world, turn it around now. But it's like most people turn the other way around in stead of helping. We care only when we see a picture on the TV screen. The next day we do nothing. I think the modern world has been and still are being brain washed by the world government. Commercial adds on TV is nothing els but brain washing propaganda for the people. I better stop. I will be hanged for this and I can hear someone say: "Starman, get a life, don't waist your time on trash like that." Yeah I know, I don't have a life. I'm just loosing my freaking mind, that's all!

I feel the same. :hugz: :hugz: :hugz: :hugz: :hugz: :hugz: :hugz: :hugz: :hugz: :hugz: :hugz:
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[BlackMagicalCat]

I feel alone too,except for Tabitha who is constantly attacking me and following me from room to room,I love her ,she is my magical Cat.

I hope you find a special friend sent from heaven to bring joy and purpose into your life,and my prayers will be with you as well

I pray God will send you help,and a friend.

[Jenne]

:hugz: You're not alone, SM...many of us feel the same as you do.

[Lorelei of the Mists]

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[Brenda]

I think everyone has felt lonely at times, even when they were surrounded by people they love. There isn't much to do about it, but it'll get better :)
:hugz: sending positive energy

[BrigidMoon]

Well, I hope you feel better. Isoloation or the feeling of it is not fun to go through. There have been times when I am literally surrounded by folks but feel so very alone and different and out of place.
It can be the worst feeling in the world. Hopefully taking one step at a time and one breath at a time will help you with your record. :)

[Faeawyn]

I'm sorry you feel so alone. You may actually be suffering from depression. Your symptoms sound very familiar. Perhaps you should speak to your doctor about it. I was a mess 10 years ago....I felt alone, empty, lost interest in things, wanted to sleep all the time.... My doctor put me on medication and it turned my life around. Don't let yourself suffer if theres help available. See if they can help you...:hugz:

[DianaStormDancer]

Aw love lots of feel this way from time to time or most of the time. It does sound like you are depressed. Make sure you have people to talk to it does help. Hugs and light to you Dear.

[Earthy]

I would agree with Faeawyn, it does sound like depression..i felt exactly like you for a long time.
I'm sorry you feel so isolated, and i do hope things get better for you.
Blessings and energy :hugz:

[CzechWoods]

why do I feel so alone? When people tell me that your not alone, it doesn't help. There's alot of nice people around me in cyber space and in the real world. But I still feel empty, sad and alone. Maybe I've come to a cross road in my life like I've been feeling lately was going to happened. I'm 33 soon. I leave alone in a small town. Got no steady job, no car, almost no money. My girlfriend is 6000 miles away. I try my best to work on my album, but it's like I've lost the energy to keep it going and finish the record. It's like my life energy is totally gone. I don't know where I stand in my beliefs anymore either. I spend more time online than ever, because I'm lonely. Going to bed alone, wake up alone, eat alone, watching movies alone, I cry alone. The sad part I can't see the future, I have no goal what so ever. It's like I feel there's no point in having any goal. The future is going to change pretty soon, this planet is going to go through a major change.Many people will probebly say I'm nuts, but I don't care. Well it's going on now as I type this. I've felt this my entire life. Ever sense I was a kid I 've felt the pain of other people around me. Now I'm feeling the pain of mother earth. She is crying too. Her children is soon to have an experience so big that not many will make it. Walking in life being an empath is hard. Sometimes I wonder why I was born. I've got the answer from many telling me that you count, but I can't feel it. Self centered, me? Maybe I am. But is it so wrong to want be happy. I don't care about fancy cars and houses, that's not me. This world we see is a sad picture of a reality. Kids in Africa starving every day wail millions of people go to Burger King getting fat. The picture is so wrong. The problem is that we can if we want change this world, turn it around now. But it's like most people turn the other way around in stead of helping. We care only when we see a picture on the TV screen. The next day we do nothing. I think the modern world has been and still are being brain washed by the world government. Commercial adds on TV is nothing els but brain washing propaganda for the people. I better stop. I will be hanged for this and I can hear someone say: "Starman, get a life, don't waist your time on trash like that." Yeah I know, I don't have a life. I'm just loosing my freaking mind, that's all!


dear starman, namaste

i read your heartbreaking post, and had i some poikes left i d poketh you

but it is as it is, isnt it ?

well lets see. your last words in your post are i am losing my mind, that all.

my question to you is: is that really ALL?

do you WANT to lose your mind, ? if so, all is said and done. do not read on

do you NOT want to lose your mind ? if so, lets see what i can do for you


I agree with many here who said, they feel the same

i tend to disagree to switch into: you have depression
because this depression thing is overused.
it helps not any further imo to tell someone who is down, they are depressed
unless of course, you want kto just take a pill and forget

i dont believe this is what you want
in your posts nmiddle part
you are telling me/us how you feel
the emptiness
the loneliness
the isolation you feel
that killing your motivation
that taking away the muse from you
that making you even more down

a vicios circle

But i do believe in you, dont know, maybe i am optimistic
But the fact that you actually ask for help shows that you are of the strong people

those who seek to find a good solution

if there is the strength and the wits inside you to seek help, could it be there are many more skills hidden under the covers of loneliness, isolation and the therefor obvious melancholy?

lets dig into you, shall we ?
trying to find the treasures inside
lets try to really help you
not from outside
but from inside

lets look at the person you are
from within
lets look at the hurtings
lets look at the fun things
you are harbouring

try to find 4 reasons to smile
every day
and laugh out loud, at least once
anyway

I know this sounds impossible
but believe my words, they're true
start laughing at least once a day
and watch it liberating you

dont get trapped in the belief
your value comes with cars
dont think that you are ugly just
because your having scars

****

Starman, what would change if your banner shown a star rising instead of descending ? care to try it ?

lets look inside you:
when you are lonely, how do you feel?
when you are around people, how do you feel?

who takes advantage, who takes disadvantage when you feel/act the way you do?


and a completely different thing:
what would it take to make you happy:

can you describe what happiness would mean for you?
maybe its just as little, that needs to be changed,
so you will feel refreshed
anew

peace may be
and serenity

~~~~
the walker
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