Frustrated

[mudwolf]

I want to have a kid.
I think I am doing
everything that ought to make it happen
and it isn't.

In a vision many many months ago
I think I was told by a goddess
that I had too much to do first.
Well, okay. I have been working on a lot of that.
What else is that waiting for?
If the child isn't supposed to be in this lifetime,
then why didn't you TELL me that when I started?
And who is the little girl spirit that people
report they see around me?

So if there is something else I need to do,
can I be TOLD somehow what it is?

Or am I supposed to disbelieve
the vision I thought I had
and what people said they saw
and give up?

I am getting so frustrated.
:bastard: