DixieWitch
September 21st, 2005, 12:05 AM
Just so you won't be totally confused, the original title of this post was..."Kinda peeved at hubby...rant Then I changed it to "Kinda peeved at hubby...rant that opened my eyes"
We just watched Miami Ink. Of course, everytime I watch it, I get the itch for another tattoo. So I'm just goofing around online, looking at images. Something maybe with the moon and some stars. So I find something *I* like and show it to my hubby. (I'll attach a picture of it.) He thinks it's too busy, I don't. Maybe add some color to it....anyways. Long story short...he doesn't think I should get anything like this because he sees it as a Pagan symbol. And he doesn't want me to "get out of this" and regret the tattoo. "Get out of this" apparently is his way of saying that he now things Paganism is a phase I'm going through. He didn't actually say it, but I can tell by the way he said it it's what he meant. And I will admit that I have gone sometime in the past without activily "participating" but it didn't mean I didn't consider myself a Pagan. What truly amazes me is that of all the spells I've done in my life, 3 of them to be exact, HE'S the one who's come to me and asked me to do them. I think part of him has a certain view of Paganism and I apparently don't fit that view. I guess because I don't have a wart on the end of my nose, ride a broom or wear a pointy hat, I don't fit the mold. But as I type this, I realize something about myself.
He's actually opened my eyes..wow...now I know where my journey goes from here. It's all unfolding in my mind. Now I know it is truly time for more dedication to my faith. No no no, I'm not doing it as a "see, it's not a phase and I won't regret the tattoo" type thing. It's truly opened my eyes. I feel a new start in my very near future. For so long I've been at the fork in the road, not knowing which road to take...do I retrace my footsteps backwards or do I go left, right or down the middle? I don't think it matters. All I think that really matters is that I take a road, because all lead to the same point...true happiness in my life and the Goddess waits for me at the end of that road. I know I've got a lot of thinking to do now. And I know it's going to be a long, hard, and trying road. But now I know it's time for me to starting walking.
Wow here I was getting all pissed at him and it turned into a lesson for myself. I am so very happy right now!!! Things are finally looking up for me!!!! And in all of a span of like 5 minutes!! If I feel this way now, how will I feel when I actually start again?
Okay I'll stop for now. Thanks for reading this far. Oh yeah here's that picture....if I only had..what, $100 maybe $75, I'd get it tomorrow!!! It would be my way of showing the world of my new beginning!
We just watched Miami Ink. Of course, everytime I watch it, I get the itch for another tattoo. So I'm just goofing around online, looking at images. Something maybe with the moon and some stars. So I find something *I* like and show it to my hubby. (I'll attach a picture of it.) He thinks it's too busy, I don't. Maybe add some color to it....anyways. Long story short...he doesn't think I should get anything like this because he sees it as a Pagan symbol. And he doesn't want me to "get out of this" and regret the tattoo. "Get out of this" apparently is his way of saying that he now things Paganism is a phase I'm going through. He didn't actually say it, but I can tell by the way he said it it's what he meant. And I will admit that I have gone sometime in the past without activily "participating" but it didn't mean I didn't consider myself a Pagan. What truly amazes me is that of all the spells I've done in my life, 3 of them to be exact, HE'S the one who's come to me and asked me to do them. I think part of him has a certain view of Paganism and I apparently don't fit that view. I guess because I don't have a wart on the end of my nose, ride a broom or wear a pointy hat, I don't fit the mold. But as I type this, I realize something about myself.
He's actually opened my eyes..wow...now I know where my journey goes from here. It's all unfolding in my mind. Now I know it is truly time for more dedication to my faith. No no no, I'm not doing it as a "see, it's not a phase and I won't regret the tattoo" type thing. It's truly opened my eyes. I feel a new start in my very near future. For so long I've been at the fork in the road, not knowing which road to take...do I retrace my footsteps backwards or do I go left, right or down the middle? I don't think it matters. All I think that really matters is that I take a road, because all lead to the same point...true happiness in my life and the Goddess waits for me at the end of that road. I know I've got a lot of thinking to do now. And I know it's going to be a long, hard, and trying road. But now I know it's time for me to starting walking.
Wow here I was getting all pissed at him and it turned into a lesson for myself. I am so very happy right now!!! Things are finally looking up for me!!!! And in all of a span of like 5 minutes!! If I feel this way now, how will I feel when I actually start again?
Okay I'll stop for now. Thanks for reading this far. Oh yeah here's that picture....if I only had..what, $100 maybe $75, I'd get it tomorrow!!! It would be my way of showing the world of my new beginning!