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LunarWind
December 3rd, 2001, 10:04 AM
hello all, i am LunarWind, a 16y/o newbe wiccan. i thought id give you some of my backround before i ask for help.
I was raised as a roman catholic, and ive blindly follwed it for as long as i remember, until i saw kevin smith's(genuis, and a movie god) movie "DOGMA" . After seeing that movie i began questioning myself; "why do i belive this?","what do catholics belive", "what do I belive?". So i sat down and gathered my thoughts, i wrote down all my core belifes on a sheet of paper, then i pulled out the bible, i hour after hour, day after day, reading that "book". As i got futher through it i started to realize that this book contradicted everything i belived in. I felt disgusted in myself for blindly following something for this long, so thats wheni began my search for faith. for the next 3 or 4 years all i did was study religion, any religion u can name, i can tell u about a book i read on it, except for wicca. i always knew about it, but i was always afraid of it b/c of all the things i heard about it. But still i couldnt find the right faith, i tried some many of them but i could never feel like i fit in, i always had the bitter cold feeling down inside of me. But one day in barnes and noble, i saw a really spify book on Wicca and Witchcraft, so i realized i shouldnt be so closed minded and not base my opinions on the media, So i bought te book. When i got home i ran up to my room shut the door and began the one book that changed my life. As i began to read the Rede,the 13 goals of a witch, and just the core belifes, i began to feel the warth coming back into my soul. Everything written on those pages, was everything i have ever thought or belived in, i couldnt stop reading, i needed to know more, but half way through the book i just started to cry. i couldnt belive i finally found a religion where i felt i belonged, i felt amazing. For the next 5 months i would go out and buy a book, finish it, and buy another, ive spent about 2oo$ on books alone. And thats where i am now, i have embraced the Goddess and God and made many changes in my life to better please them and our mother earth(ex: im became a; vegetarian, animal rights activists, earth activists, and an over all more open minded person).
Well theres my story, thanks for sticking through all that rambling and ranting. Though i have been practicing Wicca for 5 months i still have not Dedicated myself!!! i know its crazy, but i need some ideas for a good location. i appricate any help u can give me. thanks.

ReverendAJS
December 3rd, 2001, 10:08 AM
Good luck Lunar Wind. It's good to hear your story. It sounds comfortably familiar. I have no sugestions for you about your Dedication. But the right location will find you, probably not the other way around.
Reverend aJS

Myst
December 3rd, 2001, 10:09 AM
MM.

A good location is anywhere you feel comfortable and safe. Any area can be cleansed and consecrated to your needs. Find a quiet safe spot and go nuts. Also it's not odd that you haven't done a dedication or initiation yet, everyone does it in their due time. I was studying Paganism for longer then that when I did it, there's no need to rush.

~**foxglove**~
December 3rd, 2001, 06:20 PM
It's great to see that someone went through similar processes to what I have. I was never precisely religious myself, but my parents have a washed down Christian perspective on things, and had always encouraged me to read the bible. So, when I was about twelve years old, (it may sound a bit odd) I went through a huge phase of reading the bible and studying it as much as I could, trying to draw answers from it. Although then, it seemed the answer to me, as I grew older it seemed to raise more questions, and eventually I began to look at many different religions, drawing from them what I felt best tied in with what I truly believed in. When I reached Wicca recently, five years after all my searching began, I felt immediately comfortable with it. Although I am not strictly wiccan - I consider myself simply pagan (in other words, I'm a bit of a mongrel, I have quite an eclectic mix of beliefs that have a bias towards wicca) I felt like I had finally reached a place that made sense to me. I am still learning, and still developing my beliefs, which I will continue to do for the rest of my life, but I think I have at last found a platform to launch myself from. Is it the same for you, LunarWind?

I wish you the best and, like others have said to me, 'welcome home'.

white_draco
December 3rd, 2001, 06:54 PM
Congratulations on your past journey and Good Luck on you future journey. Don't be knocked down, keep your hopes up, keep reaching for the stars, don't be brought down to ignorant people's levels, soar high, look up to the sky, don't be ashamed, don't put yourself to blame, the best is about to happen, the worst is about to happen, just keep yourself guarded, don't be cold hearted, follow your heart, your goals are stored there...


-White Draco-

LunarWind
December 3rd, 2001, 06:55 PM
thanks foxglove. it really dose feel like i have finally came home, the goddess and god have lived within me all these years, but not untill 5 months ago did i finally realize that. And to anwser your question; Kinda, i do intergrate some other belifs sytems, mostly eastern, into mine, but i am really drawn to Wicca and all aspects of it. thanks again fox, and give me an im sometime on AIM.

Dria El
December 4th, 2001, 11:25 AM
Welcome to Mystic Wicks LunarWind!!!

:)

AradiaSupernova
December 5th, 2001, 06:22 AM
Hiya :) I too had the same experience. I was "in search of" for about a year after I left Christianity behind for something that spoke to me. My 2 sisters were Wiccan before I was and they gave me the resorces to study it if I wanted to, though at first I was highly against the idea. Eventually I broke down and read through my twin sister's book Teen Witch by Silver Ravenwolf. It just clicked. I knew I was home :) Take care and Merry Part! :)

talamh
December 5th, 2001, 08:31 AM
Blessed Be, Lunar Wind. Many people, including myself, have experienced the "coming home" feeling when they finally connect with Wicca. i also cried when it happened to me... from relief, for beauty, for the understanding that i am not alone in my "weirdness". You are fortunate to have sisters with whom to share. i wish you blessing on your journey. It isn't always easy... but it is always essential. bb talamh

Rain Warrior
December 8th, 2001, 01:55 PM
On of my very favourite movies LunarWind.
I have watched it for many many times.
I did a good joke on it too. I gave it to one of my very strict christian classmates saying tht tht was a good chatolic film. He was not pleased with it, when I questioned him about it later.

Adrenaline Junkie
December 15th, 2001, 02:26 PM
What a great story. I'm so happy for you, that you found your path after all of these years!

As for your dedication, don't worry. When the time is right, it'll happen. Don't rush things.