Sorta Paranormal Sorta not

[Shaw]

I revealed in the paranormal thread that I can sometimes help the sick by taking there sickness until their own body heals. My problem is it always makes me sick and throws me into a deep depression that takes weeks or months to recover from. The answer may seem simple STOP. But I can't see someone sick or dying that I may be able to help and not do anything. This is one of my big secrets, that I am trusting you guys with.

[Dio]

It sounds like you are absorbing their sickness. You *really* don't want to be absorbing all of that. Next time, try focusing on pulling the sickness out of the person, and rather than bringing it into yourself, throw it away from yourself so it can dissipate on it's own.

[Mouse]

This is one of the things I also do *hugs* except most of the time I will only take the pain or the "edge" off the sickness. People get sick for a reason (or so i believe) and taking their illness (especially if it is a recurring illness) might actually do them damage.
It's great that your going out of your way to help people, but if your sick/depressed you wont be able to help them as much. Perhaps you could look intop reiki if you havn't already? then you'd be able to help yourself recover faster. :)

*more hugs* you sound like a great person. I hope you can find a way to take care of yourself without discontinuing your good work.
Bright blessings.
~mouse

[Shaw]

I don't know how to just take the sickness out or just take the edge off. Everytime I start to get better someone needs help and I'm sucked back down. I know that even bad things have a reason for being, but I just can't help it. It started 10 years ago. My great aunt was dieing of cancer and I thought I could help support her like that. Every day the doctors said this is it, she dies today. Well after one week I felt like I was the one dieing. And I had to let her go. I think that did something permanant to me. Since then I done better helping people, haven't lost any even my coz that got crushed by a truck. That messed me up bad to. My biggest problem is I don't ever completely recover and I'm starting to sink. All of me was hurt last time mind body and if possable spirit.

Tell me please how to help myself. It seems to be the only thing I can't help.

[Shaw]

Someone please have something to say

[taki yume]

I have no idea how to help you...I wish I did. Its amazing that you can do this, I sort of wish I had a "special power", as stupid as I sound saying it...

All I can suggest is trying what everyone else has said. Someone suggested that instead of drawing the sickness into yourself, try just drawing it out of them. You don't know how to do this, I realize you've mentioned it. How do you normally, erm..make them better (for lack of better wording)? If you concentrate hard enough doing the same thing, but invisioning the sickness going THROUGH you, back into the enviornment maybe?, where it can be naturally reabsorbed maybe that would work? I don't really know, but maybe its worth a shot?
Or maybe I'm just an idiot, since I don't really know what I'm talking about. But it *sounds* like a good idea to me...>.>;

[Mouse]

*thinks* ok, uhm..

How are your visualizations skills? and do you work well with colours? Or stones?

There are a few different techniques I can talk you through, if you like, but I'll need to know what you work best with, everyone has things they are better and worse at. Tell me what your comfy with and i'll break down a few techniques for you to practice. :)

[Shaw]

I like to work with the elements. I will make something that connects to that person and the four elements and then consume it.

[Mariposa De La Luna]

Maybe instead of consuming it you should burn it or bury it?

I suggest Reiki. It is supposed to protect you while you allow the universal healing energies to work through you. Its not the same as taking someone's illness away. Like for your dying aunt, it would have made her passage easier, not kept her alive. Many people have the same gift as you do and I hope you find some way of coping with it that works for you.

[Shaw]

I have not been perfectly clear. I borrow there illness and give my health. The problem comes when I try to get my health back. I can't, and I have to live with less of what health I had and there illness just has to where it's self out. It takes a toll on my mind and body, so the instruments that I would use to heal myself are damaged. I sound to me like a broken record.

[Brenda]

have you looked in the Empathic bunker? Maybe a good shielding technique could help

[Mariposa De La Luna]

You can use Reiki to heal yourself everyday. Once you have an attunement, the state of your mind and body should have no bearing on using the universal energies to heal yourself. And if you need it just ask here on the energy requests and many people will be happy to send you some healing energy.

[Shaw]

I plan to use Reiki but I have thought of something from the Empathy Bunker. Work in a circle and ground all of the negative in a black obelisk that currently has no real purpose.

But wouldn't such a tool become full of bane over time?

Thinking out loud