Rock bottom is to high for this

[Shaw]

I have hit the wall. Somewhere on this board I posted about me healing people and it causes me pain. Well I spent most of last night crying over my dads gun and then re loading it(they were duds). I feel a little better after an energy request. But now my friends baby is in distress and I know more help from me would kill me, or I would. For those that don't know I heal and then get sick and depressed, very depressed.

Why does these banes go strait for the soul every time. I messed up with the gun I know but when you feel like this, surrounded, hopeless what's the right thing. I'm in tears now.

[Tzhebee]

:hugz: Gods how I wish there was something I could say to help...but I don't know of anything. Perhaps you need to learn how to shield yourself better so that when you help people, the pain doesn't come back on you?

:hugz:

[BrigidMoon]

Healing and helping is a wonderful gift to give people. However at this point in time, you are becoming very ill by helping others. If you're feeling depressed or suicidal by absorbing what others' are feeling, perhaps you have an overload and need to decompress, have some down time to regain your strength and energy.

I'd also talk to someone about your depression. Perhaps what you're feeling is part of your issues too deep down something has risen from your work with healing others.

I am glad the energy request has helped. Just try to keep it inside of *you* so you can be healthy. Because if you're not healthy for yourself you cannot be much help to others.

Be careful, try to relax, talk to someone about your what's going on.

_pounce_

[BrigidMoon]

I found this article but not sure if this helps:

http://www.themystica.com/mystica/articles/h/healing.html (http://www.themystica.com/mystica/articles/h/healing.html)

[Shaw]

Thank you all

[yavanna]

You're so nice to want to help others to the point of your own illness, thats so selfless and very admarable, but please don't make yourself a martyr. There is so much healing to be done in the world, but if you destroy yourself, who will be left to continue healing the people you care about?

I don't know if you already do this, but have you tried calling on a higher power to help you heal, like asking for extra energy from the earth so that all of the energy for healing doesn't have to come directly from you? You may find it helps, but regardless, let your body rest for a while, you won't be helping your loved ones at all by tearing yourself apart inside.

I'm sending warm wishes and healing energies your way, be safe for those you care about, if not for yourself. :hugz: