Is it Possible....

[Walking Spirit]

Hi Everyone,

Do you think it is possible to gradually become "sensitive" or aware what have you in regards to your higher self, spirits, empathy etc. I was always a little bit as a childe, but recently I have noticed it has increased dramaticly (gradually over the last year). I have this fear that I am going crazy. That what I know, experience, feel etc is not real and that I am experiencing it because my mind is "playing tricks on me". I think that I am also a little cautious of excepting this and excepting it as an ability. Does any one else go through this? I am trying very hard to meditate but haven't gotten the hang of it yet. I think that I may have contact with a guide (what have you) but again, I wonder if it is just me (as I say this I hear in my head "no it's not). I know I must sound like a raving lunatic here, but I need some guidance and affirmations from someone on this side :shift:

[puchidevil]

yes walking spirit

a gradual awakening is not only possible, but many many people awaken to their gifts in this manner.

Usually an emotional trauma/upset in their lives is what makes them aware of their gifts becoming more sensitive/advanced.

And barring any illnesses such as schizophrenia or epilepsy, then you are probably not imagining your experiences.

If you wish to embrace these gifts you have re-discovered, then meditation, and lots of practice at it, is the way to go.

If you believe that these things may not be real - may i suggest you ask for proof. The usual way that proof is given is the mysterious appearance of either a feather or a butterfly - so simply silently ask for proof from your 'guide'. This proof will not appear immediately and may take a couple of days.

Good luck

[AlAskendir]

Hi Everyone,

Do you think it is possible to gradually become "sensitive" or aware what have you in regards to your higher self, spirits, empathy etc.

Yes, definitely, not only possible, necessary, required even! If such gradual improvement were not possible, there would be no point to being interested in any kind of metaphysical activity, or being engaged in any kind of 'practise' (as in: "How long have you been a paractising ___?" - - - Pagan, Witch, Psychic, Shaman, whatever...)

I was always a little bit as a childe, but recently I have noticed it has increased dramaticly (gradually over the last year).

If you didn't get to this point by meditating and practising, was there a traumatic event that you went thru in your life near the time that this dramatic improvement in your sensitivity occurred?

I have this fear that I am going crazy. That what I know, experience, feel etc is not real and that I am experiencing it because my mind is "playing tricks on me". I think that I am also a little cautious of accepting this and accepting it as an ability.

A little caution is good...but a self-deprecating caution is an addicting cop-out that many take....

Does any one else go through this?

All real mages do...there's an interesting upward climb ahead of you, tho everyone's climb is different. It generally goes: long pleasant plateau of established ability, little trouble, getting almost boring near the end...sudden traumatic event that shakes your foundations, lots of trouble in every way that you never expected.....calming, new ability, slow uphill development; repeat multiple times with variations. The problem is that there are a lot of people who are interested in this kind of thing and who have read some stuff, but have yet to experience one of these traumatic events and grow as a result - - - so they don't think that they (the traumatic events) are there or are necessary,,,but there is something about being completely unsure of everything you have ever believed while adrenaline is rushing through your bloodstream that opens your mind-spirit up to new thoughts, new paths, new feelings, new knowledge, new experiences, and new (and usually deeper and more effective) ways of doing things. Those who designed the reawakening of Wicca and Huna included this 'dark night of the soul' in their working as initiation...but over the years that has become more and more of a ceremony, and less and less of any working with any deep effect. So, most people now into some path of Paganism work at it as a gentle or steep continuous uphill climb, depending on how much commitment they have to whatever they have decided to practise.


I am trying very hard to meditate but haven't gotten the hang of it yet.

Do you know what 'tickling fish' is? It's a way of fishing where you put your hand in the water, hold it still while the fish you want swims up to it, then suddenly grabbing the fish and throwing it out of the water. My point? Like meditating, tickling fish is a skill whose chance of success cannot be improved by 'trying harder', only by 'trying softer'. The hardness with which you are trying might be the very reason you are not succeeding.....but what is your understanding of meditation? You might want to do some research, according to Neuro Linguistic Programming, daydreaming is meditating......

I think that I may have contact with a guide (what have you) but again, I wonder if it is just me (as I say this I hear in my head "no it's not).

Truly blessed! Soooo lucky!!! (and welcome to the club, as it were!)

I know I must sound like a raving lunatic here, but I need some guidance and affirmations from someone on this side :shift:

More guidance? On what?

[Walking Spirit]

Traumas (with little bits of good)

Got hit by a car
Severe Depression (almost checked myself into the hospital)
Got married (that's a good thing)
Had a misscarriage - knew it was going to happen but everyone thought it was just being nervous - also new the next time I got pregnant everything would be good - and was told so!
Parents marriage on a very downslop (more than usual)
Father attempted suicide
I watched someone die (took care of the person)
Same night father explained that he was in love with someone else
Parents seperated

Around the time of my pregnancy with daughter that it got strong (I believe mainly because of her - I had a spot beside my bed that I would keep clear for my "visitor" during this time. But the last year or so it has been a gradual uphill of I guess what would be defined as an awakening. It was during this time as well that I saw a medium (no a hokey one).

I was looking for guidance on what I should do next I guess. I was looking for affirmation that I am not going crazy and that what I am going through is real. Again, my biggest fear is someone looking at me like I am a freak. My husband is very supportive and he himself is a little "sensitive" but no where like myself - he can just sense spirits not get little messages from them.

[Geministar]

Dont worry darlin you are surley not alone. I myself was sensitive as a child and then lost it for years. It has slowley been coming back to be since anout the age of 19 and I am now 24. I think also that it is because of the struggles and tragidies I have had during this time that has opened my "abilities" back up. I dont tell alot of people what I do see because most of the population would think I was insane. I like coming here because I find there is always someone who has good advice or like expiriences. Alot of people have become pyschic after care accidents even, or head trama even so I figure if that could happen, then throughout the years you can open up more and more pyschically.Also it has been said if you can think you are possibly crazy, then your probobly not. Crazy people usually dont know they are crazy!I believe also that if you try to hard to meditate then it doesnt really work. Just relax, maybe get some guided meditation tapes and let it come naturally. It definantly takes practice.And Puchidevil gave a great suggestion for "asking for proof" you will find something if you ask. This is something I did myself, and found it in the form of a feather. I think when your working with anything in the "paranormal" realm your always going to question your sanity a little bit, there's nothing wrong with that. Just trust yourself, work on opening up your mind through meditation and learning new things, and let it come to you naturally. Good luck to you!

[Walking Spirit]

Thanks, feel a little bit not so crazy now. I aggree I have been trying to meditate too hard. Lesson learned.