aquinnah
March 22nd, 2001, 03:45 PM
As the crescent moon diminishes into dark, endless, night
As the salt creek waters are taken in by the North Atlantic waves
I ask you, My Lady, to take this weight from my heart.
Relieve me of my resentment, my sorrow, and fear.
Help me to forget the trespasses I have forgiven.
And if it be your will, let me trust again...
I am still feeling pain from an affair my lover had this summer that almost tore us apart. I rejoined my circle at Yule after a break of a couple of months and was very suprised to find my lover's ex-mistress had become part of the group (we had never met). I have forgiven my partner and he has remained faithful (I think) since the summer. His ex-mistress and I spoke about our difficulties and have remained committed to our group. She is a very lovely woman and I think she was hurt in this, too - after I came home last night from the Equinox ritual (in her living room!!!) he confessed to me that he had not told her about me before getting involved. That helps me trust her but not him. I know many pagans don't believe in monogamy - but I can't ignore my pain.
As the salt creek waters are taken in by the North Atlantic waves
I ask you, My Lady, to take this weight from my heart.
Relieve me of my resentment, my sorrow, and fear.
Help me to forget the trespasses I have forgiven.
And if it be your will, let me trust again...
I am still feeling pain from an affair my lover had this summer that almost tore us apart. I rejoined my circle at Yule after a break of a couple of months and was very suprised to find my lover's ex-mistress had become part of the group (we had never met). I have forgiven my partner and he has remained faithful (I think) since the summer. His ex-mistress and I spoke about our difficulties and have remained committed to our group. She is a very lovely woman and I think she was hurt in this, too - after I came home last night from the Equinox ritual (in her living room!!!) he confessed to me that he had not told her about me before getting involved. That helps me trust her but not him. I know many pagans don't believe in monogamy - but I can't ignore my pain.