Lady Blue
December 14th, 2001, 06:52 AM
Hiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!
*gleefull grin*... ok I haven't been around a long time.. Sorry about that... very long, boring, sad, and annoying slightly story... but then there we go.. thats life! I'm still trying to convince myself by repeating numerous times "life is beautiful, life is beautiful....*grits teeth* life IS BEAUTIFUL"... hehe... Yeah ok ok!
Anyhow I'm taking the advice of someone who implied something wondrous would happen if I posted an Intro here hahaha... yes I am naive but I do believe in wondrous things and god knows I need some wondrous things right now! lol... *sigh*
Ok... intro... well... as I mentioned in my first post I recently came back to England after spending 3 yrs in Poland in Wroclaw. As my moms side of the family is polish we deicded to up and leave the UK and start anew over there. Alas twas not meant to be... I didn't get into the international school I was trying to get into because maths levels there are astonishingly high and even though I'd been working really hard over the past three yrs it still wasn't good enough. Because fot aht and because the company that was renting out our houses was completely mismanaging them we had to come back to the UK. We arrived August and so I started college in the middle of September but have been very unhappy. It isn't because of college but because......... I'm finding it very difficult to stay at home or even in the same room with my mother. She is an alcoholic and has been since I was very little... This is why I am coming to the conclusion to get a job, make some decent money for a while <even though I have no quals> and go back to Poland. During the period when I wasn't attending school in Poland and preparing to come back to england I gave english conversations which was an easy way of making money and alot easier than over here in the uk. Thats what I intend to do for a couple of years. In the meantime I'm trying to prepare some presentations about dolphin therapy, healing and assisted therapy. This has been my lifelong passion and my career dream and I am getting closer to it. After meeting Dr hOrace Dobbs who happens to be a leading character in this area my dreams seemed so much closer. The problem at home is what is holding me back from completing my education.
As for Wicca.... ahh.... that came at a good moment a few years ago. It wasn't easy when I was in Poland and of course mom was drinking.... when I found Wicca it opened a whole new aspect in my life... a bit of a support. I felt love that I didn't know existed even for me. For a very long time I have had low self esteem but Wicca has helped me. It has made my dreams more reachable and has motivated me all the more to fullfill them. Even if I don't have an education I know I can do it. Wicca ... it feels a bit more my world... don't really know why but it just feels right. I am a dreamer... a hopeless dreamer... I do have an extremely creative imagination and it does help me get along. Lets me get away from the cruel world when I need to. Wicca has just help me believe that all this is true and does exist. I am grateful for that.
I hope I can spend more time with you now though if I do move out.... well.... I'll have to wait till I get my own comp... *sigh*... we'll see.
Hope to hear from you soon
Blessed Be
Lady Blue
*gleefull grin*... ok I haven't been around a long time.. Sorry about that... very long, boring, sad, and annoying slightly story... but then there we go.. thats life! I'm still trying to convince myself by repeating numerous times "life is beautiful, life is beautiful....*grits teeth* life IS BEAUTIFUL"... hehe... Yeah ok ok!
Anyhow I'm taking the advice of someone who implied something wondrous would happen if I posted an Intro here hahaha... yes I am naive but I do believe in wondrous things and god knows I need some wondrous things right now! lol... *sigh*
Ok... intro... well... as I mentioned in my first post I recently came back to England after spending 3 yrs in Poland in Wroclaw. As my moms side of the family is polish we deicded to up and leave the UK and start anew over there. Alas twas not meant to be... I didn't get into the international school I was trying to get into because maths levels there are astonishingly high and even though I'd been working really hard over the past three yrs it still wasn't good enough. Because fot aht and because the company that was renting out our houses was completely mismanaging them we had to come back to the UK. We arrived August and so I started college in the middle of September but have been very unhappy. It isn't because of college but because......... I'm finding it very difficult to stay at home or even in the same room with my mother. She is an alcoholic and has been since I was very little... This is why I am coming to the conclusion to get a job, make some decent money for a while <even though I have no quals> and go back to Poland. During the period when I wasn't attending school in Poland and preparing to come back to england I gave english conversations which was an easy way of making money and alot easier than over here in the uk. Thats what I intend to do for a couple of years. In the meantime I'm trying to prepare some presentations about dolphin therapy, healing and assisted therapy. This has been my lifelong passion and my career dream and I am getting closer to it. After meeting Dr hOrace Dobbs who happens to be a leading character in this area my dreams seemed so much closer. The problem at home is what is holding me back from completing my education.
As for Wicca.... ahh.... that came at a good moment a few years ago. It wasn't easy when I was in Poland and of course mom was drinking.... when I found Wicca it opened a whole new aspect in my life... a bit of a support. I felt love that I didn't know existed even for me. For a very long time I have had low self esteem but Wicca has helped me. It has made my dreams more reachable and has motivated me all the more to fullfill them. Even if I don't have an education I know I can do it. Wicca ... it feels a bit more my world... don't really know why but it just feels right. I am a dreamer... a hopeless dreamer... I do have an extremely creative imagination and it does help me get along. Lets me get away from the cruel world when I need to. Wicca has just help me believe that all this is true and does exist. I am grateful for that.
I hope I can spend more time with you now though if I do move out.... well.... I'll have to wait till I get my own comp... *sigh*... we'll see.
Hope to hear from you soon
Blessed Be
Lady Blue