Depressed and don't know what to do about it.....

[*kebra-moonstone*]

I am so depressed about life I just want to die, my boyfriend is going to be living in a motor home in the summer because she can't handle him....I feel like it's my fault....I don't really think I did anything really I just feel like my life is going to hell.....I have finals this week and I am so going to fail them...and thats bad then i have to take them next year and that really sucks........I just feel like everything is going wrong in my life and i don't know what to do...i feel like my boyfriend is mad at me and i don't know what to do.....

[BrigidMoon]

I am so depressed about life I just want to die, my boyfriend is going to be living in a motor home in the summer because she can't handle him....I feel like it's my fault....I don't really think I did anything really I just feel like my life is going to hell.....I have finals this week and I am so going to fail them...and thats bad then i have to take them next year and that really sucks........I just feel like everything is going wrong in my life and i don't know what to do...i feel like my boyfriend is mad at me and i don't know what to do.....


I'm sorry you feel this way. :hugz:

[*kebra-moonstone*]

I have no idea what to do. I just want to be able to fix everything so it is all good but i don't know how and what to do......

[LyraDragonStar]

but it's not your fault, and a lot of it is out of control. If you need to talk, you know I'm here. :hugs:

You've got a lot of people behind you, ya know?

[*kebra-moonstone*]

it might not be my fault but thats the way i feel. I feel like I can't do anything right, My step-dad tells me that I am the reason my mom drinks. Then again when my mom is drunk she has kicked me out of the house and Thanks to LyraDragonStar I had somewhere to go, and she tells me that she hates me and that she wish she has never had me......i feel like crap I feel like when i try to do something right it just doesn't well i feel like I am just a peice of crap that can't do anything.....*crying*

[DreamSpell333]

So sorry that your having a rough time. As for your finals, do you still have time to study up a bit? maybe you wont do as bad as you think you will :) As for your boyfriend. Can you talk to him and see if he is mad,or if there is something bothering him? As for your moms drinking problem, i dont see how it's your fault You didnt make her drink.Im sorry your parents are giving you a hard time. Wishing you all the best,and hoping that things get better for you.Hang in there sweetie!! :hugz:

[BrigidMoon]

it might not be my fault but thats the way i feel. I feel like I can't do anything right, My step-dad tells me that I am the reason my mom drinks. Then again when my mom is drunk she has kicked me out of the house and Thanks to LyraDragonStar I had somewhere to go, and she tells me that she hates me and that she wish she has never had me......i feel like crap I feel like when i try to do something right it just doesn't well i feel like I am just a peice of crap that can't do anything.....*crying*

Thank you for telling us what's going on. I am sorry this is happening to you. I think your stepdad should look at himself for being an enabler in your mom's battle against drinking. I don't think blaming you is doing your mom any good. I am glad that you have a place to stay though. It sounds like you should stay away from your mom and stepdad for a while.

Can you stay with another parent or family member?

[*kebra-moonstone*]

i don't there would be any way that i could stay with anyone else but it would really be nice to just get out of the hhouse for a night but i have no where to go and it sucks

[BrigidMoon]

i don't there would be any way that i could stay with anyone else but it would really be nice to just get out of the hhouse for a night but i have no where to go and it sucks


Thought from what you told me that your mom kicks you out for the night? Or does she just kick you out for a few hours?

[*kebra-moonstone*]

she kicks me out for a few hours but when i get home she just yells at me and i dont' know what to do about it

[Necrosapien]

I can only partially relate to your feelings, love. I am not doing great on my finals and classes and with my bad GPA I'm probably going to be put on academcic probation. I broke up with my girlfriend three + months ago and I'm still having a hard time not bing with her. I'm alone and lonely and while I have friends to talk to...I don't have anyone I can connect with. I lost my faith, for real this time. I don't see myself ever gelieving how or what I did...so I don't feel like I have a connection with God or Diety anymore. I know what it's like to be depressed. I've gotten to the point where I'm about to kill myself, but I can never bring myself to do it. I cut, and engage in other self-destructive behaviors. I'm saying this because I thought that maybe knowing that there was someone who felt teh same way as you might help you feel a bit better...just knowing you aren't alone. I'm trying to get through things too and I don't know even how I mad it this far. You'll make it through if it's not by your own power, by someone who's looking out for you. If you need someone to talk to, get ahold of me. I'm always willing to listen, even if I can't understand everything...

Love,

Necrosapien C:-=

[Silverwolfthorn]

right. Time to cram. You need to study and study hard. Go out and get yourself some chocolate then cram cram cram. You don't want to have to repeat the exams. If you concentrate on one thing at a time. Maybe tell your boyfriend and get him to help you. good luck xx

[Amythest]

I know it is hard when your parents lash out in frustration. From the ages of 12-18 it seemed that my mom was kicking me out of the house ever few months. It took the police to make my parents accept me back into the house, and tentions were very thick for a long time. On top of what I thought were parents that didn't care for me I had a personal struggle going on. My sister brought me one day when I was 12 to her work, and introduced me to the owner of the resturant where she worked. He took an immediate liking to me, so I worked there under the table in the kitchen as a short order prep cook. One day I found out exactly why he took a liking to me. I was an innocent...! And he found delight in preying on them. Well, I became a victim to him. When he was finished with me, I ran into the resturant and into the bathroom for nearly 20 mintues I scrubbed myself from head to toe. Then walked out and saw my family sitting at the table in the corner. I went up to my parents begging and pleading to leave and just go home, but they refused. I was so embarrassed as to what had happened I could not tell them, not there not then. To make matters worse the guy gave me money, (which made me feel really bad a whore if you will). My innocence was gone and my parents had no clue. He told me that if I ever told he knew where I lived and would come and hurt me and my family. I believed him, and kept it bottled in until I graduated highschool. I went through many years of depression and made several attempts to kill myself. But I was saved by my favorite highschool instructor, and every day I am alive I silently thank him for his intervention. But anyway, my mom told me when I was 18 that if I didn't tell her what was wrong she was going to force me into an assylum. So with tears in my eyes I told her. It was then that I realized how much they truely cared. My mom called the cops, and my father treatened to kill the guy. I still to this day on occassions have nightmares over this. The worse part is that he had me so scared for so long, the cops couldn't do anything about it, so he got away with doing that to me, my sister, and dozens of other girls.
Sometimes out of frustration over events going on we lash out to those which we care so deeply for. Even repeatedly. Not saying this is right or wrong, but it does happen more times then people want to realize. I am here for you if you need someone to talk to... And maybe I can share more of my tragic upbringing. You are not alone.... Trust deeply in yourself, you are stronger then you realize.... :D Gods Bless.... Love and Light....