Anniversary grief

[Earthy]

Okay, the 21st (tomorrow) is the anniversary of my grandad's death. 12 years tomorrow and yet it still feels like yesterday that i found him.
I'm not really looking for anything but hugs really..i think i just need to talk.
I found him in the chair,and my life fell apart.
My grandarents brought me up, they were my life..and even now i still cry for them.
Does it get easier? The grieving i mean?
I still hurt like i did back then, i still miss them both and i know they're not coming back so why do i wish it so much?
The rest of my family seem to have forgotten but he has always been an important part of my life, in life and death.
He was only 58 when he died, and i guess i mourn the life he missed out on, i mourn the fact he never met my son, whom he would have idolised :)
I think i am scared to stop mourning, because in my mind it means i have forgotten him and i'm terrified about forgetting him.

Sorry, if this is too long..i just need a hug please.

[LostSheep]

I know what that's like ... March 16 is a date I'll never forget.

I came in, thought she was asleep ....

I know what you must be feeling .... :hugz:

[Tzhebee]

Honey dear! It's not too long, you could write a book and it wouldn't be too long. :hugz:

I wish I could say that the grief goes away...but I'm dealing with my own, and while it's only been 2 years, it's not getting any easier for me. I'm so sorry sweety.

I have as many hugs as you need. :hugz:

[Nighthawk]

Man... it does get easier.. kinda. You never forget. Trust me. But to punish yourself would be wrong too. Remember that you are here. We can talk about that later... I am sorry. Girl, you gotta get feeling better... love ya.. *hug*

[BrigidMoon]

I feel depending on the year. This year for whatever reason my grandfather's death really got to me and he's been gone since I was 9! So..I think it really depends on how you are doing in general. It's not that I am doing badly or I am depressed, I've just had more time to think about it and mourn. I think and feel sometimes that's all we need to do. Mourn.

[Morr]

*lots of hugs to you Earthy!*

[aislin_ryann]

:hugz: It is good to remember, but don't dwell. :) My thoughts are with you.

[Malcolm]

Is sucks when people die but you can't dwell....*hugs*

[Earthy]

You know what..today has been pretty good.
Usually i am in a mess when i remember him, but i've been fine.
I haven't mourned his death today, instead i have remembered his life, and i have finally realised that i can never forget somebody who helped me become the person i am.
He will always be with me, he's part of me.
Thankyou so much everybody. :hugz:
I'm sure all your energies and hugs helped open my eyes.

[smckim]

The mourning does end, but that doesn't mean that you have forgotten the loved ones gone. The ending of mourning just means that you have accepted their death, and come to terms with it. You don't love them any less or miss them any less, and their love will always be with you. They go on their journey, and we go on with our lives here, and we keep them forever close in our hearts. It isn't the end, our paths will cross again, this I believe. To all our loved ones that have passed on, and to all of us that miss them, Blessed Be.

[Kalika]

:hugz:

The greiving itself doesn't get easier... but time does tend to dull the pain a bit.

[BrigidMoon]

Earthy,

You are such a wonderful and dear friend to me here, sis. I wish for you a wonderful new year without the darkness, pain and suffering...with more light and love than ever!

:hugz: