Pulling out of a major depression...

[blackroseivy]

...Just starting to feel like I can do things again. I really hate when you feel like crying for no reason, everything seems hopeless, & you can't make the effort to lift your pinky... Does anyone else suffer from this? I am bi-polar - as it happens, I was without my anti-depressant for too long, thus the crisis of sorts. Got some more today, some online friends cheered me up, still can't really work but anticipate doing stuff tomorrow.

[SidneyCozzoi]

well, glad to hear you're feeling better. I have never been diagnosed with anything but my mom suffers from depression so I've seen what people can go through. It's why I study Pa Kua. Hope you continue to find light in the darkness.

[SilverClaw]

Thatis good to hear Danubhe, I am still struggling to get out of my depression spree here, but I am glad to hear you are doing better. :hugz:

[Arion]

I was diagnosed with depression, severe anxiety and social phobia when I was 13. It's been about 4 years and I've been okay for the last 2 or so. It's a very slow process, but things do get better, I feel myself improving all the time. There are times when I'm still pretty miserable, but the difference is that now I can handle it a lot better. Sometimes you just need to ball your eyes out and clear all the sadness out of you so you can move on with your life. I'm glad things are looking up for you and I hope they continue to get even better.

[blackroseivy]

Yes, thanx for the kind words!

These illnesses suck. It doesn't help when stuff happens - I just found something that made me think I shouldn't have been posting my Tarot deck I'm working on around here... :(

I went over at the bank, & owe them $30. That's never fun!

The guy in whom I am interested is an allergic non-cat-person. This makes me very sad. :(

Oh well, life's itches - what can you do about them?

[Lorrie]

My son and I have battled depression for several years. Only someone who has been there can understand just what it is like! I haven't had any problems for a few years, but I panic when I look around and see shadows instead of color still, so afraid to slip away again! My son went through it first, I couldn't understand, but was there for him. When I went through it, he was with me through it also. People would talk to me, I could hear them, but it was like they were somewhere else, I felt so disconnected! I learned to try to do everything out of routine, try to draw, walk, anything to make myself move and think. I thought I would never make it out of that deep hole into the light. I am terrified of going through it ever again. The worst part is other people telling you that it is all in your head- you know they have never been there. If only they were right. Medications never worked for me, made me more unable to function. Right now I am on Amitriptylin, but I am using it for nerve damage from chemicle burns in my feet and ankles, my doctor figured it was cheap medication and works well for nerve pain, and was an antidepressant, she knew being taken off of my feet was quite upsetting for me! I found meditation is more helpful than medication for preventing problems. Once the depression hits, there isn't much you can do to stop it though, you have to learn to head it off when the symptoms creep up on you. I do understand the pain of anyone going through it and send strength energy to all who are!!!!!!

[BrigidMoon]

I think everyone around this time of year battles a bit of depression. I am very glad you feel better!! I know it's hard taking meds for this. I commend you on taking them and working through your depression. :hugz:

[blackroseivy]

I don't ever intend to go off my meds, unless at some point I am able to attempt to have 1 child... (another source of my feeling down)

I have taken my Zoloft & now I just feel mainly tired, though I am also overeating!!! :( Cookies. I can't stop myself sometimes!! :P

I'm trying to stop with that but it is VERY hard... Meanwhile, though, I have work to do. An opening to get ready for, & a deck to finish - & COPYRIGHT!!! :(

Thanx again for those of you who share... I have tomorrow to just rest & goof around, which I badly need.

[Walking Spirit]

I was diagnosed with Depression at 14. After I argued with the Doctor who told me and my parents it was just me having trouble adjusting to adolescents. Can you believe it - I was asking for help and they wouldn't give it. I have been on and off meds since I was 18. My last real bad bout was about two years ago. But I feel good now, not 100% because I have good days and bad, even good minutes and bad. I can really relate to the scariness of it all. I look back now to two years ago, and it's as if I am looking at a stranger.

It really does help to have someone around you that knows what you are going through. It makes it a little easier to talk, because you don't have to feel funny about how sad or down you are about something that may appear small - because that person has been in the same spot at one point in their lives.

[blackroseivy]

That is exactly why I always relate to my "peers". My art studio is at a drop-in center for mental health "clients" (read patients). Sandy always has something to say to cheer me up. The pair who run the place are terriffic, & a GREAT motivation to me to continue with my art. There is a fellow artist there who always gives me great encouragement.

Always remember that we are here to talk to, here, too! :)