Morrigan the Raven-Eyed

[Rowan Darkmoon]

My lady,

I have been very confused lately. I had not explored my spirituality in so long, and then I began to explore again. Now I am lost. I feel I have nothing. Please guide me again to where I can be comfortable with myself, and feel like I HAVE a spirituality again vs. this mysticism in an empty void.

I know the void is you, that you are there in nothing, but I don't feel it anymore. Please help me.

[Rowan Darkmoon]

My lady,

I have asked you for strength, and you have granted it to me in this way. I would not have expected or asked for it like this, but I see your hand in my life. I have seen your totem, I know what it means, but it hurts me.

My lady I know that you are always there, and I feel you more then ever in my life. Guide my along your path, that I may be a fierce warrior for you.

I know that this is right.

[Rowan Darkmoon]

I am worthy, I am good. I am worthy from the top of my head to the soles of my feet. I am worthy from the depths of my soul to my lightest thought.

When I worry, this is what you give me. I don't feel worthy. Mostly I don't feel anything, and then sometimes I feel hatred. I don't want to hate, but I don't want to love either.

But, I am worthy, I am good. And I will remind myself until I really feel it.

[Rowan Darkmoon]

My lady, you have given me strength and for that I feel grateful. You have taken my fear, and molded it into joy. I do not want to let that go. I feel my life has meaning, which is more then I could have asked for.

I look forward to what lies ahead in my life, but I fear for those I leave behind. Protect them with your sword and spear, as I know that I have and always will be watched over.

Your beauty and terror fill me with awe. :lol: May I see your eyes again, may mine be burnished steel.

[Rowan Darkmoon]

Speak to me of the plans that you have for me over again.

[Rowan Darkmoon]

My lady, raven-winged beauty. You call us in death to you that we may know peace and the Mystery that lays beyond without fear.

May you carry her soul on your harsh black wings to the home where dwells her God and Goddess. May they welcome their strong daughter with open arms and happy hearts.

May she enjoy what she could not in life, and may her ties be broken.

May she finally be free.

[Rowan Darkmoon]

My lady, I am confused. My mind feels broken and scattered, and I am scared of the future. I see two paths in my way, but I know not which one to chose.

I will let you be my guiding force as always. Watch over me and mine, and allow me to weather the storm.

Allow me to regain my focus and my clarity. Allow me to sleep without dreams of the future, without fear.

May my eyes always be burnished steel. May I be the strong daughter you have given me glimpses of.

[Rowan Darkmoon]

My lady, I thank you for making my path clear to me. It hurts my heart what is ahead.

I feel angry, and then I feel guilty. What do I feel guilty for; I have a right to be angry? It overflows into my daily life, and then I feel volatile.

Why am I scared of being angry, or why do I think that other people will think poorly or me if I am angry? I have grown to become fond of R, but I feel like she still is a mystery unto herself, and sometimes I hate her for it.

She reminds me of you, strong and dark. Help me to see how as she really is, and to be seen as I really am.

I thank you my lady, you are too kind to me.

[Rowan Darkmoon]

In the night,
with the circle cast we start the rite.
My love arrives,
in the darkness we become alive.
Fly my heart on the wings of the raven.
To beyond the lands of the dead and the craven.
When the moon rises higher,
we are one with the fire,
and beyond seems as now in our souls.

[Rowan Darkmoon]

I thought that your love would always be here.
I'd have nothing to fear.
So I wandered away in the dark and the tears,
In myself.

I could feel your love everywhere.
Saturated with care.
And as I battled myself, deep in despair
I would know.

I thought that your love would always be there.
The end of nightmare.
But when I returned from the home of the deep and the drear.
You were gone.

[Rowan Darkmoon]

My lady, grant me a safe and happy trip tomorrow. I've been looking forward to this as a chance to relax and rejuvanate. :)

[Rowan Darkmoon]

My lady, thank you for the safe trip. It was wonderful, but exhausting. I'm still worried about what the future will hold for us all, but I feel more confident in myself and my abilities again.

I'm am always shocked at how we each see the world so differently based on our experiences. I don't think of myself as having blinders on, but it is so easy to get lost in our own little worlds.

Help me work through this time, and the loneliness and anxiety.

I know that you are with me. :)

[Rowan Darkmoon]

Charge of the Dark Goddess

http://www.mysticwicks.com/showthread.php?t=3651

Dark lady, hear my prayers. Allow this transition to take place smoothly and quickly, and allow me to breathe easier.

I thank you for your guidance and your strength.

[Rowan Darkmoon]

My lady, allow Morr's child to be born swiftly and healthfully. Allow her to have a happy wonderful entrance to this world. I know that she will be beloved by all.

[Rowan Darkmoon]

My lady,

Help me to find the strength within myself to stand up to those individuals who do not share my ideas and vision for my life. Help me to feel strong enough in myself that what others think of me doesn't matter any longer.

Help me to see conflict in worthy battles as a positive and enlightening experience. So often, I hate the battle, the blood, and the war, and so I refuse to fight, or I fight in a way that is not worthy of your daughter.

Allow me to take good care of myself, allow me to see myself as worthy of taking care of. When this is over, I will breath easier as it is the "unknowing" that makes it unbearable, the slow pull of the band-aid off the open wound.

Let me cleanse my wounds and make the choices so that I am no longer sacrificing myself, and can enjoy my free time and stop hating Mondays!!

I thank you my lady, may I strive eternally to find the path you have set forth for me.

[Rowan Darkmoon]

My lady, thank you for this wonderful weekend; the chance to bond and meet new, wonderful people.

For the past few weeks, or months, I have felt calm and centered. I know that this insight and clarity is your doing.

Allow me to remain strong and kind, to help others, and to point the way.

May my eyes continue to be burnished steel, may I make myself worthy of being your daughter.

[Rowan Darkmoon]

Ah, scratch the calm and centered feeling. :lol:

Please watch over my father, milady. I know that what he's done is wrong, but give him the strength to admit that he's wrong and make it right. He's been through a lot, and I know that he truly cares about her and could be happy if he can be himself. Give him the strength to make that journey.

I feel that my sisters have betrayed him, but I also feel that that's not fair. Give me the strength to forgive them, and to work with them. They have been hurting for so long.

I have a lot of guilt with this, milady. I felt that I should have been there instead of off in my own little world. Allow me to come to some kind of balance, to feel empowered and strong. Allow me to have the courage to go through tomorrow and the next day living to myself as truly as possible.

You have shown me the way, and the path is well marked, I just stumbled off of it a bit.

[Rowan Darkmoon]

A kiss upon my throat could make the world go round
the sound,
of sweat and skin
again, a sin.
But you know what you did.

I did agree with this, a kiss
upon the other side, it slides
down the column of the bone
to rest, abreast
of black ink, scarred remembrance

Dark, dark in contrast to the whiteness
of my back.
It takes me back,
to the time when I last felt like this,
amiss, and
ironic that love should prove itself to be
so dirty in so many faces.

[Rowan Darkmoon]

Milady,

Even though this day has been stressful, I thank you for it. I thank you for it all. I often wonder at how I go through a day, it seems like it can be so fast, but there is still some many wonderful things that I can feel and learn.

Sometimes I feel so good, and then it can change so quickly. Sometimes I feel wise, and then idiotic. :lol: I feel like you guide me in what I do, you plant my feet, and I grow wise and strong and beautiful in your ways.

But I know that it will change; that I won't always feel good. Help me to take a bit of the good to weather the bad. Help me to reach the strength when I feel weak; when I feel frustrated.

Thank you.

[Rowan Darkmoon]

See, again, I knew that things would change in a blink of an eye. :lol:

I feel guilty milday, guilty that I may have done things that are below me. But, the problem is, I didn't do anything wrong. I worry about these issues, but I know that it is part of my anxiety, and I find comfort in the fact that I am working on it, and can recognize it. That I can change it.

Sometimes I wonder why I worry about the things I do, when bad things may be beneficial for me. I'm not without options or hope. I don't know, fear of people thinking badly of me? I know that that is something that I struggle with as well.

I pray to you for strength of character and strength of belief in my character. That I may see myself truly, and that I may act in a way that is in accordance with my belief.

Blessed be.