Feeling more alone than ever.

[blackroseivy]

So, ok, like, the search continues... ad infinitum ad nauseum & into the next century no doubt...

I guess I'm just complaining. I'm probably better off than I know, etc... But I'm looking for someone. Of course, I should stop looking. At my age, though, it's very tough to just relinquish the search...

I'm still soul-mate-less...

There just feels like there is a huge hole in my life that no matter how I try, I can't fill - that's all.

I just (as in 2 days ago) stopped trying to do it with sweets, after having gained back about 9 hard-won pounds. I need to lose at least 30...

So what I'm doing is no good for me. I know.

Just to review, I live in an isolated place with no car. +, you must understand, I'm a Druid. (Yes, in a place this size, with all the conservative Christians around, it DOES make a huge difference.)

Just thought I'd drop a line, no I'm not suicidal but I'm pretty blue, anyway... :(

So sick & tired of it all.

[woodlandfairy]

I am sorry you are feeling that way, I have had the same thoughts and feelings at one time or another. Cheer up! hugs for you! [Woodlandfairy hands Danubhe a bright yellow baby chick, marshmellow Peep]

[The Lady]

Oh I know how you feel! Soul mates are difficult to find but don't lose hope there is one out there for you, for me, for the next person too. It takes time, prayer, meditation, and lots and lots and lots and lots . . . of waiting!

In the mean time, do you think you could get a used car at all? And, do you think you could move to a place more hospitable to being a Druid? Just some thoughts so you are can be around people with like mind.

Otherwise, be sure to check in here more often, plenty of Druids here!!

PM or IM me if you'd like, I'm new Druid but enthusiastic.:cheers:

[Geo]

I'm sure you will meet some one. You seem like a nice person
I find the best way to find what you want is not to look it always seems to find its own way. You just got to know it when it happens And it will

:hugz:

[BlackMagicalCat]

Aww,Im sorry you feel so alone,so do I at times.

It looks like Im going to die alone too,except for my cats,LOL

Tabitha and Samantha ,my magickal cats,keep me company all the time.

One is prissy,and wont cuddle with me,Tabitha,and the other is loving,and cuddles all the time.Samantha

One bites me if I touch her the wrong way,and he other purrs when I touch her,Well,may you find the desire of your heart,and may you be blessed with a loving and kind man.

May God smile on you.

[Amelserru_halqu]

Don't worry you will find someone. Just remember you never know when they will _pounce_ on you.

[AineDanu]

Hugs - While it is tough being lonely for so long I am sure you will find someone when the time is right. :) now saying this I do understand the wanting that time to hurry up and get here :P

Best wishes and if nothing else at least you have many good friends around here to talk with and help the lonliness fade.

[blackroseivy]

Wow, you guys are so great! (Thank you for the chick!!) I wasn't even sure I'd get replies here... I'm really feeling isolated!

I know, I know, more patience. But I've been patient for over 2 decades... & still it goes on & on...

Someone is interested - a Druid - but he has had a severe throat infection, he can't talk on the phone, & well - how do I put this? He has a communication problem, & his libido seems to dictate his behavior. If you know what I mean. No "live" experience of it, but he DOES seem to tend to dwell on the subject. & I never know when I might hear from him... It was so long, I did start looking elsewhere. Now I don't know what to do...

I will just be patient, as people have said - kind peeps!! :D - & see when, or if, anything develops.

Meanwhile, I'll just keep coming here to talk, I guess... ((((((((hugz))))))))

[Brenda]

:hugz: :hugz: :hugz:

[2steps]

I'm sorry you feel so down right now. hope someone comes along for you soon so you don't feel so alone. I can partly understand hw you feel, the girl I love lives 200 miles away and I'm stuck here :(

[HetHert]

Tell the Universe exactly what your looking for in your soulmate...and by tell I mean yell it! Out loud! For I feel we have many and if your not specific you could be getting all these great friends or a few people whom are suppose to be in your life but not exactly the romantically and deeply emotionally bonded mate your looking for. If you've already done this than all I have left is :hugz: and morale support!

[blackroseivy]

Yeah. That's too bad...

Well, there is a guy interested... sort of! Ironically, he is much further away - it's gotta be something around 400 mi.'s. So as you say, I'm stuck here - wondering what the HECK is going on with him. I just left him a rather long offline YIM about this very thing. He 1st appeared in my life in November. Yes, November. This is a LONG time to be waiting around to finally meet/communicate with somebody!! :(

He went to see his sons (he has 2 living with their mother) over Xmas - & while there, he broke a tooth. After a while, it abscessed. He had made a dentist's appointment, but they couldn't see him until the end of February!!! - I know how it is, when I changed an appointment from Feb., they couldn't get me in until May. BUT: MY emergency of that sort already got taken care of - I had to have a tooth out a while ago. Now, Rob was just letting this pain get worse & worse, before you know it, it's spreading to the rest of his mouth & then to his throat! & to make matters worse, he STILL didn't go to the emergency room - no, he had to be AIR-LIFTED to a hospital in DC where ironically I was at the time. After which, he lost his voice. I guess he made it even worse by trying to speak. (His smoking wouldn't have been doing him any favors, either!!) So, the upshot is, I didn't hear from him from about the end of December until the tail end of January. Then he turns up again - sounding really interested. THEN he disappeared again - he said he had to have a salivary gland removed, & aside from the talking, well - it would have been nice to hear from him via this here machine, you know? But, no. He disappeared again until just a few days ago, when he finally left me a message. He had been supposed to call me on my birthday; having disappeared some days before that, well, I can tell you I'd stopped expecting anything much!

He said that he "figured I'd written him off" & that I wouldn't be interested anymore. Well, not true. So, I wrote him back & told him that any way he could talk to me, I'd take. I just left him a note (as I said), saying that while I am VERY patient, still, I wouldn't mind just a LITTLE bit more from him in the way of communication.

What do you-all make of this??

[blackroseivy]

As for the 'soul-mate" stuff - whatever I've done hasn't been working very well, since I've met guys who didn't stick around - & the last one was really much more of a friend, just as you say!

I intend to do a simple spell soon to draw the right one to me. I think a little yelling is in order there, too!! :D I'll certainly give it a try, at any rate!! Thanx for all the support out there, once again!!

[Willow Rosette]

Oh my friend Im so sorry you are feeling blue. I think maybe it is just that time of year cause I have a case of it as well. You know Im always here for you and able to chat. But as for the guy hunt honey please be patient. Please remember the cards did say he was comming but you have to be patient and stop looking. Have faith in the Goddess that she will bring the best one for you when you are ready for him. :hugz: my friend.

[blackroseivy]

That is SO SWEET!!! :D

I DID kinda stop looking - I stopped expecting Robin to do anything, maybe if I don't expect much it'll work out all right. That's what I'm wondering: is he just playing with me, or might this be worth it??

[Willow Rosette]

You know I had the whole expectations conversation the other day with a friend. Victorias father had told me my expectations were to high for him. I couldnt understand it. I dont expect anymore from him than I do anyone else or myself for that matter. But maybe that is just how men are. I really think most expect to screw up and so think no one expects much out of them. I was looking for awhile and although Im keeping my eyes open for Mr. Right I have come to realise there are other aspects of my life that need my attention more right now and well there really wouldnt be much time or energy for dating. Try and open your eyes and see what the Goddess needs you to change to open yourself to Mr. Right so when he comes along you will be able to recognise him and you will be ready. :hugz:

[Zhr Morgana]

Believe me, I know very well how frustrating it is to be alone.

The important thing to remember is that no matter how alone you feel...YOU ARE NEVER REALLY ALONE. So many people are also alone out there, and feel the exact same thing you do.

If you're really wanting to meet people, maybe you should start setting up accounts with dating websites like Plenty of Fish (http://www.plentyoffish.com), Match.com (http://www.match.com) or somewhere you can chat with local people in your area with similar religious preferences. You may think they're hard to find...but where have you looked for them?

Maybe you should just start going places on your own. Nothing crazy, maybe just for long walks everyday with a journal and a pen. Write down your adventures, your dreams. Or start frequenting the local coffee shops or bookstores.

As for this guy who may/may not be interested...don't reserve all your energies on him. You've made yourself clear...now it is up to him if he wants to take the next step. Don't put yourself on hold for him though...keep on living.

You are only isolated if you believe you are and take the steps to become so. Remember that.

Hope this helped...and good luck. PM me anytime you need a shoulder to lean on.

[The Lady]

Tell the Universe exactly what your looking for in your soulmate...and by tell I mean yell it! Out loud! For I feel we have many and if your not specific you could be getting all these great friends or a few people whom are suppose to be in your life but not exactly the romantically and deeply emotionally bonded mate your looking for. If you've already done this than all I have left is :hugz: and morale support!

Oh yes, yes! Excellent advice!! I have done this already and it helps; lots of attention but not quite the right one yet but it will come in its own good time.

:hugz:

[blackroseivy]

Believe me, I know very well how frustrating it is to be alone.

The important thing to remember is that no matter how alone you feel...YOU ARE NEVER REALLY ALONE. So many people are also alone out there, and feel the exact same thing you do.

If you're really wanting to meet people, maybe you should start setting up accounts with dating websites like Plenty of Fish (http://www.plentyoffish.com), Match.com (http://www.match.com) or somewhere you can chat with local people in your area with similar religious preferences. You may think they're hard to find...but where have you looked for them?

Maybe you should just start going places on your own. Nothing crazy, maybe just for long walks everyday with a journal and a pen. Write down your adventures, your dreams. Or start frequenting the local coffee shops or bookstores.

As for this guy who may/may not be interested...don't reserve all your energies on him. You've made yourself clear...now it is up to him if he wants to take the next step. Don't put yourself on hold for him though...keep on living.

You are only isolated if you believe you are and take the steps to become so. Remember that.

Hope this helped...and good luck. PM me anytime you need a shoulder to lean on.

THANK you!!!

To answer your 1st question: Oddly enough, right where you said to. I have quit POF recently after 0 answers to my ad over many months' time. Nope, no-one in this EXTREMELY conservative area... No coffee anything, no book-shops. I'd have to take a cab to go to the coffee-house, which is an expense & a difficulty. I live in a TINY little place!! It's barely a town!

In my personals, I always say that I am Druidic right off the bat. Of course it puts them off - it's meant to! If they can't deal with it, I need that to screen them out immediately. There is VERY little turnover for the ads in this place. Again, TINY!! Think 2 whole blocks & that's "downtown"!! I live there, even!

Sure I could go over to Waverly - that's over the border - to the coffeehouse, but I think I could afford to do that once a month at the most, & how do you get to know anybody that way? I'm honestly not trying to make excuses, only pointing out the extreme difficulties lying in my way.

So, Robin may have to be it. He is my age-ish & Druidic, he doesn't mind the distance from VA to northern PA, he knows already that I am disabled & doesn't care...

A friend of mine in the Philippenes who is VERY good at the cards - we always exchange readings - has said that "he has a lot on his mind". The last reading she did about him said that he has insecurities, + he may just be worried about finances, & getting involved with a (disabled) liability like me - even having a child, if I can only have a chance before it's time to really call it quits for good...

So, I will give it time & see where it goes. It's better than being alone! Oh, it's more than just that - I can tell we have a lot in common, that we might just be a good match. It's unlikely to happen anywhere near home. "Druid??? - EEEK!!" Truly, truly, truly.

[Aleannah]

I wish I had some wonderful advice to give you....but reading the posts, I really can't say much more...I know when I was alone (4 years) - I had sworn off dating, even trying...and it was for the good in the long run - I got comfortable with being by myself, alone with my thoughts, and it made me much more stable emotionally. I have realized that the friends that told me "you have to be comfortable with yourself before you can truly be comfortable with someone else" actually knew what they were talking about. I had time to work on me...on things that I love to do...and it made me not be totally dependent upon someone else for my happiness. I love my husband, and can't imagine life without him, but if something were to happen, I know I would eventually be okay again. You've got support here, people who care - you will find someone, even in your tiny little town, you will find each other somehow. You just need to be still and listen. :hugz:

[blackroseivy]

Truly beautiful advice - I will take it!! :D

[Kalika]

:hugz:

Once you stop looking... that person will make themselves known. You never know... they could be right in front of you, but because you are trying so hard to find them... you're overlooking the obvious.

Hang in there!

[blackroseivy]

Nobody obvious here. Trust me. Wish it weren't so, but it's true.

I know a gay guy, some people with mental disabilities, good friend is one & is old & married, who else? Nobody, really. I'm VERY isolated.

[Kalika]

:lol:

Wellll.......

You'll find em. :)

[blackroseivy]

Yeah, I'm sure I will!! ;)

[Kalika]

Yeah, I'm sure I will!! ;)

That's the spirit! :lol:

[blackroseivy]

:D

I may actually have a guy I didn't know I had. He just NEVER talks to me. Which is NOT good, I know... But I have a feeling that he has "stuff" goin' on... So, I've decided to be patient...

[Kalika]

:D

I may actually have a guy I didn't know I had. He just NEVER talks to me. Which is NOT good, I know... But I have a feeling that he has "stuff" goin' on... So, I've decided to be patient...

:woot:

Patience is a good thing... though I have to admit, its one of those things that I'm not very good at. :lol:

Hang in there!

[blackroseivy]

Hehe!

Thank you, everyone, for your helpful advice - it is deeply appreciated!

[AineDanu]

Eeek Eeekk Someone said the second fowlest word in any language!!!

I am saddened. :( the P word was said. :( I shall forever be heart broken as that is one word I am totally incapable of ever living up to and shall fail dismally in all attempts to gain.........PATIENCE..............

Hopes Danubhe is at least feeling better!!