twilightki
April 9th, 2006, 12:20 PM
I call myself a Pagan even though I do not follow a set of rules or traditional ideas. Paganism has a wide variety of religions, so I call myself a Pagan since what I do...I can't quite explain, but I will try.
I used to be a solid Atheist. I resented any God or Goddess. I believed when I died nothing would happen, because that seemed realistic. Then I tried LSD.
I was with a few friends, we decided to take acid. So being myself, always having to try something once, took it. Nothing happened at first, the Nihilist inside of me said that it wouldn't even do anything. So I got up, and told my friends I was going for a walk. My mood heightened. I felt a little dizzy, but I felt peaceful. Everything was perfectly serene. I started to love life, just for living. Everything started to look....sort of like a cartoon.....I was so happy and amazed.....I then came to the forest behind my home. I was walking through it enjoying the moment. The cartoonish visions started to go away, then I cam to a huge tree. The roots were bigger than I was. The tree had eyes...I started crying, thinking how many times I have taken trees, plants, for nothing more than things we can use. I got down and started talking to the plants underneath me, I don't remember exactly what they said. It was more like...communication through telekinesis than actual words. No matter what they told me, I knew it was beautiful. A burst of sunshine came through the forest, almost blinding me. I put my hands in front of me, trying to block it, but the sunshien was burning my arms. The huge tree told me to put my hands down. I responded with, "I can't, it hurts, im so sorry....." But it only repeated itself. So I did it, and every bit of sunshine did not hurt anymore, every bit was ecstasy upon my skin. I didn't want to leave, but I wanted to tell my friends about the experience. My trip started to decline as I walked back to my house. When I got back they were wondering where I was. It didn't seem long, only an hour or two. But I was gone for 7 hours.
What I have gathered from this experience, is there is a god. Not in the tradtional sense, but a spirit, something that is part of this earth, and we are all somehow part of all the plants trees, animals, and things we can't see. Its a beautiful cycle of energy that we are a part of. And I believe that when we die, we leave our bodies, and become part of that cycle.
LSD did not blind me, or corrupt my mind. It opened my eyes to the beauty of life, I was closing my eyes for so long, but now they are opened, and I try not to take anything for granted.
I hope to speak to all of you on the forum soon:cheers:
I used to be a solid Atheist. I resented any God or Goddess. I believed when I died nothing would happen, because that seemed realistic. Then I tried LSD.
I was with a few friends, we decided to take acid. So being myself, always having to try something once, took it. Nothing happened at first, the Nihilist inside of me said that it wouldn't even do anything. So I got up, and told my friends I was going for a walk. My mood heightened. I felt a little dizzy, but I felt peaceful. Everything was perfectly serene. I started to love life, just for living. Everything started to look....sort of like a cartoon.....I was so happy and amazed.....I then came to the forest behind my home. I was walking through it enjoying the moment. The cartoonish visions started to go away, then I cam to a huge tree. The roots were bigger than I was. The tree had eyes...I started crying, thinking how many times I have taken trees, plants, for nothing more than things we can use. I got down and started talking to the plants underneath me, I don't remember exactly what they said. It was more like...communication through telekinesis than actual words. No matter what they told me, I knew it was beautiful. A burst of sunshine came through the forest, almost blinding me. I put my hands in front of me, trying to block it, but the sunshien was burning my arms. The huge tree told me to put my hands down. I responded with, "I can't, it hurts, im so sorry....." But it only repeated itself. So I did it, and every bit of sunshine did not hurt anymore, every bit was ecstasy upon my skin. I didn't want to leave, but I wanted to tell my friends about the experience. My trip started to decline as I walked back to my house. When I got back they were wondering where I was. It didn't seem long, only an hour or two. But I was gone for 7 hours.
What I have gathered from this experience, is there is a god. Not in the tradtional sense, but a spirit, something that is part of this earth, and we are all somehow part of all the plants trees, animals, and things we can't see. Its a beautiful cycle of energy that we are a part of. And I believe that when we die, we leave our bodies, and become part of that cycle.
LSD did not blind me, or corrupt my mind. It opened my eyes to the beauty of life, I was closing my eyes for so long, but now they are opened, and I try not to take anything for granted.
I hope to speak to all of you on the forum soon:cheers: