i need a hug...

[halfwaynowhere]

i really need someone to talk to about things i can't even tell my best friends... i just got into a huge fight with my dad, and i really need to talk to someone about it, and i need to figure out where i'm gonna go from here... it all started about 45 minutes ago, maybe longer, i can't keep track of time... i was cooking dinner, and talking to my dad. we heard a cat scratching something in the other room, so my dad went to go check it out. well, this cat didn't respond to his commands, which is odd, she usually stops if you say "hey!", or call her name. so i rushed in, but before i could do anything, he went over to her, grabbed her (i saw him grab her by the tail, but he swears it was by the scruff of her neck... anyways, he was handling her really roughly) and then when she scratches him, he throws her on the floor. she tried to run away, but in order to punish her for scratching him, he picked her up again and roughly threw her out into the garage. so stupid me had to open my mouth and saw "If you hurt her..." and then he gets into my face and says "What?" so i outright told him. If he ever hurts an animal, i will kill him. big mistake. he starts screaming at me, telling me to get out of the house, then he goes to my room, starts throwing everything he can reach into the hallway. my mother told him to stop, because she's in a wheelchair and can't get through, so he does, and then he tells me to pack and call my grandmother so i can live with her. well, my grandma hates me, and she lives in alaska anyways, so thats not even an option. anyways, i calmly go back into the kitchen and continue chopping vegetables for soup. my dad follows me in, and starts telling me how i have personally been cruel to so many of our previous pets, like the rabbit, guinea pigs, and chickens that were all eaten by raccoons... and he's getting really graphic, about how i let them be ripped apart, limb by limb. i was 7 when that happened, they weren't my animals, and my dad was the one who made them live in cages outside, not me. but i'm being good, not saying a word, choking back tears. at this point i have given up. i won't argue with him anymore, but i also won't let him think he's winning. after all, he's the one standing there screaming at me for threatening to kill him, while i'm standing there chopping vegetables with a big knife. but i kept my cool, i just kept on chopping calmly... and now we just aren't speaking...
this isn't the first time something like this has happened, and i know its not the last. yes, its my fault for not being able to stand there with my mouth shut like a good little girl, but if there's one thing i won't tolerate, its animal abuse, and everybody here knows it. so now i need to figure out what i'm gonna do from here, because i can't stay here with this situation, and i can't leave. so i feel trapped, and hopeless. i need help...

[Childof_theMorrigan]

pm me if you still want to talk

in the mean time :hugz:

[Lorrie]

i really need someone to talk to about things i can't even tell my best friends... i just got into a huge fight with my dad, and i really need to talk to someone about it, and i need to figure out where i'm gonna go from here... it all started about 45 minutes ago, maybe longer, i can't keep track of time... i was cooking dinner, and talking to my dad. we heard a cat scratching something in the other room, so my dad went to go check it out. well, this cat didn't respond to his commands, which is odd, she usually stops if you say "hey!", or call her name. so i rushed in, but before i could do anything, he went over to her, grabbed her (i saw him grab her by the tail, but he swears it was by the scruff of her neck... anyways, he was handling her really roughly) and then when she scratches him, he throws her on the floor. she tried to run away, but in order to punish her for scratching him, he picked her up again and roughly threw her out into the garage. so stupid me had to open my mouth and saw "If you hurt her..." and then he gets into my face and says "What?" so i outright told him. If he ever hurts an animal, i will kill him. big mistake. he starts screaming at me, telling me to get out of the house, then he goes to my room, starts throwing everything he can reach into the hallway. my mother told him to stop, because she's in a wheelchair and can't get through, so he does, and then he tells me to pack and call my grandmother so i can live with her. well, my grandma hates me, and she lives in alaska anyways, so thats not even an option. anyways, i calmly go back into the kitchen and continue chopping vegetables for soup. my dad follows me in, and starts telling me how i have personally been cruel to so many of our previous pets, like the rabbit, guinea pigs, and chickens that were all eaten by raccoons... and he's getting really graphic, about how i let them be ripped apart, limb by limb. i was 7 when that happened, they weren't my animals, and my dad was the one who made them live in cages outside, not me. but i'm being good, not saying a word, choking back tears. at this point i have given up. i won't argue with him anymore, but i also won't let him think he's winning. after all, he's the one standing there screaming at me for threatening to kill him, while i'm standing there chopping vegetables with a big knife. but i kept my cool, i just kept on chopping calmly... and now we just aren't speaking...
this isn't the first time something like this has happened, and i know its not the last. yes, its my fault for not being able to stand there with my mouth shut like a good little girl, but if there's one thing i won't tolerate, its animal abuse, and everybody here knows it. so now i need to figure out what i'm gonna do from here, because i can't stay here with this situation, and i can't leave. so i feel trapped, and hopeless. i need help...




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I feel the same way about my animals, I'll take an animal over most people any time!

[Flux]

I'm so sorry, especially for him blaming you as a seven year old child for the death of other animals.

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[Brenda]

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[Moonlite Faery]

I am so sorry hun! ((HUGS))

[halfwaynowhere]

thanks everyone. I'm feeling much better today, and my dad and i are being civil towards each other. things have calmed down here for now. anyways, i really appreciate all of your thoughts, they helped me get through it. thanks so much!

[BrigidMoon]

:hugz: to you. I hope things are better however, you must worry about your dad's outburts. I mean, it's not right to say you'd kill him but he should not be abusing you or the animals.

[LostSheep]

I agree with BrigidMoon. He may have calmed down for now, but those outbursts aren't something you want to live with. I'm sure he would'nt like you doing soemthing behind his back, but I think he needs someone to talk to. maybe you and your mom could work out something? Seriously, I think he needs help. And you need him to for you to feel safe.

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