Ever Been?

[Silver Water]

Hmm... good words for what I'm going to go on about for a paragraph or so. Has anyone else ever been told that they're powerful and disbelieved it enough to actually laugh at the person who said it? I have; five times in the past two months.

I never viewed myself as powerful by any means (in anything except writing, which is fun :hahugh: ) But then people start telling me that I am. Well, that I could be if I actually tried to harness it. I know my aura's powerful, that's why people are always so confused when they first meet me. Strong aura, quiet girl. But anyhow, that's just my aura, I never wanted to think about it being an indicator of anything of any sort. Yet, the reason my friends started telling me this was because of something that I was doing. They were being pushed out of their beds, not sleeping at all, catching glimpses of a little girl who looked like me around them and said girl was always crying. Then I started to think about it, and realized a few things. Whenever I'm at home, all five members of my family sleep horribly, once my dad woke up looking as though he'd been slapped, hard. None of it is intended, though, and that's the problem. I'm afraid of sleeping, because that's when most of it happens, but I'm even more afraid of actually trying to learn how to... handle it. Because I could make a mistake.

Then there's last night... one of the best friends I've ever had couldn't sleep at all. Because that little girl-whatever of mine was in her room, crying and actually pleading. My friend is leaving today (we're at college) and I also spent most of last night crying. It's... unnerving.

So, this is the end of that random little thing I had no clue of where to put, I don't even know what I'm asking. One question could be, has anyone else ever... had things like this happen to them?

[Cindlady2]

Work on control for the sake of everyone else. I've knocked a few people around a bit in my sleep too! LOL luckily a couple of the knew what was happening and pushed me to figure it out. Haven't had a complaint in a few years now!

[Silver Water]

Good to know that there are people who know what it feels like... a couple of times I've just felt as though I'm way too strange since it never happened to any of my friends or group members. It's like, sure I know there have to be other people who do this, but actually having someone say that they've done it is... relieving. Thanks muchly.

[Cindlady2]

LOL... for a few months a friend and I had frequent "night battles" some times we would wind up with bloody noses and bruises! That was when we decided it had to end! Meditation before bed and telling myself to to stay with in my body helped. I can't say if what you are experiencing is the same thing, people never saw me as younger, and most said they just 'felt' like I was there. It's weird though how you can hurt people who you really care about. It's like the 'nasty' comes out at night. Are you the type who is often 'overly nice' and helping other people all the time? It seems to me (now that you had me thinking) when that was happening was when I had a homeless family living with us and was starting to guide some others on 'the path'. It was also when I had the Pet Store and 100 other thing going on!.... Hummm... Stress???

[Silver Water]

Yeah, one of the things recommended to me is nightly meditation. Only problem with this is that I have some severe issues when it comes to meditating without something happening that shouldn't. I have a few new types to try out though, so hopefully I'll be able to manage them right.

And yes, I am the overly nice person a lot of the time, unless someone severely pisses me off. I'm as helpful to my friends as I possibly can be, even if it means putting aside what I'm doing. Stress could most definitely be considered a factor... even though this has been happening for awhile, and I'm not always quite that stressed out. What makes it almost worse is the fact that the person who receives the brunt of it is one of my closest friends, because we're almost connected in a way. So even when she's hundreds of miles away, things can still happen to her. It's... odd.