To the Gods who gave me Breath and Soul

[Zephyrstorm]

Em Hotep Bast-Mut her Amun her Hethert!

You know as well as I that these past few months have been difficult for me. So much so that sitting here and writing you this pray leaves me feeling like there's too much that needs said, and no clear place to begin.

So I think I shall start with gratitude. I am grateful for all you have given me; my husband, my furry companions, my strength to survive it all, and my hope that the future will always give a new opportunity.

But I am filled with fear and sorrow these days. I fear for my mother, though less so now that my sister is with her. I fear for my sister's health; may You watch over hear. I fear for my husband's schoolwork; may You and His own Gods (though he may not know their Names) guide him.

And I fear for myself. I fear that this pressure upon my ear shall never fade. I fear that it will get worse, and will strip me of my hearing. Even now, it rings with pressure and a tone that does not exist. Last night for a moment I though I would not be able to sleep. I fear seeing the specialist, and I fear what he will say.
I fear that I will be trapped here, in this town by my ear, for fear of damaging my eardrum.

Please watch over me, give me strength and guide me to my best self that I might overcome this obstacle.
Thank You.
Your daughter, Bastmutneheti.

[Zephyrstorm]

Hotep!

Thank you.

Neheti

[Zephyrstorm]

hotep, Het-Hert!

Tomorrow is your Festival, and though I do not know what I will do to celebrate your many shining gifts, I offer to you my pursuit to become a better drummer. When I learn a new rhythm, I shall give it to you first. When I master a new tone, I shall offer it up.
This is my gift unto you. May it please you.

Neheti

Hotep Bast-Mut!

I offer You the joy I feel when my arms are wrapped around my drums. I give to you my happiness when my hands are one with the rhythm. I give to you my striving to be a better person.

May it please you!
Neheti

[Zephyrstorm]

Hotep my Gods.

Help me to remember that not all friendships are fragile and that not everyone will reject me.
Help me to remember that sometimes what happens to other people keeps them from being near me.

and Thank you.
Neheti

[Zephyrstorm]

Hotep!

I ask your strength and insight as to the proper action in relating to my best friend's wife. She's driving me bonkers, and right now I want to punch her really really badly. Just once. in the lip, with all my rings on. hopefully, it'd scar and she'd remember not to mess with my head and grow up a bit each time she looked in the mirror.

Please remind me to laugh at myself more often than I do at present so that she can't do this so well when she decides to demonstrate her whatever she thinks she's doing.

and help me to remember that, though I cannot stand her, she is ultimately a child of the universe (and maybe one day she'll realize that I am too) and that he loves her for some reason and that I should respect that fact.

thanks.
Neheti