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[Karma Chameleon]

I feel as if my soul has been ripped out. I have lost (and feel like I am losing) everything that ever meant anything to me. My heart isn't just broken, it is shattered into a billion little pieces. My Mom died yesterday morning, I didn't make it home in time from work when I got the call. I wasn't there when she died. I nearly got myself arrested on the way home too, I feel so lucky that the state trooper let me go with just a warning. My Mom was my not just my Mom, she was my closest friend, and sometimes I felt like my only friend in this life. I love her so much. I feel like I am choking and I can't get enough air and my face burns from the tears. I have never felt so much pain and sorrow.

She wanted me to do the funeral rites because she wanted a Pagan ceremony, and I am having a hard time writing it because I can’t stop crying. I feel so alone now in this world. I know I haven't been posting here much lately, I have been going though a lot of hardship and heartache. :heartbrea I got married and now I am having to go though a divorce which is very heartwrenching for me because I really loved him, and now to top it off, the person I cared about most in this world, my Momma isn't here anymore.

[CheshireEyes]

If there is anything I can do, or you just want to talk just let me know. Sending calming healing energy your way. Just remember, you are not alone.:hugz: :rubhead:

[Rowan MoonDragon]

OH, Karma, I am so so so very sorry! We are here if you need us. I wish I could so this in person. :hugz: I'm sending healing energy to you, Sweetie. You'll get through this. :hugz:

[NiftyWings]

Oh hon, I'm so sorry. Please PM if you need someone to talk to.

[~Elise~]

Easy transition energy sent to your Mom... and soothing, calming energy sent to you.

Remember she will always be with you, it is just her phyiscal shell that is gone. Talk to her and she will be there for you.

Elise

[Karyan]

:hugz: :hugz: :hugz: :hugz: :hugz:. I'm truly sorry for you losses. When people say time heals all they really mean it. I've lost a few loved ones and through it all Time has been my best friend.

[BlackMagicalCat]

Bless your heart friend,I havent heard from you in a while,and Im here if you need anything

[WingedAepona]

Karmah,
I really do know what you are going through, I to just went through a divorce and still love him deeply. and two years ago I lost the most important woman in my life, my granny. Time does heal all wounds, as does the great spirit within you. A lesson I am still learning, but embrace more and more everyday!
Healing energies sent to you...and easy passage for your mom.

In Love and Light,
Aepone

[theblackrose]

i cant say i know what youre going through, because i havent felt loss like you are now...all i can say is i will light a candle for you tonight and send you every ounce of strength and energy i have to help you through this! xxx

[zede]

:hugz: i'm so sorry. i know there is nothing anyone can say to make you feel any better, but we are here and we are listining. :hugz:

[Seagaiser]

I am so sorry for your loss at an already difficult time in your life. Don't feel bad for crying your allowed to! Although hard, you may find some comfort in your writting. Let others know how special she was, It is your memories of her that will give you strength as well as her energy now around you.

Sending strength and healing your way...

[Scarlettvixen]

:hugz: sending u comforting :hugz: and energies babe
i had wondered where u had disappeared to

[AutumnWitchie]

:hugz: Oh Karma, I'm so sorry for your loss. Comforting energy to you. If theres anything I can do, please pm me.

[Vigdisdotter]

I feel as if my soul has been ripped out.

Oh love, I'm so sorry <HUGS>


She wanted me to do the funeral rites because she wanted a Pagan ceremony, and I am having a hard time writing it because I can’t stop crying.

Can I do anything to help?

[BlueMoon13]

Oh Karma!! :rubhead: I am sorry that you're going throught such a wrenching time. I'm here if you need me. We all are.

[Brenda]

Aww honey, I'm so sorry for your loss
Sending comforting energy
:hugz: :hugz: :hugz: :hugz:

[Philosophia]

:hugz: I'm really sorry this is occuring. Please remember my PM box is always open if you need to talk! :hugz:

[Karma Chameleon]

Thank you all for your kind thoughts and sympathy, it really means a lot to me.

[Wytchie]

I am so sorry for your loss. :hugz:

[SSanf]

Here is the Requiem that we had for my life's dearest friend. I hope it helps! At least, it is a starting point.

I feel so much for you.

http://lexcuups.com/Requiem_for_Jeff.shtml

Anyone who wishes may circulate this Requiem with a link back. I wish you would because it would honor Jeff, a wonderful and very loved person.

[Sage Rainsong]

Oh I am so sorry for your loss. I can't imagine writing my own mothers funeral ritual. That would take a lot more courage than I have. If you need help with that here is a useful link: http://www.geocities.com/lavenderwater37/death.htm

Also if I may there is a good book out called The Pagan Book of Living and Dying by Starhawk. Again I am so sorry for your loss.