Overload

[Eudaimonia]

I think I'm going to overload.

My Granny died the 23rd. I was very close to her, and I've never had anyone I cared about die. I'm having a very hard time dealing with it.

On my birthday, Adam went to jail for 90 days, which makes everything even harder to deal with.

I'm being both magically and physically threatened by three different people, and it's really wearing on my nerves.

Due to one of those people, I'm not "allowed" around a good friend.

None of my regualar therapy (music, writing, etc.) is helping.

I think I'm going to overload.

[Faery-Wings]

I will be sending you some peaceful vibes, if that is ok. I can't say I blame you for feeling this way- that is a lot to have on your plate. Hope you feel better and things calm down for you soon.

And I very sorry to hear about your grandmother. :(

Chris

[Lavender]

I'm really sorry to hear about your grandmother. :( I wish I had something to suggest but I don't right now. Sometimes talking about things help. You can always rant here...no one minds. I'll keep you in my thoughts & send you some good energy.

I don't know if this might help...try taking some deep breaths. Start at 50 & count backwards for each breath. Inhale slowly to the count of 6 & exhale to the count of 8.

hugs!

[MagickHLHgurl]

awe sweetie i dont know what to say im sorry to hear about your grandmother....just try to take everything one step at a time...thats all i can think of

[Old Witch]

I am so sorry to hear about the loss of your Grandmother. I know what you are going through because I lost someone very important earlier this month also. If I can be of any help feel free to PM me. Love, Old Witch.

[Danustouch]

If you need to talk, feel free to Speak to one of the Peer Counselors, you'll find all of our contact information in the peer counselors thread.

Or..you could just PM us, or just rant here. I'm sorry to hear about your Grandmothers death. I've been thinking of my late grandmother, recently as well. So..I can indeed, sympathize.

Feel better, soon hon.

[GingerBurkley]

My grandma died on January 8, which is also my Mom's birthday, and the same day my neice had a baby. It was a ROLLERCOASTER! I feel for you, sweetie. What can we say when someone loses someone close to them? Nothing we say can make it better. Go see your man every chance you get. I don't know if he's been inside before, but believe me, seeing you will be like a breath of fresh air for him every time, and he'll love you so much for it.

Did your grandma have a funeral? Mine did. It sucked. I was the closest grandchild to her...when I walked in the church and saw her in that box...man, I just lost it. I couldn't stop crying. And all my cousins were whispering, "Oh, there's Ginger, poor Ginger, grandma loved her Ginger." I wanted to scream, SHUT UP AND LET ME DEAL! I hate funerals. I don't want one. Anyway, I don't know the circumstances of your grandma's passing, but mine was really bad off. She had Alzheimer's and she couldn't do anything for herself, she couldn't even breathe on her own anymore, and she wanted to go, so it was kind of a relief. I hope your grandma didn't suffer.

And as for the friend thing, my suggestion is to lay low, stay away and your true friends will seek you out.

Will your man be able to get out early if he behaves? I also agree w/the suggestion to go to Peer Counsel
or even go to the Altar and leave your troubles there. Hang in there, honey, we are all here for you.

[babes498]

I know how you feel my grandmom helped to raise me she passed in 88 and I still feel the loss. the only comfort I have is that she is with me always...... I am like her in many ways and most of the time wish I had her strength.

I hope you will find comfort to know that she is always with you.

Love and Light
Babes.

[Garnet]

Eudaimonia & Ginger: my condolences on your losses. It's especially tough to lose grandparents when they're friends, too.
After 14 years, I still miss my dziadzia (Polish for Grandpa.)

[Eudaimonia]

Thank you all.

I'm dealing with it much better now. No, she didn't have a funeral. There's going to be a private ceremony in March where we spread her ashes.

Yes, my granny did suffer. I hate to think about it, but it's true. She died of cancer, and the chemo wasn't helping any.

Adam will be able to get out 2/3 time for good behavior, so that's March 17th. I'm trying to see him, but I don't have my ID yet. It's also very hard for me to get to the Jail Anex(sp?) on Sunday's, 'cuz Redding is quite a bit away from where I am.

The threatining thing has mostly blown over; I'm still going to dodge these people though.

Thank you all for your kind words and thoughts. I also was the closest grandchild, out of five, and am most like my Granny. She's got to be in a better place now right? Even if I hadn't already believed that, I have to now.

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