Merrick
June 22nd, 2006, 08:30 AM
I light a single white candle, its sits on my alter, a dim glow through this room of darkness. outside my window a crow flies past, a symbol that SHE is near. I am asking the Goddess, Morrighan, if she will answer my prayer and send her healing light. this prayer is not for me. it is for a boy of 17, a man, the only man i have ever been in love with.
A few months ago my precious friend and ex lover was killed in a motorcycle accident. he broke both his legs, arms and collarbone. but the worst part of all of this is that beforehand when we broke up we had a fight, where i got angry at him and he just agreed with me and apologised and he had tried asking for forgivness many times and invited me out to rekindle lost relationships. i rejected every offer he made because of my broken heart, so i purposley toured us both. now as i look back, no matter what he did to me, i still loved him every step of the way.
So Goddess, tonight i dont ask that you help me heal this seething pain and guilt i feel, but the deeper pain his parents and close sisiter must have felt after loosing their 17 year old son.
at his funeral i left him a pentagram on his coffin, in hopes that the Goddess could look after him and tell him things in the other world that i cannot.
Morrighan, my message is this: baby, im so sorry. im so ****ing sorry. you are the ONLY one and i let you go. but now we are, in a way, together forever. I love you.
I blow out the candle.
A few months ago my precious friend and ex lover was killed in a motorcycle accident. he broke both his legs, arms and collarbone. but the worst part of all of this is that beforehand when we broke up we had a fight, where i got angry at him and he just agreed with me and apologised and he had tried asking for forgivness many times and invited me out to rekindle lost relationships. i rejected every offer he made because of my broken heart, so i purposley toured us both. now as i look back, no matter what he did to me, i still loved him every step of the way.
So Goddess, tonight i dont ask that you help me heal this seething pain and guilt i feel, but the deeper pain his parents and close sisiter must have felt after loosing their 17 year old son.
at his funeral i left him a pentagram on his coffin, in hopes that the Goddess could look after him and tell him things in the other world that i cannot.
Morrighan, my message is this: baby, im so sorry. im so ****ing sorry. you are the ONLY one and i let you go. but now we are, in a way, together forever. I love you.
I blow out the candle.