Going Crazy

[JuNiPeR]

I'm not sure if I'm suppose to post this here, but it seems like the best place to post it.....

Back in May I was involved in a bad car accident, that put me in the hospital. It was at this time I found out I was pregnant. My boyfriend thought I should have an abortion. Being 18, he wasn't ready for a child. My parents told me I should have an abortion. I thought about it a lot on my own. But to tell you the truth, I felt pressured into having the abortion.
I have no one to talk to about this, everytime I bring it up with my boyfriend he say "don't worry about it, it was the right thing to do" then he changes the subject. So I went to a "good" friend, who yelled at me, told me that it was so wrong. That wasn't the support I was looking for. I decided to go online to an abortion-support chat only to feel worse. Because others would bash you for what you have done. I'm not proud of it, every day when I see a child. I feel like cr@p. And for the last nine months I've kept it all inside. Cry myself to sleep on occation because I can't stand what I have done.....

Thats all...... just getting it out.

A note to others : Use protection, if you have an unwanted pregnancy think your choice through very carefully. You don't want to regret them . I'm pro-choice. But trust me, it the hardest thing I've ever had to do.

[Myst]

Sure, this is the best place to post it.

I'm glad you got to say what you were thinking.

I have to tell you that's one shitty abortion-support chat!

Despite what anyone says if you felt it was the best decision it was. You're the best one to know what is right for you. And yet, that doesn't make it easy. Even if it was the best choice, that doesn't mean you're not supposed to feel upset, guilty, or angry. That choice is not one I would want to make. It's not something I can fully understand either because I've never had to look at that choice. I'm sure here you will find other women who had to face it or faced similar issues. No one will judge you here.

If you need to talk, contact one of our peer counsellors (there's a list in Just Talk) or just post it here!

[JuNiPeR]

Thanks Myst.

[Danustouch]

Juniper...I am a bit under the weather at the moment, but, as soon as I am feeling better, I would love to chat with you in Aol Instant message, or yahoo. Just let me know. I have had a similar experience.

Myst is right, no matter whether or NOT it was a right decision for you, you are the ONLY one to know for sure, and even then, there are so many mixed emotions that you will go through as a result of your choice. It is a very confusing and painful situation to be in. And most people do not realize how incredibly isolated a person feels after making such a choice...as if "nobody" really understands.

I have to tell you...I do understand the emotions that you are going through. I went through them too. So as I said, as soon as I am feeling better, I would love to talk to you in AIM. or Yahoo. And in the mean time, feel free to post your feelings/rants/experiences in this forum. There is even a thread for miscarriage/abortion support, at the top of the page.

I'm sorry that you've gone through such a traumatic, and painful time in your life. Rest assured you will find nothing BUT support in this forum.

Best wishes, hon.

[JuNiPeR]

Danustouch ~ thanks, I would like to talk sometime. I hope that you feel better.

[Angelwulfe]

i was considering getting an abortion just a few months ago. i know how confusing it can be, all the options are hard desicions to make if the pg was'nt planned. i've since decided to carry it to full term. still strugling with whether to keep it or not but thats a different topic alltogether(sorry for getting ot) sorry for what happened in that bogus chat room. it makes me sick when people say something is abortion support to get you to come and then when your there they bash you for your descision. grrrr. i remember when i was suspecting i was pg people were standing around out side my school handing out really graphic pamphlets about how horrible they think it is. i just stated crying right then and there. great timing huh. sorry about the rant. best of luck and take care of your self.

[JuNiPeR]

Thanks for all who posted,

If feels better to get it out, and not be shunned for what choice you made. Thank you for the support :)