I'm soo messed up.. I need some prays and support.. mature content

[ladymousewitch]

Merry Meet Sisters and Brother Witches,

I dunno how to start this... so I be Frank... Last night, I went to the doctors to see what I was get lumps and sores and blisters over my genital area... neither me or my boyfriend have ever had a STD(aka STI) and have both been checked for them as well.. the Doctor did an exsamination and looked up at me and told me I hadve Genital Herpes... I told her that that was impossible due to the fact my boyfriend and I have been checked and are clean.. she then asked if I had oral sex with my partner and if he had a cold sore... I told her a few days after we had sex he got his cold sore. she told me that a cold sore can stay dormant for up to 7 days before a break out... So with out knowing this he gave me herpes... and once its on your genital reagon is become ... GH Genital Herpes. As you can probably tell my life is now upside down... Bill is blamming himself even though it was a mistake... and I feel like an infectous desease... ever time I try to talk to him about it... we end up fighting because he thinks I'm blamming him which maybe the first 20 minutes after I found out.. yah.. I won't lie... but now... no ...

I've got all the meds they can give me... which Thank the Goddess I'm on a plan untill I'm 21 because I would have just payed over $200.00 on top of this I have a bladder infection and tonsilitis and a high fever that comes and goes anywere from 98.0 F to 102.2 F

I feel useless and deseased... I don't think I'll ever feel the same again.... I'm hoping with my praying and support and praying from my groups that I'll be okay... because right about now... I wish my fever would put an end to this... but I know my daughter will need her mother...

well thats it... thats my plee for help... if anyone on here has anything like this... please pm me... I'd love to get some support... :) thank you for anyone who can spare some time to pray for me.

[moonbride]

I know you probably don't feel like it now, but you really will get through this. I know someone who had the same problem and she lives a very normal life and it's really not an issue at all anymore. Just stay strong and take care of yourself. You're right... your daughter does need you as well as many others, I'm sure.

Stay strong and you will get through this. Sending you some positive healing energy and prayers. :hugz:

[ladymousewitch]

Thank you so much.. I hope I'm get threw this with my head held high... its not only mentally painful its very physically painful too.. but with support from good people like you... I know I can do this.. Thank you and I added some good karma to you.

[Agaliha]

I am a virgin and never been in a situation to really catch any STD, but I just wanted to --> :hugz: I am sure if I was in your situation I would be upset too.
You are not useless and you are not a disease. Don't blame yourself or him. As you said it was a mistake.
You can get though this.

You live in Canada so I'm not sure-- do you have Planned Parenthoods there? They offer birth controls, examinations, tests and I'm sure GH meds at a low cost-- that might come in handy when you insurance runs out.
This mentions some medications (http://www.webmd.com/hw/genital_herpes/te3060.asp)

I hope you feel better though, about this and your other illnesses.

[BlueEyedWolf]

:hugz: Keep Positive!! Healing thoughts to you all!!!:hugz:

[Bluewillow]

:hugz: Sending you thoughts of good health and wellbeing. :hugz:

[Kahlil the Heretic]

You're in my thoughts and prayers.

I just wanted to say that people with GH are capable of living perfectly normal and happy lives. You're a beautiful human being who is as deserving of love as anyone else, don't think of yourself is diseased. Someone who is in the sacred position of being a mother is not diseased...though there are plenty of other people in this world who are. Alcoholics, drug abusers, thieves, murderers...those are the real diseased people, hun. Not you.

What pains me is that there are so many people who aren't as precautious as you who don't care about getting checked and they never get anything in their life, and yet there are careful people like you still get it. But it is in the past and is now a matter of acceptance. Who knows what medical science is capable of doing for you in the future. And thank God it isn't something terminal like AIDS, God forbid.

Just wanted to let you know that you're a human being, and that you're not diseased and that you deserve as much respect and love as anyone else. Chin up, you're young and are going to beat this thing.

Peace out.

[TaysatWesir]

I know how you feel my boyfriend too gave me Herpes sending you healing and positive energy.

[ladymousewitch]

Thank you everyone... reading through everyones replies has made me feel better then I was starting to already... Last night my BF and I went to bed at different times after have a huge fight... I was totally out of it when he came in but i woke up and we ended up cuddling untill we both fell asleep... I think that closeness is what I really needed... becuase all day today I've felt better then ever!

But now I fell 80% better after reading all these wonderful and supportive replies.
Thank you.

[Philosophia]

Sendng healing, comforting and positive energy to you! :hugz:

[ladymousewitch]

MM,
Well thanks for all the help, support, prayer, and information... I'm still have a little discomfort but for the most part all the blisters and sores are healing nicely. Last night was my girlfriend Raymes Stagette(sp?) and my mom went with me and we got sooo drunk we had a blast! my mother was up on the dance floor dancing the poll and having a blast... for the most part I tried not to dance to much but my mom and friends insisted. it was fun... Thanks again for all the Support ! :hugz:

[Kahlil the Heretic]

See? I'm so glad you're learning that life goes on, and that you can be happy despite this condition. GH comes with good and bad days, and it is simply a matter of working through the bad and enjoying the good. Next time drink one for me! :cheers:

[Ancient Wisdom]

Healing energy has been sent hun :hugz:

[starfire]

prayers sent. Your message here is important. Many young and mature people do not know or haven't been educated in the fact that oral herpes can be transfered to the genitals and visa versa. It is just coming out that people can spread it even without having a signs of a break out. You are already talking to a doctor and dealing with that. If you don't get better soon, talk to your doctor again. I have heard that sometimes this virus can go through your system, so make sure it isn't more than tonsilitis.

Care to you

[ladymousewitch]

Well I went to the doctors today I have type 1 herpes in my genital area... this is the same thing most people get on there mouths. good news is that because I'm totally cleared up my doctor thinks I may never have a break out again... what should have taken me 2-3 weeks took less then one week. and the better thing about type 1 is that unless I am having a break out the chances of me giving it to some one is like 1 to 1,000,000,000 ! so I'm looking up.. type 2 is the one most people have that can be give during anytime... :hugz: it may not be great but atleaset this one is not as bad... my doctor said if I had to pick between type 1 and 2 I picked the better one.

:hugz: thanks everyone for all the support.

[starfire]

cool, at least the least of the two evils. It could have been majorly worse, thank your lucky stars. Glad you are feeling better.

[NiftyWings]

Blessings for continued healing, and congrats on the better news!

Just as a precaution, if in the future you become pregnant or plan to have children, make sure that your doctor knows you had a previous outbreak. I've also seen a lot of information supporting the use of Lysine to reduce herpes.

Good luck, hon!

[dizzyb23]

Hi LMW
Hope you are beginning to feel better about your condition. It's very easy for me to say all this but "don't worry". GH is a very common condition and lots of folks do carry it without even knowing it.
It's an extremely acomplished little virus and can exist so well within the human body. I'm not sure what medication you are taking but i'm assuming it's an anti-viral medication and will keep the virus in check.
My professional advice to you is to keep up with the medication/s prescribed (they really do work very well), make sure you have regular cervical smears, don't have sex whilst you are having a "flare up" of the condition and this little virus will go completely into remission for many years and you will forget all about it. Please please stop fighting with your partner. Go and speak in confidence with a pharmacist and he/she will give you some sound advice.

The wicca side of me sends you bright blessings and lots of love. Please believe me when I tell you all will be well very soon.
Jules (UK)

[WitchCraftWeaver]

Well I went to the doctors today I have type 1 herpes in my genital area... this is the same thing most people get on there mouths. good news is that because I'm totally cleared up my doctor thinks I may never have a break out again... what should have taken me 2-3 weeks took less then one week. and the better thing about type 1 is that unless I am having a break out the chances of me giving it to some one is like 1 to 1,000,000,000 ! so I'm looking up.. type 2 is the one most people have that can be give during anytime... :hugz: it may not be great but atleaset this one is not as bad... my doctor said if I had to pick between type 1 and 2 I picked the better one.

:hugz: thanks everyone for all the support.

Good News! I read your original post and actually learned something. I didn't know that the two types could cross over so to speak. I get cold sores on occasion when stressed out, but I've never heard until now that it could cause these types of problems. Thanks for the information. AND I'm so very glad that things seem to be working out for you.
:hugz:

[wintermagick]

Oh, hon, that is hard. :loveydove

I have a friend who had it and her husband contracted it from her. It was of course a challenge for them to get through it (she suspected she might have it but didn't tell him), but they have been married for years now, she had two succcessful childbirthing experiences... and they lead a very normal life.

You will be in my thoughts and prayers.