~BEBZ~
September 8th, 2006, 04:41 AM
Life sucks.
I can not seem to change it.
No matter what I do, or how good I am, I keep getting crapped on. This has mad me a very angry person of late. Some on here have noticed. I try not to be, but I can't help it. I know life isn't fair, but for me, it seems especially so. Why?....Welllll....let's get caught up here.
I haven't posted in over a month. Why? Because I've been in so much pain that I couldn't even sit up at the computer. I had to go back in the hospital again. Not because of my leg, but because the Crohn's had gotten so bad it felt like my insides were trying to come out. I can hardly eat anything anymore. Nothing gets digested. And I had Thrush so bad I couldn't swallow.
I saw my GI doc yesterday and had a colonoscopy. He has referred me to a surgeon. They told me when I went into the hospital that a bowel resection prolly wasn't a good idea, and that just a diverting colostomy might be called for to let the bad parts of my bowel heal. But my doc said that an entire bowel resection might be called for, possibly pretty much curing me of Crohn's symptoms, but leaving me with a colostomy bag for the rest of my life. What a great decision to make!
Then, just last week the wee little one in my avy fished some long lost knife out from under the fridge or something and made his way outside with it while I was in the bathroom. My neighbor who has a bone to pick called Social Services. So now my husband and I are facing criminal neglect charges and will have Social Services sniffing up our butts for at least the next month. And that's IF they don't find something wrong!
And the cherry to top of the crap sundae;
Later THAT NIGHT my husband and I were driving down Colfax to go to a friends house and I got pulled over. Asked the cop why and he said it was cause my license plate light was out. Didn't have my license on me so he asked for my name and birthdate. I gave it to them and they were gone for a long time. When they finally started coming back to the car I heard the one say to the other "Don't tell him what's going on with her" I asked him what was going on with me. They told my husband to get out and take off. He asked if he could get his planner so he could call someone, they said no. Hitchhike, walk, whatever just get the hell out of there. They then told me to step out of the car. By now I'm really panicked because I know what that means, ARREST. They put cuffs on me and asked me what my real name was cause I wasn't coming up in the system. I told them I gave them the right name, I wasn't lying, they had to be wrong, run it again. They said they had run it 8 times and I wasn't coming up. Did I have any warrants? No, nothing but some REALLY overdue library books. Oh, did I mention this whole time I'm bawling my eyes out? I've never been to jail, I've never been arrested! For the most part I'm a friggin goody two shoes! So I run off my whole name and beg them to check it again. They're like "Oh, so now it's Briggs-Noland!" I'm like "NO, when I got married I didn't want to hyphenate so I just pushed over my maiden name and made it a middle name. PLEASE CHECK AGAIN!!!" So they get back in their car to check, leaving me sitting, bawling on a bench, everyone driving by staring at me. It was so embarrassing!
Then another car pulls up and I think; Oh great! They didn't find me and this is my transport to jail! A female cop gets out and they have her pat me down and search me. Then, after she's done, they get out and tell me they found me. So I asked them if I was still under arrest, they said no, so I asked if they would take off the cuffs. They said no, just sit there while we write you a ticket!!! They wrote me a ticket for providing false information. Which I DIDN'T DO!!!! It's not my mother lovin fault that the state of CO can't get my name right!!! They never read me my rights, and when I was finally allowed to drive off I went around the corner to my friends house and looked at my license plate light, NOT BURNED OUT!! False stop, false arrest, not reading me my rights; Is Ben out of law school yet?!!!
I hate my life, I hate the world, I hate people, and I no longer have the desire to help anyone. I figure if this is what I get for trying to be a good person, then I should go out and become a serial killer! Maybe then I would have a good life. Because it seems like all the good ppl suffer, and all the A holes have wonderful lives. I give up.:(
I can not seem to change it.
No matter what I do, or how good I am, I keep getting crapped on. This has mad me a very angry person of late. Some on here have noticed. I try not to be, but I can't help it. I know life isn't fair, but for me, it seems especially so. Why?....Welllll....let's get caught up here.
I haven't posted in over a month. Why? Because I've been in so much pain that I couldn't even sit up at the computer. I had to go back in the hospital again. Not because of my leg, but because the Crohn's had gotten so bad it felt like my insides were trying to come out. I can hardly eat anything anymore. Nothing gets digested. And I had Thrush so bad I couldn't swallow.
I saw my GI doc yesterday and had a colonoscopy. He has referred me to a surgeon. They told me when I went into the hospital that a bowel resection prolly wasn't a good idea, and that just a diverting colostomy might be called for to let the bad parts of my bowel heal. But my doc said that an entire bowel resection might be called for, possibly pretty much curing me of Crohn's symptoms, but leaving me with a colostomy bag for the rest of my life. What a great decision to make!
Then, just last week the wee little one in my avy fished some long lost knife out from under the fridge or something and made his way outside with it while I was in the bathroom. My neighbor who has a bone to pick called Social Services. So now my husband and I are facing criminal neglect charges and will have Social Services sniffing up our butts for at least the next month. And that's IF they don't find something wrong!
And the cherry to top of the crap sundae;
Later THAT NIGHT my husband and I were driving down Colfax to go to a friends house and I got pulled over. Asked the cop why and he said it was cause my license plate light was out. Didn't have my license on me so he asked for my name and birthdate. I gave it to them and they were gone for a long time. When they finally started coming back to the car I heard the one say to the other "Don't tell him what's going on with her" I asked him what was going on with me. They told my husband to get out and take off. He asked if he could get his planner so he could call someone, they said no. Hitchhike, walk, whatever just get the hell out of there. They then told me to step out of the car. By now I'm really panicked because I know what that means, ARREST. They put cuffs on me and asked me what my real name was cause I wasn't coming up in the system. I told them I gave them the right name, I wasn't lying, they had to be wrong, run it again. They said they had run it 8 times and I wasn't coming up. Did I have any warrants? No, nothing but some REALLY overdue library books. Oh, did I mention this whole time I'm bawling my eyes out? I've never been to jail, I've never been arrested! For the most part I'm a friggin goody two shoes! So I run off my whole name and beg them to check it again. They're like "Oh, so now it's Briggs-Noland!" I'm like "NO, when I got married I didn't want to hyphenate so I just pushed over my maiden name and made it a middle name. PLEASE CHECK AGAIN!!!" So they get back in their car to check, leaving me sitting, bawling on a bench, everyone driving by staring at me. It was so embarrassing!
Then another car pulls up and I think; Oh great! They didn't find me and this is my transport to jail! A female cop gets out and they have her pat me down and search me. Then, after she's done, they get out and tell me they found me. So I asked them if I was still under arrest, they said no, so I asked if they would take off the cuffs. They said no, just sit there while we write you a ticket!!! They wrote me a ticket for providing false information. Which I DIDN'T DO!!!! It's not my mother lovin fault that the state of CO can't get my name right!!! They never read me my rights, and when I was finally allowed to drive off I went around the corner to my friends house and looked at my license plate light, NOT BURNED OUT!! False stop, false arrest, not reading me my rights; Is Ben out of law school yet?!!!
I hate my life, I hate the world, I hate people, and I no longer have the desire to help anyone. I figure if this is what I get for trying to be a good person, then I should go out and become a serial killer! Maybe then I would have a good life. Because it seems like all the good ppl suffer, and all the A holes have wonderful lives. I give up.:(