Feeling alone?

[David19]

I'd thought i'd post this here, but if someone wants to move it, feel free :).

But, does anyone feel, or have felt, like the gods, spirits, supernatural beings, the universe, God (whatever you believe him/her/it to be), Fate, whatever, etc is abandoned you or is playing with your life 'cause it's a bit how i feel. I feel like my world is crashing around me and not many things are going right, like, one example, is the fact that i desperatly need a part-time job to bring in some money for myself, but everywhere i've looked seems to be turning me down (there's still a few places i've got hope for, though), but it just seems like the universe or Fate or the gods, etc seem to be playing with my life, like i'm on some kind of cosmic 'soap opera' for their entertainment.

I really don't want to feel like this, and it really, sometimes, gets me depressed, and i've thought maybe it'd would just be easier to end this, put a stop to this, by ending my life (you can read more about that, if you want, in the Helping Hands forum where i recently made a post about it), i haven't, obvously, but i've seriously considered it, 'cause it feels like not many things are going right in my life.

Has anyone else felt (or still feels) like this, or does anyone have any advice they'd like to share or do you think Fate, the gods, the universe, etc are playing with me for some reason (maybe their entertainment?).

I think i'm a good person, i'm polite, and kind, IMO, anyway, i may not be the perfect person, as my mum could say, but no more than the streotypical teen (or maybe less than that actually), and i don't understand, why nothing seems to go right for me.

Anyway, hope this made some sense, and i'd like to hear your thoughts/opinions/beliefs or experiences with this.

Thanks :).

[Maelli]

Please don't think about ending your life. If you ever need someone to talk to please PM me. I would love to help and talk with you. I don't think that God/s are playing with you, I think that if you have negative feelings/thoughts that negative actions will follow wether they are by you or people around you. Samhain is coming up and I don't know if you celebrate it but it is a time of renewal and rebirth. Why don't you write on a piece of paper of all the negative feelings that you have and all the things you want out of your life. Meditate on that peice of paper then throw it in a fire and watch it burn; visualizing all those things leaving your life through the smoke rising. Try and surround your life with beautiful things. Get involved with something your passionate for. Good things will follow and if you believe in yourself you will be happy. I don't know if any if this helped but you are more than welcome to PM whenever you want.

[Twinkle]

If you're feeling so despondent that you are thinking of ending your life, you need to get some help. We can offer you advice and encouragement...but if you are truly depressed, than reach out to the people closest to you and get the help you need. I don't want to come off as harsh, and if I have I apologize. I just want you to be OK.

OK...so to answer your question. I've found that if I have displeased the gods in some way that there is an emotional disconnect from them. Sometimes all it comes down to is paying enough attention to them. Sometimes that can come in the way of offerings or sacrifice...sometimes it's just noticing them in your everyday existence.

Sometimes a person can feel ignored by the gods because they are not getting the answer that they want.

I believe that Diety, in whatever form is all around us all of the time. We just have to open our eyes and be aware of it.

Hope this helps.

[Flux]

If you're feeling so despondent that you are thinking of ending your life, you need to get some help. We can offer you advice and encouragement...but if you are truly depressed, than reach out to the people closest to you and get the help you need. I don't want to come off as harsh, and if I have I apologize. I just want you to be OK.

I agree! _pounce_

And yes, I do sometimes feel abandoned. I try to remember that life ebbs and flows.