having issues

[slovene_gds]

MM~
I recently decided to take a break from religion. I felt that I didn't belong. When I tried to get back into my faith, which is something i desperately want to do, I found that I couldn't. Something was holding me back. I start to cry whenever i try to put on my pentagram necklace. Then, it finally clicked. I don't feel worthy. I miss the goddess so badly, and it hurts to not practice anymore.
I wanted to know if anyone has ever gone through something like this. It hurts too much to put into words, and I guess I'm looking for osme kind of comfort. Just to know that everything will be okay and that I will be okay.

[Myst]

Well the Goddess is within you, and this isn't a religion that requires "that you're good enough". I think you need to concentrate on yourself for awhile. Meditate, relax, and learn to love yourself again, and you'll realise the only one holding you back is you and that there's no reason for you to do it.

[Garnet]

Sweetie...
It's called a 'crisis of faith' by some. Everybody goes through one sooner or later. There have been times when I start to set up my altar or I'm reading or even when I'm in the middle of a ritual, & I'm just not connecting. I sit back & think "What in blazes am I doing here?" Sometimes it lasts only a few minutes, sometimes a lot longer.
Hang in there, it's temporary. Honest. We're here if you need a shoulder to lean on.

[Flaire-FireStar]

It's okay.. I went through the same thing a while ago when I was still a Christian - meanwhile reading up on Wicca. Everyone made me feel guilty about it, so I stopped doing it, trying to regain that Christian attitude I had before..but it just never came back.

I agree with Myst..Just take some time out for yourself and get everything straightened out..

Good luck and *hugz* :) We're all here for you!

[slovene_gds]

oy. i hope it does pass. thankyou all SO much. i just wish i didn't feel this way. it pretty much sucks. immensely.

[Phoenix Blue]

Do you have someone local to you that you feel comfortable talking to, someone who's gone through something like this themselves?

If you do, talk to them. :) If not, find a good friend and chew on his/her ear for a while. Talking about problems almost always makes them better.

[Earthcup]

(((slovene_gds)))

I took a break from Christianity and it took a few weeks of soul searching and crying after reading about Wicca and Paganism before I could feel that somebody up there likes me again!

As my mom says, "This too shall pass.":)

[slovene_gds]

I set up my altar. I feel soooo much better after a couple of days of thinking. Thanks!

[Man/Wolf]

For months I was debating on whether or not to leave Wicca. I was miserable. I didn't know where to turn or who to talk to. I felt I was letting down my coven, the mother and myself. One day when I was talking to her, spilling my soul, it came to me. It is just between me and the mother, no one else. The only person I can let down is me. It was her way of telling me she is always with me no matter what I decide. Now I have the comfort of knowing that I don't have to be worthy, she made me worthy. All I have to do is respect the planet she gave me to live in, all her creatures(humans included) and myself.
I don't know if that helps, it helped me to finally get it out in the open.

I have left Wicca and am just diggin' being the laid back Pagan that I was meant to be.

[Earthcup]

*nods in agreement*

If all paths are true then the right one is the one that's true for you!

*wonders if that makes any sense but posts anyway;)*

[Flaire-FireStar]

Originally posted by slovene_gds
I set up my altar. I feel soooo much better after a couple of days of thinking. Thanks!

*hugz* :) Glad to hear you're feeling better!