tube527
March 10th, 2002, 05:13 AM
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I don't know know my exact point for posting, whether it is to rant or to look for thoughts and insights, but I am going through somewhat of a tough time in my life. I recently started seeing a very close friend of mine...so close that I never thought anything would ever come of it. Well something did but I never thought deeply into it because I didn't want to jump to conclusions. Well, everything was going fine for a couple of weeks, and then things just started to become strange, basically because neither of us knew how to act since we had always been such good friends. We never talked about what we were, and then just recently he told me he felt strange and thinks we are better as being friends and doesn't see us as anything more than that, but I know in my heart that that is not the case, I think he is afraid, but besides the point....I never realized I had such strong feelings for him until after we were "offically unoffical", since there was never a label. It kills me that it is back to a friendship. but I would rather have that than nothing at all. My heart, mind, and soul know that there is something there. You know that feeling? That feeling not of emptiness, but that of knowing...knowing you two have something, but not knowing what to do? In my heart I feel he cares about me not in only a friendship, but i don't know what to do about it...I'm home for my university's spring break, so I haven't seen him since the "talk", and I know myself and how I can be, so I can keep a friendship, but everytime I think of him this feeling overwhelms me as if, "no, there is something there that you shouldn't ignore!" For all that read this, I would love any insight you have, whether it be prayers, ideas, why I"m feeling this (it's not a "love" feeling)....or even any type of reading that you can do cause it is such a strange feeling....thank you to all who have read this and taken the time to take a minute out of your life to help me figure out what I should do.....
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I don't know know my exact point for posting, whether it is to rant or to look for thoughts and insights, but I am going through somewhat of a tough time in my life. I recently started seeing a very close friend of mine...so close that I never thought anything would ever come of it. Well something did but I never thought deeply into it because I didn't want to jump to conclusions. Well, everything was going fine for a couple of weeks, and then things just started to become strange, basically because neither of us knew how to act since we had always been such good friends. We never talked about what we were, and then just recently he told me he felt strange and thinks we are better as being friends and doesn't see us as anything more than that, but I know in my heart that that is not the case, I think he is afraid, but besides the point....I never realized I had such strong feelings for him until after we were "offically unoffical", since there was never a label. It kills me that it is back to a friendship. but I would rather have that than nothing at all. My heart, mind, and soul know that there is something there. You know that feeling? That feeling not of emptiness, but that of knowing...knowing you two have something, but not knowing what to do? In my heart I feel he cares about me not in only a friendship, but i don't know what to do about it...I'm home for my university's spring break, so I haven't seen him since the "talk", and I know myself and how I can be, so I can keep a friendship, but everytime I think of him this feeling overwhelms me as if, "no, there is something there that you shouldn't ignore!" For all that read this, I would love any insight you have, whether it be prayers, ideas, why I"m feeling this (it's not a "love" feeling)....or even any type of reading that you can do cause it is such a strange feeling....thank you to all who have read this and taken the time to take a minute out of your life to help me figure out what I should do.....
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