The Shrink needs to be Shrinked...

[~Owl~]

I'm usually the one who people turn to for advice, have been all my life, and I NEVER talk about my problems publically. But lately, things have begun tospiralout ofcontrol,and I've taken it out on those whom I've come tocare about, and who have tried to help, the friends who know me the most have been busy, and I don't want to bother them, so I've been like a pressure cooker this past week.
This month is my sister's first anniversary of her death, so tonite is going to be a little eerie.

I've never felt so alone in my life, yet I normally prefer it that way. I'm sure it will pass, but I just feel so bitter and broken inside right now...

My relationship to one whom I've been romantically involved with since this early Spring is on the rocks, and both of us are unwilling to face each other.
I spoke to him last night, although he was cold, and I could tell I was still on thin ice. I'm just in limbo right now...

~sighs, and puts her hands over her face~

guess I just needed to write it out.

[moonbride]

:hugz:
I know we don't know each other really... but if you want to talk I'm just a PM away.

[TheWomanMonster]

*hugs*
your bitter and broken feelings are natural.
And being in a rocky situation with your partner is probably not helping your feelings of isolation and lonelyness.
I understand being always the doctor and never the patient.
But you need to look after your well being right now.

If you ever need to talk. I'm here. I'm a good listener.
:)

*hugs* I hope you're able to work through this all.
I know it's hard, but you can be strong.

[NewPhoenix]

Even the shrink is human. Sometimes it's nice just to reach out and hear people say, Hey we hear you and we're here for you. :hugz: It's hard to feel someone else's coldness, no matter how you explain it logically. And then to have everything hit you all at once. Were you very close to your sister? Would you like to talk about her? If you're not comfortable doing this in public, feel free to PM me. :)

[Bluewillow]

I'm sorry to hear that you're going through such a rough time right now. You seem like such a cool person. You sound like you must be dealing with a tremendous amount right now, especially with it being the anniversary of your sister's death. My sister and I are extremely close, and I cannot imagine how I'd handle that, but I am also a big believer in that the ones we love and make such deep connections with who pass over always remain with us, not just in the sense of memory, but in the sense of actual presence, watching over us.
I believe that when we pass over, we're just as much alive as (if not more so than) we are in this life. I know it's much more easily said than done, but try to focus on the positives; the good times you shared with her, e.t.c. Honor her memory.

As for your relationship, I hope that somehow things get worked out for the good of all involved. I don't really have a lot of advice to give, but if you need someone to talk to, I'm around and you're welcome to get a hold of me if you need a listening ear. Remember, we can always try to be the strong people who give advice and never ask, but we have to eventually be on the receiving side as well, you know? It's okay to open up and say,"I am hurting, I am going through a difficult time, and I need to be heard."

I really hope that things improve for you very soon. :hugz: :hugz: :hugz:

[Lunacie]

:wth: Death anniversaries suck, especially when they fall around a holiday and everyone else seems to be happy and in a mood to celebrate. My wedding anniversary was the day before Valentine's Day, and when I separated from my ex and then divorced him, that was a really hard holiday for me for several years. A year after the divorce was final he died and the Wake was held on my birthday - so that really sucked too.

You're right, it does get better in time, but grieving is an on-going process and every special day that you shared with your sister is going to suck for a few years. And it really must suck that the person you thought you could count on and share things with is distant from you right now. I'm sorry you're having to deal with this all alone. I'll check back here after the kids are in bed and see if you want to talk... er, write. :hugz:

[~Owl~]

Thanks to all of you who have replied. That was very much appreciated. I just might take you up on your PM invites one day. We'll see how it goes.

[covenofkeys]

Sis!
you know where your friends are dammit girl look about you! pm me back now!!!from one HPss to another-you need to cheer up, and chill out girl before you break!! i have pm'd you.
~hugs you~
Nightshade.
and you know that what i say is true-be strong.

[~Owl~]

See what I gotta put up with? _wedgie_

Love you too, hon... I just got your PM. Thanks...

[BlueEyedWolf]

:hugz: :hugz: :hugz:
Writing releases alot of frustrations!
It comes in handy.

[MysticWitch]

Uh oh! What did you do :hehehehe: Just kiddin hun. Im sure things will be okay. Energies for you during this stressful time. :hugz:

[covenofkeys]

nothing she cant sort, eh, Sis?

[~Owl~]

Thanks to you...and BTW, ~taps a talon~ you and I are going to have a...little...talk...

Just got through talking to you know who. VERY interesting converstation. Little Stinker.