Grieving for lost love

[mithrilmoon]

I am reeling from a recent breakup that came as a shock, and don't know where to turn.

If I could have just one more chance to show him how much I care, knowing what I now know and having learned many hard lessons, I would seize that chance and be very sure to avoid repeating my mistakes. I think the world of him, and miss him so much.

I am lost, and my heart aches. Life seems hollow and lonely. He brought so much happiness to me and I, to him. If only he'd let me tell him so.

We were both afraid, but I have come to realise that my fear by far exceeded his. If I could take back the pain I caused him as a result, I surely would. I hadn't loved for a long time, and I was really scared.

If anyone can send healing energy to help me deal with this gut-wrenching pain, I would be very grateful. Thanks.

Pauline XX

[Mainedruid]

Such a painful time in life I know... Its been a year and a half since I became a single dad... she cheated, I was crushed. never in my life I have loved some one that much. Even today its a hard thing to deal with.

My pagan studies stopped, I went into survival mode and did just what I needed to in order to get by day by day.

I dealt with things one day at a time, I allowed my self to feel pain, hate, sadness... all that goes along with a smashed heart.

As time went on, I made a point to watch the sun rise and breath deep, I made a solid effort to clear my head and start each day with clean slate. I smiled and said good morning to every one I saw on my way to work.

I kissed and hugged my children.... twice as much.

Each day I loved my self more and more... I blamed my self less and less...

I have yet to find a "mate" as perfect as she was... but thats ok... I have me, and my kids... I love me and thats enough.


The best advice I can give... Love your self and you pain will fade.... I promise

I'll light a candle for you tonight... Your in my thoughts

Be well,
Mike

[Merrilyn]

:loveydove
This is a terrible pain.
Take heart in friends and solace in solitude. Let your heart speak its secret messages of comfort to you, and listen. All is not lost.
I know it sounds silly, but writing may help. Write a letter to your lost love..even if he never ever sees it. Write your soul upon the paper; pour your emotions from the pen.
Know that you're in our thoughts, and among friends.

[JyuMuse]

I'm sorry for you. *hugs* I'm sorry everytime I hear that someone is going through this feeling. It's awful, it's sick, and I hate that it's a part of the human condition. But we get through it...how I have no idea. Just one day you feel better...I just wish it could be sooner and faster then it ever is. *hugs* Energy to you and may you grow stonger and better from every challenge that faces you.

[BlackMagicalCat]

I am reeling from a recent breakup that came as a shock, and don't know where to turn.

If I could have just one more chance to show him how much I care, knowing what I now know and having learned many hard lessons, I would seize that chance and be very sure to avoid repeating my mistakes. I think the world of him, and miss him so much.

I am lost, and my heart aches. Life seems hollow and lonely. He brought so much happiness to me and I, to him. If only he'd let me tell him so.

If anyone can send healing energy to help me deal with this gut-wrenching pain, I would be very grateful. Thanks.

Pauline XX
Bless your heart,im sorry to hear that.

I felt the same way years ago,when my wife left me.I wanted one more chance to let her know how much I loved her,,,,but it never came.She eventually remaired,and is now a widow with a one year old.

As time passed,my wounds healed.I learned a great deal from my pain,lessons that I would not have otherwise learned or understood.So it turned out to be a blessing to me,,,but a painfull one for sure.

Sometimes things can never be like they were,and we are forced to move on,and deal with the changes we are given.Things always change,and no relationship is forever in this life,,they all come to an end at some point .

As your path takes you through changes,I pray you will be guided from above,and led by an unseen loving hand,and that your heart will be given the strength to endure,and to overcome.

I speak a blessing to you,that will uplift you,and give you hope,and a reason to smile.

[Kahlil the Heretic]

lol

My God, I'm only 22 and I realize that love is as perrenial as the grass.

I am not making light of your situation, but Jeezus, life goes on. No one can complete you but yourself. God bless.

[covenofkeys]

just something...

PAIN OF LOVE
in the shadows of darkness, -who will hold your hand?
in the depths of the night,-who will understand?
we cannot live together, we cannot live apart,
please help me mend the pieces of my broken heart,
how many heartaches must i stand?how long do i have to wait?
help me to pass through love's lost gate,
waiting, and anticipating,
i yearn for thee,
all that i am, all i can be,
trying to find a way out,
hear me, know me,- listen to my shout,
open your eyes to see the truth within,
let us rejoice in this feeling,let our hearts sing,
forever is not long enough it seems,
i hear your voice within my dreams,
you can run and you can hide,
but it wont stop the feelings inside,
embrace the emotion with all that you are,
let the love grow and from me never depart,
drowning am i -i cannot breathe air,
love it just seems to be unfair,
with open arms you welcomed me in to yours,
with all my imperfections-all my flaws.

[covenofkeys]

yes, in time.
it only destroys you if you allow it to.
love hurts, because its supposed to.
at the minute you are hurting, but youll be fine.

[nightchild]

Thanks.

I know what I know. What will be, will be.

That my ex will not listen, will not trust me, is his misfortune.

He has destroyed me, but I forgive him. I will recover, in time.

Pauline XX

:hugz: :rubhead: *hugs* to you my dear and know that we are here for support.

[mithrilmoon]

Thank you all.

The medium I met last night mentioned a Psychic Fellowship that meets regularly in my city. I told her I'd found information about it it online, but that the meeting is on the far side of town, and I have no transport. She immediately offered to drive me there and back.

Since I need a new spiritual guide and teacher, becoming part of the Fellowship might be a very good idea.

As a friend once said to me, things tend to happen if you let them.

Pauline XX

[Merrilyn]

Pauline, that sounds like a great opportunity. I say, jump on it.
I wish you well, woman.

[Merrilyn]

ps

I'm a total TOLKIEN nut. You can see Prince Legolas Greenleaf of Mirkwood, amongst others, in the background of my pic - a TWO TOWERS game standup!
You and me both! I used to ditch class to read Tolkien in the school library. I'd be up there for hours, and no one ever even noticed me.

[mithrilmoon]

Those of you who are, so kindly, sending me healing and energy and blessings and goodwill, are doing me great good.

I feel the benefits already.

I have a long way to go, still, but I'll get there.

Heartfelt thanks.

Pauline XX

[covenofkeys]

Ah, good old LOTR-gotta love it!
must say i prefer the books, b/c i found the films to be a bit long winded,
but nonetheless a brilliant piece of filmwriting.

[mithrilmoon]

I've edited my original post and deleted most of the others. I don't 'blog'; this thread is the closest I've ever come to that. Much of what I wrote was perhaps too personal to post, but I needed to share it with someone. I spend way too much time alone.

My posts were, of course, subjective. There are two sides to every story.

Tonight I feel so low I simply dread the days and weeks to come, but I know that I'll get through them. We always do.

P. XX

[SnowyMoon]

Sending a hug in your direction. :hugz: Peace, comfort and strength to you. :hugz:

[Merrilyn]

Time changes all things.
You may feel the darkness within your heart now, but time changes all things, and even the deepest, darkest of Woods Must Fail..

O! Wanderers in the shadowed land
despair not! For though dark they stand,
all woods there be must end at last,
and see the open sun go past:
the setting sun, the rising sun,
the day's end, or the day begun.
For east or west all woods must fail...
-Tolkien

[Merrilyn]

Anytime.
It will rise and fall, this tide of emotions. Your waters run deep and dark, Pauline, and they hold many mysteries yet to be discovered.
Brightest Blessings.