Lady Soulscribe
November 24th, 2006, 05:04 PM
Okay I feel kind of dumb for asking this, and I apologize for the rambling...but its almost like asking a doctor if your sick, you give them a bit of background, and your symptoms...
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I believe I am an empath, some days more then others. Its strange really, I guess I have to work on it... but I really get quickly agitated with large crowds, and or large crowds in enclosed spaces (like a Wal-Mart). Loud noises really bother me. (Let me tell you of the day I was literally yelling back at a intercom system in the middle of a Super center.) Yet I could be working in a tent at a festival for my work, and totally working the crowd with no problems...in fact I enjoy things like that.
I can tell when family members are calling, before they do (that happens every once and a while.) I have fallen ill when family members have passed on: For example:
I had taken a break from helping my college make gift baskets to students, when I felt like I was queasy and thought I was going to throw up, after laying in my dorm room for a bit. I figured I would call my mom and tell her I had found airline tickets on sale so that I could come home on for break. I checked the time it was 300pm. It was early since she was a schoolteacher, but I figured I would just leave a message on the answering machine or with my ill father. I called, she was home she had just been allowed to walk into the house by the fire and police department. My father had wrecked the car coming back from McDonalds and caught his car, and the backyard shed on fire. He passed away just an hour before. My mom, to say the least was shocked an astonished that I had called.
Within the last year I have been diagnosed with panic attacks. When I get the attacks I get flashes of things that don’t make sense (generally the same things) then a headache... I take medication 'as needed' I cant tell you a scenario of what would trigger a PA... it could be driving on a country road, I could be standing in a store, I could be sitting at a computer, I could be in traffic going to or from work, I could be lying on the floor in my room, and sometimes I get them when I'm worked up and in an argument and I’m crying.
But today I feel discombobulated, jittery, restless, anxious, on edge lately... don’t know why
I’m having a very hard time tuning out energies today... I have one worker who makes me uneasy whenever I'm around him. He hates being here, and he’s leaving soon (thank the gods) then I have another co-worker who won’t shut up as I'm talking and its a real chore to type.
How do you deal with all this? What are the first steps?
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I believe I am an empath, some days more then others. Its strange really, I guess I have to work on it... but I really get quickly agitated with large crowds, and or large crowds in enclosed spaces (like a Wal-Mart). Loud noises really bother me. (Let me tell you of the day I was literally yelling back at a intercom system in the middle of a Super center.) Yet I could be working in a tent at a festival for my work, and totally working the crowd with no problems...in fact I enjoy things like that.
I can tell when family members are calling, before they do (that happens every once and a while.) I have fallen ill when family members have passed on: For example:
I had taken a break from helping my college make gift baskets to students, when I felt like I was queasy and thought I was going to throw up, after laying in my dorm room for a bit. I figured I would call my mom and tell her I had found airline tickets on sale so that I could come home on for break. I checked the time it was 300pm. It was early since she was a schoolteacher, but I figured I would just leave a message on the answering machine or with my ill father. I called, she was home she had just been allowed to walk into the house by the fire and police department. My father had wrecked the car coming back from McDonalds and caught his car, and the backyard shed on fire. He passed away just an hour before. My mom, to say the least was shocked an astonished that I had called.
Within the last year I have been diagnosed with panic attacks. When I get the attacks I get flashes of things that don’t make sense (generally the same things) then a headache... I take medication 'as needed' I cant tell you a scenario of what would trigger a PA... it could be driving on a country road, I could be standing in a store, I could be sitting at a computer, I could be in traffic going to or from work, I could be lying on the floor in my room, and sometimes I get them when I'm worked up and in an argument and I’m crying.
But today I feel discombobulated, jittery, restless, anxious, on edge lately... don’t know why
I’m having a very hard time tuning out energies today... I have one worker who makes me uneasy whenever I'm around him. He hates being here, and he’s leaving soon (thank the gods) then I have another co-worker who won’t shut up as I'm talking and its a real chore to type.
How do you deal with all this? What are the first steps?