Grimr's Althing Of Prayers.

[Grimr]

Hail the great Gods of Asgardr.


Today mark's the day where the bull will no longer be complacent with the slave masters of mankind that rides it.

The bull finally has had enough in it's ordeal of struggles or surviving.

The time of the bull when it goes mad concerning itself of it's own preservation first and foremost is at hand. The bull will now stab those with it's horns who has enslaved it into indignities and suffering.


Now triumph bull.



May the Goddess Freya bless me in my future opportunities of happiness.

May the God Thor smite my enemies in their injustices and inequalities against me.

May the cosmic wheel be brought down on them.

May they tremble at their own actions.


Hail Odin lord allfather.

Keep my body hard and tough like iron for all the battles I must face in the future.

Keep my mind as strong as a mountain and as wise as a tree.

Help me find strength in myself so I can be self sufficient and independent.

Help me not be too dependent on others.

[Grimr]

May the Goddess Freya help all the lost innocent souls find strength in themselves to survive and be at peace with themselves.

[Grimr]

Hail Odin.


I walk through the decaying world which brings itself it's own self destruction upon all life and on itself.


I walk through a thousand spears stabbing me and through the demon eyes that suck the very blood or goodness within me.


Through fire and ice I walk upon through the earth.


I walk through seas of fire and through the bounds of the black cold abyss.


I walk upon the cliff of eternity.


I walk between the bounds of life and death.


I walk through a thousand pains and sufferings.

Hail Odin,

Keep me strong to whatever end that I may encounter in being.


Keep my fists as strong as steel.

Keep my body as hard as iron.

Keep my mind as wise as the oldest oak tree.

Keep my mind as strong as a mountain or the toughest fortress.


To whatever end I walk whether it be life or death.

Life and death both journeys of two paths that are identical.

To whatever end I go with strength and no fear.

Fear has lost it's hold on me.

Let a million demon hordes come against me and I will face them alone if it presents itself. So be it.


Take my soul to Ragnarokr if it pleases you Allfather if my flesh expires in death.

Take my soul and make use of it in what I couldn't do in life.


Hail Odin allfather God.

[Grimr]

Be with me at work Odin.

[Grimr]

To whatever end Gods help me live to be strong.


Help me learn your wisdom even in the times where everything grows dark.


More and more I live with no fear.


Be with me Gods , always.

[Grimr]

My flesh is ripped apart and my heart pounds like thunder. My body lays to waste and my bones are nimble.


My future seems to be lost in a sea of hopelessness and my intentions in life un-noticed.


I try very hard to live in civilization to earn my right to live in gaining acceptance of a future. I try hard to make a future for myself and everytime I fail to find a path for myself in the constraints of society.


What does one have to do to simply live and be happy?


When will my struggles end?

I have battled too many times in life to survive and I grow weary of it any more.

I pray to the Gods to take me to whatever end but I want that end to be one of my choosing in a more happy time. Truth be told I can't honestly say that end will be a positive one.

Today and tomorrow I go to work.

My animated flesh grows weary of being stretched out on the plow of hard labour.

My dignity as a human being becomes non-existant. I have become a tool.



I sometimes wonder if this is the death of me. I sometimes wonder if I am alive or dead. Perhaps I have become a walking corpse of a man.


Gods help me.

[Grimr]

My own little internet symbolic alter of Deities.



http://home.freeuk.net/elloughton13/images11/godsodin.jpg

Odin.



http://library.flawlesslogic.com/thor_1.jpg


Thor.



http://www.crystalinks.com/freya.jpg

Freya.



http://www.timelessmyths.com/norse/gallery/niord.jpg


Njord.

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http://www.sacred-texts.com/evil/hod/img/24200.jpg


Hel.



http://users.dickinson.edu/~eddyb/mythology/Norns.jpg


The Norns.



http://members.tripod.com/wn_ageofmythology/god_minor_icon_norse_freyja.jpg

Sol.

[Grimr]

Valkyries.


http://z.about.com/d/altreligion/1/0/B/0/3/glossaryvalkyrie.jpg




http://students.ou.edu/K/Sarah.E.Kindley-1/images/Valkyrie.jpg



http://wwwstatic.kern.org/DHS/images/BillBaugher/brunhilda.jpg

[Grimr]

Hail great Gods of Asgardr. Hail the lords of Midgardr and of the worlds of the yggdrasil.

Hail ye Gods who are the cosmos.

My being,existance and substance comes from you.

It is the Gods that spring fourth life and from it comes my reverence.


I remain true to honor and valour.

[Grimr]

My sickness gets worse by the day.

The pain in my ribs and sternum intensifies. There is not a day that I don't go without my electric heating pad.

Tomorrow I will go see a doctor and see what can be done. I honestly don't know what to expect. I have seen many doctors since July when I had pleurisy and all they have told me is that such pain is normal or unpleasant.

They gave me medicine which seems to change nothing.

To be honest I wonder if tomorrow will be a waste of time. Nothing would surprise me anymore.


I know my complacent servile job of indignity is causing alot of problems in my health. I know that my job is literally physically killing me.

Soon I hope to get a different job. Though the time to leave is not now and I know I must fight a little more.


I never thought to myself in my younger days that I would have to live such a harsh cruel life that I live today. I always imagined my life to be more positive at this point.

I have battled for most of my life already and I thought to myself that the fates would hold pity on me. In time I have learned that is not so.

The only person I can count on is myself and the Gods guiding me. There is no human being or human ideal that I can count on because often the world of man is of deceit and lies.


I will persevere like I always do and I will endure a thousand more pains.

If death comes I say let it come. The more I live the less I fear.

To whatever end.


I do not blame the Gods for my life of pain and suffering. The cosmos and nature I see as the realm of the Gods. Civilization I see as the realm of man.

What happens to me in the pain and inflictions that I suffer is not of the Gods but is the creations of men.

Everyday I wish I was born in more simpler natural times and yet I know such a dream will never be. All I can do is stand against the tide of fire smile and stand against it.


What we do in eternity is forever wrote in time.

[Grimr]

Days have gone by and my pain has lessened. These are good things but I am still on my guard because the pain in my ribs or sternum have not gone completely.

Even worse is since the holiday shopping season has started I am working double shifts and there are days where I am so exhausted that I feel like I could just collapse at any moment.

At work I have had my right foot ran over by a machine. It was through no fault of my own but it was a real accident that came without warning.

I have been limping for the past 6 days now and the pain in my right foot intensifies. Right now I am just toughing it out hoping that the pain will leave over time.

Other then that I am fair I suppose. I have learned so much over this past year upcoming to the new year that is on it's way and I am proud of myself that I have come this far in human knowledge or potential.

On my twentieth birthday I will fill out a application so that I may become a police officer. This is one of the most happiest times of my life by far with new opportunities and ideas all around me.

[Grimr]

Hail great Odin lord allfather who is lord of the cosmos and all things.

This coming Yule represents your glory and the glory of all the Gods that you command.

I shall walk in the forests soon to commune with you and all things in existance. I will walk the vitki path once more to gain your wisdom in my never ending quest for knowledge.

I will cross the yggdrasil realms once more in understanding your glory.


Help me find strength in myself and help me find strength in your glory my lord.

Help me find knowledge of this world that transcends the barrier of time so that I may fulfill my destiny.

I hope my pride and my vanity does not offend you lord. I hope you do not think that I am climbing too high for I know that the Gods have a way of punishing people who become too powerful or naive.

If I should ever go that road smite me down as I would be a threat to the very harmony of the world.

I would sacrifice my life for the betterment of the world and for virtue.

I try hard to walk a line of mediation where I don't climb too high in my self pride or arrogance.

This Yule I shall drink from the horn and I shall be merry.

In all of this I will never forget the Gods who made me who I am and humanity should not forget that it was the Gods that gave us the first breath to exist.

Let the Gods be honored and let Gods or men rejoice!

As always my lord Allfather Odin strengthen my mind like the oldest oak tree and make my body as strong like the unflinching mountain.

Help me be fearless to whatever end the Norns spin on me in their weaving of life on the spindle thread.


Hail great allfather! Hail!

[Grimr]

Well I was banned at this site for the first time for defending my honor no doubt. Someone said somthing smart about me and so I said somthing smart back in reply so that is the reason why I was banned for a couple of days.

Rest assured I was the only one punished because nobody else can do no wrong. ;)

I just want everyone to know that I just take it as a badge of honor in defending free speech everywhere and the more people throw spears at me the stronger I become.

My banning was probally a victory for everyone out there against free speech but that is alright I can take a licking anyday of the week.

I will just have to remember that the thought police is everywhere including on the sites where I like to conversate and that I will have to be more careful in what I say or do.

[Grimr]

On Dec the 3rd I got my right foot ran over by the Walmart Cart machine in operating it.
( Yay me!)

It was purely human error and that is all it was unfortunately. At first I tried to work with the pain for a week and a half shrugging it off being the tough man that I am but over a period of time it became worse.


It turns out after seeing a doctor on my workers compensation that I have a fractured bone in my right foot so it was no wonder why my right foot hurted for a week.

All the managers are pissed off I can tell having to make special arrangements for a week but I don't really care and I will bring them a box of tissue for their little tears.

Right now my foot is in a cast and I am just taking things pretty easy at this point.

Life is a battle and you only win in victory with anything else as just surrender.

[Grimr]

Lately I have been dwelling back into Anarcho-Primitivism for in the past I used to be a Anarcho-Primitivist myself. Of course I guess you can say I am not a true Anarcho-Primitivist in essence because I don't reject all forms of technology or invention but rather I pick the ones I only view as necessary and helpful. ( I have had some ridicule from some Anarcho Primitivists themselves in my studies.)

In my belief less dependency on technology or inventions strengthens the character and mind of the person utilizing such beliefs. I really do call for more self sufficiency and independence in the human spirit.


In the worse case scenario I consider myself tribal or a agrarianist who has many thoughts about the human condition. I also consider myself anti-civilization in many points but also anti-industrial.


One of the parodoxes I am facing is that human beings have no natural symbiosis with the world and the more I study human nature in it's interaction sadly with a bit of irony I am seeing man as a form of parasitism. In my belief man was not always parasitic because in his nomadic,tribal or hunting and gathering age I see man as being perfectly set into natural symbiosis only when man created civilization through private property and other un-natural events do I see man taking the road away from natural symbiosis into the parasitism I see him into today.

With the many books I am writing I am thinking about writing a book about symbiosis on the fallacies of civilization. It is a idea I have recently come to acquire for myself.

Lately I have been reading my favorite anti-civilization writer who's name is Ran Prieur.

His website:

http://ranprieur.com/essays.html


More and more I feel very inclined to his beliefs though with some minor differences of my own beliefs though.

Also I have reading alot of Nietzsche and Schopenhauer in their various philosophies. I am really interested in Nietzsche's concept of the overman of a human being who goes through the next step of evolution mastering himself or everything around him.

I really am trying to understand this concept philosophically but also in a spiritual light as well in my studies. At first I thought that Nietzsche and Schopenhauer's concepts were Nihilistic with my dislike but I am beginning to actually have a affinity for some of their prime teachings.

Naturally I don't agree with everything they have to say but now I am beginning to accept that they did have some pretty spectacular formations in their theories of the human condition.


A couple of days I was in the woods praying to the Gods and then it hit me like a spiritual force that came from the sky:

Why isn't humanity in symbiosis with nature like all the other animals?

In my own way of thinking I have concluded that the complexities of human nature transfered by the facilities of reason are really more subversive then beneficial and that it seperates us from the symbiosis of the natural foundation of existance away from any other animal.
(We have become a biological anomaly.).

In this subversive form of complexities that is a self infliction on ourselves or on other people in suffering from others I have discovered it creates a form of parasitism on ourselves but even more depressing on the natural enviroment around ourselves.

Right now through the writings of JeanJacques Rousseau,Nietzsche,Schopenhauer,Paul Sartre and Immanuel Kant I am trying to discover the error that is the human condition wondering if there is a philosophical or spiritual cure for it.

I have also re-discovered ancient Greek cynicism on the concept of liberation by dis-attaching oneself from material or ideological objects in my studies.

With Greek Cynicism and a form of Primitivism I have concluded that in order to take that next form of evolution to become Nietzsche's overman one must completely outright reject civilization and everything in it.

That is the only way for the next step of evolution to work. Evolution can only happen in the foundation of nature in symbiosis in comparison of the decaying parasitic foundation of civilization.

Spiritually and philosophically I have made it my goal to become the overman to take that next leap of evolution beyond the bounds of civilization and all conventional thought. Beyond the moral codes of society and the laws that bind them. I am also trying to acquaint myself with amorality.

It is not the truth that most people would expect but often times I have found that real truth is always contrary to what we expect it to be.

I shall write more of these subjects once I conclude more of my studies.


As you can see I have the ConanTheBarbarian avatar in my profile image and the reason for this is because himself as a character I view him as having perfect overman qualities in a natural symbiotic form as a archetype.

[Grimr]

As I said a couple of days I ago I found myself in the woods praying to the Gods and connecting myself to all the spiritual forces around me.

The sky was cloudy and the wind was howling with a blaze.

I chanted the sacred words and echoes in my meditational rite.

In that moment the sacred force hit me and pierced my body deep in my soul like a sword deep in the flesh of battle with it came a feeling of sublime ectasy or a form of communion I have never felt before in my long years of shamanism.

I fell down onto the ground laying there in the grass and reeds staring at the sky feeling the sacred energy around me from the earth that I layed flat on.

It was as if all the many complexities and stirrings in my mind became silent with all of them being drowned out by one large force of ectasy and wisdom.

In that thirty minute period I felt at peace like I have never been before and it felt marvelous.

In my communion and meditation laying there on the earth my new philosophical understanding of symbiosis came acquired in my mind.

It was as if the very peace I was in inspiried me with a muse in a form of epiphany.

I hope to go to the woods again today or tomorrow to connect to the Gods again.

[Grimr]

For the record I am staying out of the political section of this site for the most part largely due to peoples unacceptable severe sensitivities and the fact that just about anything is seemed insulting regardless if any insult was intended or not.

Everyone is so culturally sensitive in their Egalitarianism these days would be another reason I am trying to stay away from that section. With such Egalitarianism being a prevailment in culturally European countries it is no wonder why our various European cultures are in decline.

I will only reply to maybe one thread in that section at this moment and I think it will be a long time before I ever post much of anything in that section again.

I am pretty much mainly going to stay in the philosophical or spiritual threads and every once in awhile I will pop my head in the Just Talk section.

[Grimr]

I have celebrated Yule in the thick of the forests with the crows circling about. It was a great expirience to pray to the allfather lord Odin and to feel the sacredness of being around me.

It was a feeling of serenity and tranquility. I feel like my practices of shamanism are growing stronger and that I can connect to the spirit world much better than I could when I was younger.


I hope to master myself and my enviroment before I die as a shaman for that truely is the ultimate test or goal of every shaman.


Lately I have been studying alot of biology,evolution and genetics in my personal studies. I am fascinated by the concept of Mendelian laws.

Slowly but surely I hope to become more adept in these concepts.

My health I think is improving though it is very hard to know because one day I will feel better and the other day I will feel worse. I have no idea if my health will ever pull through where I can be as strong as I used to be.

That pleurisy I had in July has cursed me terribly and I long for the day when all the backlash from that horrible month has left me.



This month has been very hard financially for I have not even a dollar to my name right now. It is a constant struggle to survive and sadly I am surviving paycheck to paycheck right now.

I have no gas money and hardly any money to get food. I don't even have any money to get gifts for friends and family right now but luckily I have already got those things out of the way a month earlier.

This is a test of life and I know I must persevere and carry onward. I am reminded by history books of all the great heroes and overmen that survived on their own prowless even in times of poverty. I try to live by their example.



I wonder if malnutrition is the reason of what is causing my chronic pain but that doesn't make sense because I take multivitamins everyday.


Somthing has to give because I have been very patient and enduring these late months.


I leave everything in the hands of the Gods.

[Grimr]

My foot is still swollen but it is healing. The managers you can tell at my job are thrilled about the whole thing but honestly I do not care of their whining trivialities.

I hate my job and I hate the false acts of civility and courtesy that seems to get customers off or jolly because of the servile disposition of all public courtesy.

In my world I would be able to have what I want without being under the yoke of another human being and if another human being would try to command me or harm me I would be able to defend myself like any other animal. Instead we live in a world gone wrong where chaos is masked by progress and people like myself are stuck in the middle of the whole charade falling through the cracks.


For now I put up with such constructs and manipulations because I have to. I put up with such things with a hidden anger slowly building up.

I keep telling myself things will get better but often I am left in complete doubt with a dead end facing infront of me.

I have made a promise that if I can not create the world that I want in civilization that I will leave it altogether.

I have actually thought about buying my own land and living off the natural world if worse comes to worse.


Right now I leave my life in the hands of the Goddess Fates who weave their thread of life on a spindle.

We shall see where his road takes us.

[Grimr]

My father is growing more sick by the day and his foot grows worse. I think his old age is finally catching up to him.


I pray to the Goddess Freya to watch over him so that he may find some peace and comfort. I know he is really old and he doesn't have much longer to be on this earth. I know the Goddess Hel will come for his spirit someday.

I only hope that when Hel comes for him that his transition will be peaceful and his life fulfilled.

This year has been cruel to our family and the cruelty sometimes knows no bounds or mercy.


There has to be a light out of this tunnel of darkness and despair.