I am sooo sick of being good

[Lady Aeris]

Suddenly i wish i hadnt been such a good kid, its not paying off at all. My parents dont deserve it. Im sick of being good, absolutely sick of it- its a complete waste of time and energy, i should have rebelled a long time ago so that they wouldnt expect so much for me and feel like they can be part of the nazi regime and randomly take control of my life. I cannot wait to be out of this god forsaken house. i hate them right now.

[covenofkeys]

_pounce_

[kaitlynj]

it will pay off in the future... i promise. not for your parents, but for you. "good kids" really do make it farther in life, 99% of the time

[Stumble]

I felt very much the same way as I got older and older. I would suggest this... instead of rebelling which only creates misery for your parents and in turn you, find an outlet in which you can be utterly yourself. When you are old enough to be on your own you will be old enough to do some of the things you aren't permitted now but you will have a better grasp of your limits.
I found theatre to be a great release for me as I grew up in an overbearingly Christian home where I was to learn how to make some man a good wife by fullfilling all of his needs and forgoing my own. Sorry I guess I am still a little bitter about my raising. But when I was in theatre I could escape into my own little world and figure out who I was. When I was old enough to move out I tried drinking instead of getting sloshed as I would have as a teen. I tried sex but I was very responsible about it. You will get to be yourself you just may have to introduce that person to your parents slowly enough that they can handle it. My parents are still learning who I am and I started showing them 7 years ago. I don't know if I made you feel better or worse but I hope some of this helps.:spaceman:

[Cat]

As bad as things are, they might be worse if you'd been bad.

I'm sure your good behavior has some perqs for you though, at least as far as grades and work habits go. At any rate, there's no changing the past. Stumble had a great suggestion for you going forward. All I can add is the suggestion to start spending a lot of time at friends' houses.