Nect
March 23rd, 2002, 09:47 PM
For those who frequent MM - yeah, I posted this there, too! I am that desperate! :lol:
I'm just thinking out loud here...it's LONG...for anyone who has too much time on their hands :D - HELP!
I never stop freaking out (over whatever), do I? I've had this very, very disturbing dream three nights back - the uni that I really, really want to get into said that they would not take me. I was told over the phone by a woman who said, "Look, it's May 1st and if you haven't heard from us yet, that means we are not taking you. There is no hope." I woke up shaking all over. So I did some readings for myself - the central message that I got from all those readings were "surprise!" My cards didn't tell me what's gonna happen but the cards that kept on popping up included The Devil, Four of Swords, Death, Three of Wands, Two of Wands, to name a few. I now have the feeling that after having hopped three university within three years :) it's time to stop (Four of Swords) and step into something completely new (Three of Wands). Now, I cannot even imagine how my family would react if I stopped uni altogether, nor can I imagine what I would be doing if I stopped studying.
I have the feeling that it's not something bad, I'm only disturbed because I *know* it's gonna be different and I don't know *what* this *thing* is. I keep on getting the message that I'll have to be bold but not rash, and The Star has appeared as both the problem card and solution card in different readings, my ultimate destination is often Four of Swords (this I see very clearly, I like going everywhere and doing everything solo...I'm only active on the internet because I don't have to deal with people physically).
Two nights ago, had another dream. I kept on taking this ferry back and forth with some people that I have never met before in real life, but were apparently family/friends in my dream. The journey was tiring and boring and finding my way to the pier was a tough one - had to go through a lot of yucky turns where the ground was wet/dirty concrete, had to climb up rusted stairs. And then when this part was over, I found myself lost in a busy part of Hong Kong at night. It was one of those slum areas, crowded, dirty but still bright coz of all those neon light signs in Chinese. I found my way out (in the process of this, strangers picked up that I was lost. I kinda panicked coz it felt like they were going to rob me or something...y'know, when people think you're a tourist they just want to bully you). Then I found myself in a department store, specifically in the children section. There was a flight of spiral stairs. The ambience was warm, beech wood everywhere. The clothes of that section were generally white/lace/pastel-colored. And then as I looked down/went down those spiralled stairs, a man came walking up - this guy is a HK soap star! :lol: Very good-looking, but I felt his aura to be very fatherly. We didn't converse, just passed each other. And then that's all I remembered.
Last night I had a dream where I was part of an all-women coven/community where one thing that got much of my attention was a woman (brunette, blue eyes. Reminds me very much of a woman who I met at the auras workshop a week ago) who stated, "My father (or I or family? don't recall...) is a multi-millionaire." 'Mult-millionaire sounds kinda funny! And then in other parts of the dream, I was herding a huge pack of dogs (strays or not, I'm not sure, but some definitely were. I knew there were several St. Bernards, but they all looked like shadowy figures to me) and my home is not the beautiful/lavish place that I live in now, but looked very dilapitated as if poverty has befallen me. But the coven/community looked very neat, pretty, and clean - like some high class club. It used a lot of beech wood for its furnitures and most, if not all, of its curtains/other fabrics were deep green. The lights were always warm yellow - the ambience was very comforting as opposed to my house. In my house, I seemed to have seen very clearly this one closet/cabinet that was always rocking and about to fall apart. There was a clear light/dark division in my dream - the coven of women was light where I saw everyone's faces and everything very vividly; whereas my activities elsewhere, especially with herding the dogs, as dark although everything happened during the day, the light never shone on the dogs for me to distinguish their faces well.
This dream *is* telling me something...and it was very right on what made up my life now - work with animal rights (dogs) and work with Wicca (coven...my Clan only consists of women at this point in time). But the dark/light aspects puzzle me (perhaps it's a reflection that I've been neglecting my animal rights work a bit, i.e. left it in the dark, and my focus has been on Wicca, i.e. under the spotlight?). And then my tarot readings aren't solving much. I did a spread that told me right now I already *know* everything that I need to know to unravel this issue, I just have to pick up the pieces and put them together. The Moon (just laid on my patio to admire the night sky) did tell me something - I felt it, but haven't managed to decipher it yet. It was something deep enough that got me to cry - tears just came out naturally, no sobs, no sounds, just the tears and pangs in my heart. And I have also become drawn to Druidism/Druidry.
Now, for those of you who are very bored or have had the patience to read through THAT :lol: and wouldn't mind to help out...how would you put those pieces together? I hear myself telling me that I have all the ingredients to bake *a* cake - I just don't know the recipe nor *what* cake will result. Ideas, people???
Thank you! :heartthro
Nect
I'm just thinking out loud here...it's LONG...for anyone who has too much time on their hands :D - HELP!
I never stop freaking out (over whatever), do I? I've had this very, very disturbing dream three nights back - the uni that I really, really want to get into said that they would not take me. I was told over the phone by a woman who said, "Look, it's May 1st and if you haven't heard from us yet, that means we are not taking you. There is no hope." I woke up shaking all over. So I did some readings for myself - the central message that I got from all those readings were "surprise!" My cards didn't tell me what's gonna happen but the cards that kept on popping up included The Devil, Four of Swords, Death, Three of Wands, Two of Wands, to name a few. I now have the feeling that after having hopped three university within three years :) it's time to stop (Four of Swords) and step into something completely new (Three of Wands). Now, I cannot even imagine how my family would react if I stopped uni altogether, nor can I imagine what I would be doing if I stopped studying.
I have the feeling that it's not something bad, I'm only disturbed because I *know* it's gonna be different and I don't know *what* this *thing* is. I keep on getting the message that I'll have to be bold but not rash, and The Star has appeared as both the problem card and solution card in different readings, my ultimate destination is often Four of Swords (this I see very clearly, I like going everywhere and doing everything solo...I'm only active on the internet because I don't have to deal with people physically).
Two nights ago, had another dream. I kept on taking this ferry back and forth with some people that I have never met before in real life, but were apparently family/friends in my dream. The journey was tiring and boring and finding my way to the pier was a tough one - had to go through a lot of yucky turns where the ground was wet/dirty concrete, had to climb up rusted stairs. And then when this part was over, I found myself lost in a busy part of Hong Kong at night. It was one of those slum areas, crowded, dirty but still bright coz of all those neon light signs in Chinese. I found my way out (in the process of this, strangers picked up that I was lost. I kinda panicked coz it felt like they were going to rob me or something...y'know, when people think you're a tourist they just want to bully you). Then I found myself in a department store, specifically in the children section. There was a flight of spiral stairs. The ambience was warm, beech wood everywhere. The clothes of that section were generally white/lace/pastel-colored. And then as I looked down/went down those spiralled stairs, a man came walking up - this guy is a HK soap star! :lol: Very good-looking, but I felt his aura to be very fatherly. We didn't converse, just passed each other. And then that's all I remembered.
Last night I had a dream where I was part of an all-women coven/community where one thing that got much of my attention was a woman (brunette, blue eyes. Reminds me very much of a woman who I met at the auras workshop a week ago) who stated, "My father (or I or family? don't recall...) is a multi-millionaire." 'Mult-millionaire sounds kinda funny! And then in other parts of the dream, I was herding a huge pack of dogs (strays or not, I'm not sure, but some definitely were. I knew there were several St. Bernards, but they all looked like shadowy figures to me) and my home is not the beautiful/lavish place that I live in now, but looked very dilapitated as if poverty has befallen me. But the coven/community looked very neat, pretty, and clean - like some high class club. It used a lot of beech wood for its furnitures and most, if not all, of its curtains/other fabrics were deep green. The lights were always warm yellow - the ambience was very comforting as opposed to my house. In my house, I seemed to have seen very clearly this one closet/cabinet that was always rocking and about to fall apart. There was a clear light/dark division in my dream - the coven of women was light where I saw everyone's faces and everything very vividly; whereas my activities elsewhere, especially with herding the dogs, as dark although everything happened during the day, the light never shone on the dogs for me to distinguish their faces well.
This dream *is* telling me something...and it was very right on what made up my life now - work with animal rights (dogs) and work with Wicca (coven...my Clan only consists of women at this point in time). But the dark/light aspects puzzle me (perhaps it's a reflection that I've been neglecting my animal rights work a bit, i.e. left it in the dark, and my focus has been on Wicca, i.e. under the spotlight?). And then my tarot readings aren't solving much. I did a spread that told me right now I already *know* everything that I need to know to unravel this issue, I just have to pick up the pieces and put them together. The Moon (just laid on my patio to admire the night sky) did tell me something - I felt it, but haven't managed to decipher it yet. It was something deep enough that got me to cry - tears just came out naturally, no sobs, no sounds, just the tears and pangs in my heart. And I have also become drawn to Druidism/Druidry.
Now, for those of you who are very bored or have had the patience to read through THAT :lol: and wouldn't mind to help out...how would you put those pieces together? I hear myself telling me that I have all the ingredients to bake *a* cake - I just don't know the recipe nor *what* cake will result. Ideas, people???
Thank you! :heartthro
Nect