A weird mental "haunting"

[blackroseivy]

Ok, this is going to sound weird; I don't even know what to call it, but I had to call it something.

The situation is this:

I am bi-polar. When I was sick, I had a LOT of visions. Often they were merely absurd, but some things sort of stick in my mind to this day...

1 vision I had was of a particular spot in Syracuse, NY.

There is a mall called the "Carousel Mall". It has a GIGANTIC parking-lot (VERY big mall) all the way around it. In 1 spot, behind everything, the dumpsters are. Now, I've never actually STOOD in that spot - I've only maybe glimpsed it from a distance. But SOMETHING keeps calling my mind to that spot - particularly when it is frigid, desolate & dark...

I'd like to know what anyone might think this might be. Is it psychic emanations? I thought I detected a ghost in this spot. Could it be that the "ghost" is haunting me?

I can't give an idea how dreadfully desolate this vision is... It's like the Antarctic, or something! :( :( :(

[noxtwice]

being mentally ill presents special challenges in these situations...

there are those that beliveve people with mental illness are more sensitive and therefor can receive better

then there are those that believe it's all a manifestation of the illness, not anything paranormal or supernatural.

i've been there hon, all you can do IMO is go back and investigate. take a notepad with you, and maybe a friend. this is what i call "reality checking". i take another sensitive, we write seperate notes, then compare later. this has helped me to determine (now) when i am experiencing something special, or when it's just a manifestation of my illness. there are differences, albeit subtle at first, but you will get to know them.

[blackroseivy]

Absolutely, I know myself from my own experience that fine distinction between "manifestation" & "symptom". Since I am no longer symptomatic, but the thought of this place still haunts me, I'm thinking that it really IS something, though what I have yet to figure out!

I had some splendid visions - though VERY frightening at the time! - of dinosaurs all patterned as brightly as poisonous snakes. But that was my symptoms making things so vivid. I think I probably really had something there, but it was torture & I'm VERY glad that my meds take ALL that quite away...! :(

This felt different, like my visions of my past life felt different. The haunting, I mean. The dinos probably WERE just like I saw, but there was no point to that vision - they were millions of millions of years ago. The stuff I'm more concerned about was having to do with me, or a situation, like that place.

Only a very few things really stuck with me after my symptoms abated; so, those that did seem somehow more significant & more likely to be related to something "objective".

When I am able to make a trip to Syracuse, I will do so & make a trip to Carousel, just to see if maybe seeing it for myself solves the problem.

[noxtwice]

When I am able to make a trip to Syracuse, I will do so & make a trip to Carousel, just to see if maybe seeing it for myself solves the problem.

remember, take a notebook, you might forget an immediate impression later! and let us know how it goes...

[blackroseivy]

Wow, yeah, ok! As soon as I'm able, as I said!