*GrumpButt*
January 10th, 2007, 04:15 AM
What's up you guys!
It's been 6 long weeks since I was able to long in.
On the rd with my fiance and daughter in his big red semi :P
And I don't get to check my mail but once every 2-3 weeks,a nd thenI usually don't have time to log in :(
But yay~
We are staying at his aunt's house tonight and she has INTERNET.. HURRAH!!!!!!
Iv'e missed you guys, it's been hard out there on the rd w/out you all to keep me sane :D
:rant:
Being shut in a semi with a 32yr old man (mmhmmm 32 yrs old and still acts like a 5 yr old) a 6 year old that i am homeschooling inside the truck as we drive, not to mention being 4 months preggers, 24 hrs a day 7 days a week is starting to get to me >< lol
I am not the happiest of ppl right now.
Everyday it seems like something happens (usually something he does) that just pisses me off and keeps me that way for he rest of the day/night.
Maybe it's my hormones, I don't know but I am so close to really calling it quits even though I'm preggers, I can taste it. Mmmmm.....
It seems like the only time he (David my fiance/boyfriend thing)wants to be lovey w/me is when he wants some...
I could give him a hug and more than 1/2 the time he just stands there like a moron.... And PDA? Forgetta'bout it. He won't hold my hand hug me or anything in public. Yeah stuff like that all the time. Not like im horrid to look at either. check the pic link in siggy lmfao :P
I have to BEG to get any kind of affection other than sex affection from him.
Now, I know he loves me, but I dont know how much longer I can be w/someone who can't express their affections back.
It does seem like the only time we get along is when we are having sex, and really, sometimes not even then. Yeah somehow we can manage to get into arguments in the middle of fantastic sex... ><
At least 2 times a week I am in tears.
Stuff that never bothered me before, now bugs the living poo out of me. Just small dumb stuff that never got a 2nd thought b/f.
It just seems like I have given so much of myself up for him and all I ever get is Sh*t on. At least once a day.
I gave him back his engagement ring a few weeks ago, and the only time I wear it now is when we drive to see family or friends..... As to make nice nice ya know.
But I think his aunt caught on that something wasn't right. She took us out to dinner and I didn't eat, David and I sat with Ky (my daughter) between us, we hardly said 2 words to each other all through dinner; and when we got back to her house to hang and catch up ( I have never met her or her family before, which btw her 16 yr old daughter throws herself at David...) we sat on different couches, across the room from each other... and this is getting along.
I know that we have both been under a lot of pressure from being in that damn truck 24/7 together and not 15 mins apart, and my hormones are all whacked from being preggers (I turn into super bitch, mean as hell), but I need your help guys. I know we do love each other and this is just a rough patch but prayers, energy, anything would help.
( I am soooo misserable)
I have been so stressed, that I started bleeding and having cramps this past week. Not good for baby or me...
Thankfully both stopped and baby is alright.
So any help you guys may be able to give would be a wonderful thing..
love you guys :* Really really do :*
It's been 6 long weeks since I was able to long in.
On the rd with my fiance and daughter in his big red semi :P
And I don't get to check my mail but once every 2-3 weeks,a nd thenI usually don't have time to log in :(
But yay~
We are staying at his aunt's house tonight and she has INTERNET.. HURRAH!!!!!!
Iv'e missed you guys, it's been hard out there on the rd w/out you all to keep me sane :D
:rant:
Being shut in a semi with a 32yr old man (mmhmmm 32 yrs old and still acts like a 5 yr old) a 6 year old that i am homeschooling inside the truck as we drive, not to mention being 4 months preggers, 24 hrs a day 7 days a week is starting to get to me >< lol
I am not the happiest of ppl right now.
Everyday it seems like something happens (usually something he does) that just pisses me off and keeps me that way for he rest of the day/night.
Maybe it's my hormones, I don't know but I am so close to really calling it quits even though I'm preggers, I can taste it. Mmmmm.....
It seems like the only time he (David my fiance/boyfriend thing)wants to be lovey w/me is when he wants some...
I could give him a hug and more than 1/2 the time he just stands there like a moron.... And PDA? Forgetta'bout it. He won't hold my hand hug me or anything in public. Yeah stuff like that all the time. Not like im horrid to look at either. check the pic link in siggy lmfao :P
I have to BEG to get any kind of affection other than sex affection from him.
Now, I know he loves me, but I dont know how much longer I can be w/someone who can't express their affections back.
It does seem like the only time we get along is when we are having sex, and really, sometimes not even then. Yeah somehow we can manage to get into arguments in the middle of fantastic sex... ><
At least 2 times a week I am in tears.
Stuff that never bothered me before, now bugs the living poo out of me. Just small dumb stuff that never got a 2nd thought b/f.
It just seems like I have given so much of myself up for him and all I ever get is Sh*t on. At least once a day.
I gave him back his engagement ring a few weeks ago, and the only time I wear it now is when we drive to see family or friends..... As to make nice nice ya know.
But I think his aunt caught on that something wasn't right. She took us out to dinner and I didn't eat, David and I sat with Ky (my daughter) between us, we hardly said 2 words to each other all through dinner; and when we got back to her house to hang and catch up ( I have never met her or her family before, which btw her 16 yr old daughter throws herself at David...) we sat on different couches, across the room from each other... and this is getting along.
I know that we have both been under a lot of pressure from being in that damn truck 24/7 together and not 15 mins apart, and my hormones are all whacked from being preggers (I turn into super bitch, mean as hell), but I need your help guys. I know we do love each other and this is just a rough patch but prayers, energy, anything would help.
( I am soooo misserable)
I have been so stressed, that I started bleeding and having cramps this past week. Not good for baby or me...
Thankfully both stopped and baby is alright.
So any help you guys may be able to give would be a wonderful thing..
love you guys :* Really really do :*