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[Mithrea]

I have a question and I don't really know how to word it so I'll explain as well as I can. I have been reading for about a year and I use the Renaissance Deck. I use this deck only on myself. If I ever do a reading for someone else, I use the Witch's Tarot. I can't really explain why. I just like to keep them separate. I'm also using the Celtic Cross spread.

A situation has been developing lately in my life and it involves one of my professors. We sort of have a history but I could not avoid taking his class. It was a required course and he's the only person who teaches it (I go to a small school). So I took the class. Basically, for so many reasons, it is an undoable relationship. However, I can not stop thinking about him. The sexual energy is really intense. In a weird way, it centers on our student/teacher relationship. I rarely find men that are intelligent enough to challenge me. He does and it's quite thrilling -- but it just can't happen. There are too many complicating factors.

The two of swords in the Renaissance deck references a student/teacher relationship (among other things). That card now pops up no matter what I ask. But if I ask about my love life in general, all the cards seem to speak of him. But here's the thing. For the past six weeks, no matter what I ask, almost the exact same cards come up every time. There are only small differences, but it is basically the same and says the same thing, with minor changes. For example, sometimes it ends with the Lovers card and other times, it the Three of Swords. Of course in a way, those could mean opposite outcomes but the rest of the cards pretty much remain the same. I can't explain that fluctuation either.

If a tarot spread is a reflection of the querent, then I think what is happening is that this stuff is so prominent in my head, it overrides everything else. But it's like my cards are stuck. They can't help me if they say the same thing every time. I've tried cleansing them, just as a precaution and it didn't help. What should I do? Am I missing something? This is very frustrating!

Thanks for reading!

[Myst]

Maybe they don't mean to go back to that issue but that's what you see, or maybe that's all you think about so it always comes up, or maybe you need to sit and resolve the issue. Since you cleansed them I guess it's not something in the cards but something that's coming out from your thoughts, and you can't really avoid them until you come to terms with them.

Most people don't do readings for themselves anyway because issues they're thinking about come up like that, or because they're afraid they're influencing the cards.

So maybe you should take a break from reading for yourself or reading at all till this gets sorted out.

[Dagda Moon~Lily]

I agree completely with Myst.

Sometimes you see what you want to see in the cards.....you're too close and involved. If you are "obsessed" with the situtation, it will come through in the cards. ;)

[Mithrea]

I had dinner with some friends from work tonight and the partner of one of the girls I work with did a reading for me. She just offered out of the blue and I agreed.

Those same exact cards came up in the same order! So I think I can clarify my question now.

If a reading is a mirror, why wouldn't it be almost the same every time? We gain experience that changes us subtly over time but wouldn't your reflection remain almost the same from day to day or week to week?

Thanks!

[Silver Venus]

hmm.. its a wierd one ;) but i have to say that I still agree with Myst and Dagda on this Mithrea.
If you are constantly thinking about him, and asking the cards about him, or even asking other things but you know you have him in the back of your mind, the cards are going to bring up the same things every time.. because you are thinking the same things and expecting or questioning the same things every time.
I think we have all been there with this question with the tarot but maybe not to the extent that you are experiencing as you are getting the same ones every time.
Can I ask ~ were you thinking/talking about this problem when your friend offered? what goes through your mind when you shuffle?

I know it must be exciting as its so weird and confriming to you in a way, but can you understand how the cards/your guides may be testing you to really sort this out?