The Eternal Nite.......

[Eternal Night]

~kneels down~

I have never felt the need to write my feelings down for all too see before.
But it seems to be calling me...The sudden urge to pray and ask forgiveness

We all make mistakes in our lives........we are all after all only human.
Some mistakes are made from anger, hurt and misunderstanding of a situation.
No thought for how it will effect the other people in question.
What has happened today has made me realise What i must do and how I must act.......I can no longer hide what or who I am.
I am part of the structure in this world and although i don't know how or when I have a part to play.
I thank the Goddess for showing me humility and the Inner strength to see myself through this.
What has done can not be undone...but i hope that some day things will be forgiven.
My head is cleared and i feel more at peace than i have ever been.......
Perhaps this is the calm before the storm........Or perhaps my battle is done.
My Demons quashed and sent back...........Only time and the Great Mother can tell.

~places hood over her head once more~

[Eternal Night]

Hell is still overburdened
I must stand and wait in line
I may never know for certain when will be my time
How was I considered evil?
Pleasures taken in this life
Someone granted me repreival
Decades spent in strife

Led to nothing
Repeat it in my mind
Led to nothing
If only I was born another time

Hell is still overburdened
I must stand and wait in line
Hell is still overburdened
Now I find that some determine a line

It's the closing of the curtain
In the play that was my life
Now this chapter's left for open tragedies in time
I was hiding for a reason
Holy blessed homicide
Seems I have committed treason
All I've sacrificed

Led to nothing
Repeat it in my mind
Led to nothing
If only I was born another time

Hell is still overburdened
I must stand and wait in line
Hell is still overburdened
Now I find that some determine a line

Hell is still overburdened
I must stand and wait in line
Hell is still overburdened
Now I find that some determine a line

Fate is so unkind
Now I should have known
Blind leading the blind
Reaping on all I've sown
If it all amounts to nothing
Why, then, am I standing in this line?

Hell is still overburdened
I must stand and wait in line
Hell is still overburdened
Now I find that some determine a line
Hell is still overburdened
I must stand and wait in line
Hell is still overburdened

Don't need to write any words......because these lyrics say it all:ahhhhhhh:

[Earthy]

:hugz: sweetie.

[Eternal Night]

I ask you to watch over him.........Make him safe and keep him strong.
It can't be easy for him and We all as a family have neglected him, pushed him to the back of our minds like he doesn't exist.
Speaking to him last night made me realise this and I know I need to do something to make up for lost time but what?!
~shakes head~
I don't know what is for the best......
My heart is telling me to take a path that i am not sure i can do.
My instincts tell me to, but is this heat of the moment?
Is it my emotions on a high?
I do not know.
So much burden lies withing that I dare not show, Dare not share.
So much confusion clouds me.
A darkness falls on my thoughts, it consumes my core with no rest and no peace.
I need to know what is right.......
I daren't trust my heart anymore............but if not that then what?

[Earthy]

trust your heart, and you will do what is best :hugz:

Loving energies to him, keep him safe and strong :hugz:

[Eternal Night]

trust your heart, and you will do what is best :hugz:

Loving energies to him, keep him safe and strong :hugz:

Thanks cuz _pounce_

[Eternal Night]

ha! it's laughable what some people will do............The lengths they will go too.
I say just let it go and be done with it ~shrugs~
But everyone isn't me!
People..why can't they grow up?
I dunno maybe because they never had the chance.............maybe their life is so boring they have to make drama?!
Can't they accept themselves as them and be happy like everyone else?
~shrugs again~
I'm having such a good time and i thank you whoever it is for making this happen.......And i know now from talking to my brother what i need to do and what feels right.
Perhaps he needs me as much as i need him!
And as for everyone else well.........I won't get mad.....that ain't my style.
I'll bide my time and hey when it's least expected i'll get even
I'm not the almighty and i ain't a ll powerful, but no one and i mean no one crosses my path and gets away with it
The cracks are showing and i'm likin the patterns they make!
Oh and on a lighter note! make sure he doesn't die of heavy metal poisoning! \m/ :lol: