Depressed and Don't Know where to turn

[Prinsazz]

RANT alert It is so difficult at the moment- let me fill you in on the back story.

I have had counselling for about 8 weeks with a guy who is about as charasmatic as a pebble and is really difficult to talk to because he has absolutely no reaction whatsoever- and I know thats his job because he cant react but if I make a joke Id like him to laugh with me or something. I just got nothing out of it and felt like I was just making stuff up to fill the hour. I ve also been on anti depressants since late december- and they have just upped the dose because I am apparently not sleeping because I am not having enough

Still I feel like rubbish. At the moment I feel about two foot tall, and I have been on the verge of tears all night. I feel depressed and generally rubbish and I seem to have no drive. I have the application form for my dream job on the floor and I just cant fill it out. I dont want to eat- although I am making myself eat something. I have absolutely no sex drive and no drive for anything really. Hubby is out at the moment and I kinda wish that he was here but I am happy that he is out there doing something he absolutely loves so who am I to stop him. I just dont know where my head is and I just want...something.

Everything is going right for us at the moment, so why do I feel like this? Sorry for all this but I am just in a hole and I cant seem to see the light yet

[Annorah]

Hi Prinsazz

Sorry to hear that you are feeling low - I am not really very surprised with all that has been happening in your life recently. What with exams and house hunting etc you have been under a tremendous amount of pressure and sometimes your body just needs to take a bit of time to recover.

If you are not completely happy with your counsellor, can you find someone else? It is such a personal thing and you do need to feel comfortable and at ease with him/her - you may find that you get better results with someone else. Remember that this is for your benefit so if you don't feel that it is working for you, then maybe you need to change to a different counsellor.

Don't worry about filling in that application form right now - can you put it aside for a few days until you feel better? At the moment it is more important that you take the time to get better - once that is the case, you will feel more motivated and be able to be more positive.

Just take a bit of time to pamper yourself and do a few things that you really enjoy. It is really important to make sure that you eat healthily and get a bit of exercise (preferably outside). You might also want to carry or wear a piece of citrine (around the neck is best) as it is an excellent stone for helping overcome depression and is also a great bringer of joy. (Hogglewick have a rather nice chunky gemstone pendant which is very reasonably priced and their service is excellent - http://www.hogglewick.co.uk/Catalogue/List127.aspx )

I hope that you are soon feeling much better. PM me if you want to talk or just rant.

Brightest blessings.

[Cassie]

I can only second everything Annorah said.
Hope you feel better soon. :hugz:

[Philosophia]

Sending healing, positive, and comforting energy! :hugz:

[wolfjan1]

RANT alert It is so difficult at the moment- let me fill you in on the back story.

I have had counselling for about 8 weeks with a guy who is about as charasmatic as a pebble and is really difficult to talk to because he has absolutely no reaction whatsoever- and I know thats his job because he cant react but if I make a joke Id like him to laugh with me or something. I just got nothing out of it and felt like I was just making stuff up to fill the hour. I ve also been on anti depressants since late december- and they have just upped the dose because I am apparently not sleeping because I am not having enough

Still I feel like rubbish. At the moment I feel about two foot tall, and I have been on the verge of tears all night. I feel depressed and generally rubbish and I seem to have no drive. I have the application form for my dream job on the floor and I just cant fill it out. I dont want to eat- although I am making myself eat something. I have absolutely no sex drive and no drive for anything really. Hubby is out at the moment and I kinda wish that he was here but I am happy that he is out there doing something he absolutely loves so who am I to stop him. I just dont know where my head is and I just want...something.

Everything is going right for us at the moment, so why do I feel like this? Sorry for all this but I am just in a hole and I cant seem to see the light yet
Is there some law that ways you have to keep the same therapist? This guy sounds like a burnout.

[BlueEyedWolf]

:hugz: :hugz: :hugz: _cookie_ _cookie_ :hugz:

[Silverwolfthorn]

i suggest you change your therapist if you can. If you don't want to offend him just say you think you'd rather talk to a woman.

You can get potholes on the smoothest roads. But you can and will get out of them things will get better, i promise.

[Catiana]

:hugz:

[Evelyn]

Please go find another therapist. If there is no comfortable connection between you, conversation will not flow and the reason for your need will not be so easily found. My best to you (I'm new and have little but advice to offer, but I've been down a similar road and it is a difficult one. Don't go there with someone you can't connect with.

[L_Moonshade]

I know how you feel, I'm going through something similar, and it's not easy. But, it does get better. My advice is pretty much the same, find a new therapist. If you can't talk, you can't get help.
Good thoughts and positive energy to you! Hang in there!

[Evelyn]

RANT alert It is so difficult at the moment- let me fill you in on the back story.

I have had counselling for about 8 weeks with a guy who is about as charasmatic as a pebble and is really difficult to talk to because he has absolutely no reaction whatsoever- and I know thats his job because he cant react but if I make a joke Id like him to laugh with me or something. I just got nothing out of it and felt like I was just making stuff up to fill the hour. I ve also been on anti depressants since late december- and they have just upped the dose because I am apparently not sleeping because I am not having enough

Still I feel like rubbish. At the moment I feel about two foot tall, and I have been on the verge of tears all night. I feel depressed and generally rubbish and I seem to have no drive. I have the application form for my dream job on the floor and I just cant fill it out. I dont want to eat- although I am making myself eat something. I have absolutely no sex drive and no drive for anything really. Hubby is out at the moment and I kinda wish that he was here but I am happy that he is out there doing something he absolutely loves so who am I to stop him. I just dont know where my head is and I just want...something.

Everything is going right for us at the moment, so why do I feel like this? Sorry for all this but I am just in a hole and I cant seem to see the light yet
How are you today? Thinking of you and wishing you healing.

Evelyn

[Teresa]

Dressing a candle for you ! :hugz:

[Prinsazz]

Thankyou everyone! I am doing better, although am still feeling a bit uninspired!! Have ditched the pebble therapist- have also organised my room a bit-as they say de clutter your room de clutter your mind.
the other half knows im down, but just like him I dont know why as everything is going so great for us right now.
My problem seems to be that I think I let everyone down, which I know in my rational mind is a load of old rubbish but she doesnt always win.
That is what I am like- I have a rational side and an irrational side, and most of the time rational wins but then when irrational gets her turn I am a gibbering wreck.
Thankyou so much everyone for your support- obviously I didnt need a therapist, just MW!!!

[Annorah]

Yay, way to go!

:hugz:

[Prinsazz]

Well I did the application!!! Thankyou to you all- I have just finished it and put a stamp on all read to go- I asked the Goddess to bless it and keep it safe through the good old royal mail so here we go- This really is my dream job so I thank you all for your support at this time and for helping me get over all this rubbish

You guys are all brilliant- am feeling so much better now that is out of the way, and they have just sorted out our mortgage too so yay for debt- only problem is my y button is sticking- you never realise how much you use it until it doesnt work!!!

[dragoncrone]

I'm glad your spirits are lifting. Now you know that some therapists are duds, so if you ever get stuck with another one, it's 'buh-bye' !!!
Hope the medication is getting sorted out too; when I first started taking mine, it was about six weeks before we got the dosage right. That was about 10 years ago and life is great. Sometimes it takes a bit of tinkering. Blessings and hugs to ya!

[Evelyn]

Happy day to you!! Glad you're feeling better!! Evelyn