Alone

[Eudaimonia]

**This post does not really require any replies**

I feel so alone out here! I don't know what I'm doing or where I'm heading as far as magic goes. There's so much I don't know, and I can't find the information. I don't have any special gifts, like seeing or knowing. I write and write, but I feel as if, perhaps, I should just give up. Argh... I can't even explain how it feels, to realize you're nothing special at all. Yeah, this sounds like 'poor poor Eud', but it's been bugging at me for some time now. Gods, it hurts too!

[Kaylara]

Look up information on "The Dark Night Of The Soul" I believe that www.omphalos.net/files/ has some info on it.

Kaylara

[Faery-Wings]

Been there, Doing that! I know how you feel. There are times I get so frustrated. Last year I went through this is a big way. Kaylara's mention of The Dark Night reminded me of a thread here where that was brought up.

Here's the link to a thread I posted then.
http://www.mysticwicks.com/showthread.php?s=&threadid=3175&highlight=The+Dark+Night+Of+The+Soul


Unfortunately I have to run now, or I would write more. Please pm me if you need to talk.

Blessings,
Chris

[*~*Chary*~*]

hun ... theres not much i can say except Keep going ... follow your heart and dont give up !

and if u need to talk i am here

[flar7]

In your heart, know this. You are only alone if you want to be.
Close your eyes and we are there. I have never seen you or
spoke with you live before, but I can tell from here you have gifts.

That is what life is about, discovering and figuring out how to use
and to what ends.:) Magic? thats what you make of it.

[cherrywind]

I know how you feel!
I went through that about a year and a half ago and I did give up. Just recently though I've been rediscovering my spirituality after a long break from it.
I suppose the break let me realize just how important that aspect of my life was. Now it's like I have to start over again from scratch rediscovering myself and what I believe. It's kind of interesting to be doing that again.

[Nissala]

I know exactly how you feel, I have been going through that but I refuse to give up, I just keep studying, reading and gathering information and honoring the God and Goddess. In my heart I know that this for me in this and that the God/Goddess will show me in time. Do not give up, just keep learning *hugs*

PM me anytime... :)

[Flar's Freyja]

We're all here.......I'm truly blessed to live in an area where there are lots of pagans who are have public activities and have been easy to find. And even more blessed to have been involved in starting a community in my own small town for those who feel just like you do.....it took over a year but we are growing in leaps and bounds now......we are having a great ritual and party tonite! :boing:

Don't give up......remember that we all have our arms around you, and so do your guides and deities......just a little quiet time each day keeps you connected....I find that it helps to always have a candle burning on my altar. Simple, yes, and a constant reminder.......PM me anytime.

[Jasmine Star]

I'm there at the minute too. I keep thinking I'm getting teased by my friends. I'm reading all the time but I'm not getting anywhere. Sometimes I feel like i have taken on too much. But then I look deep in my heart and realise that this is what I want it is what I have felt has been missing in my life and despite the odd moments of self doubt I have never been happier or more fulfilled. Stick with it.:shift:

[Teshuva]

Wow!!! I just happened to be writing in my journal today about what a big,fat loser i seem to be.The more I study and learn and work at my path, the more evident it is to me that I have tons more to learn..... I often feel as if I'll never progress beyond the neophyte stage and that I'll always remain a solitary for the simple fact that I can't seem to find a particular Pagan path that I am comfortable with.
I just finished posting a message about my God and Goddess of choice( Thor and Bast) and started thinking about what a misfit I am even within the Pagan community because I'm almost TOO eclectic.
All I can say is that your post actually brought me some comfort knowing that I aint the only one.... now I'm actually sitting here all goose bumpy because your message was so pertinent to my current mood... thanks for posting and Blessings.

[Kalosi]

Lonliness is common when there is change. Just remember - you ARE different, and WE ALL are different. Different does NOT equal bad - it's just different!! That's one of the great things about life - enjoying the variety there is to be found! Though we may never meet, I consider you a friend, because you came here so that I might gain knowledge from you.

Hope you feel better soon. There's lots of people who are pulling for you!!