blueangel
August 23rd, 2007, 07:12 PM
Having written quite a few posts in this forum I thought that I would try and sort out my problems myself this time but i'm not getting anywhere.
A quick overview of the issues so far...
a) Broke up with my long-term live-in boyfriend about 3 months ago. he'd been unreliable and living off me. I couldn't take it any more.
b) I'd met someone new within a few weeks (although I wasn't looking for someone) and things escalated - he asked me to move in, talking long term etc. and it's been less than 8 weeks
c) I freaked out on holiday with guy #2. I was ill and kept missing the long-term ex. The new guy was so understanding and all i did was get annoyed and snap.
Now i'm home and i've asked #2 for some time out. I don't know what I want any more. All i am doing is hurting #2 and missing the ex who i broke up with for very good reasons that are still present.
Oh the confusion. I can't sleep. I'm still quite sick/ill from the holiday and I just don't know what I am doing with my life. I hate myself for upsetting both guys (#1 is having counselling as it came as quite and shock and he has a lot of other issues). I just want to disappear so I don't have to think about this.
The thing that keeps popping into my mind is that maybe i should just be alone. But guy #2 is just so lovely. But maybe i'm just not attracted to him in the right way. I don't have the spark with #2 that i had with #1.
If anyway has some time or energy i would really really really appreciate so guidance/support.
Blessed be xxxx
A quick overview of the issues so far...
a) Broke up with my long-term live-in boyfriend about 3 months ago. he'd been unreliable and living off me. I couldn't take it any more.
b) I'd met someone new within a few weeks (although I wasn't looking for someone) and things escalated - he asked me to move in, talking long term etc. and it's been less than 8 weeks
c) I freaked out on holiday with guy #2. I was ill and kept missing the long-term ex. The new guy was so understanding and all i did was get annoyed and snap.
Now i'm home and i've asked #2 for some time out. I don't know what I want any more. All i am doing is hurting #2 and missing the ex who i broke up with for very good reasons that are still present.
Oh the confusion. I can't sleep. I'm still quite sick/ill from the holiday and I just don't know what I am doing with my life. I hate myself for upsetting both guys (#1 is having counselling as it came as quite and shock and he has a lot of other issues). I just want to disappear so I don't have to think about this.
The thing that keeps popping into my mind is that maybe i should just be alone. But guy #2 is just so lovely. But maybe i'm just not attracted to him in the right way. I don't have the spark with #2 that i had with #1.
If anyway has some time or energy i would really really really appreciate so guidance/support.
Blessed be xxxx