In the Eventide

[Kalosi]

In the eventide
Where go my thoughts
Goddess is
and God he watches.

Ever near
and far away
throw my soul
and pain away

Question always
question yet
what is this now
no mind forgets

Contemplate
Meditate

Meaning?

[Kalosi]

When?
I get so frustrated. The car's broke again, I want to know where the money goes, because it's not there when I need it. I thought I knew what I needed, but apparently I'm not to have it.

When I had the means to have a house, vehicles that worked, a garden, a job I liked, and a person I thought I would spend the rest of my life with - he decided he wanted something else. After that many years? So what was the purpose of it?

Now I am with a person who is the emotional opposite, but we are constantly struggling materially. Emotionally I'm secure, but I still do not know what is up!!

Life is inherently neutral, and constantly seeks a balance. My life is a contant seesaw, and I have yet to find the pivot. We go up, we go down. My butt hurts cause the ground comes up too hard.

And yet - there are those not as fortunate as I. I know this, I see it. I want to help, but I'm powerless to do more than lend a comforting ear and a sympathetic shoulder. I want to help!! But I also want more than to wonder if the next check will cover the bills and if we'll have gas to get the sig-o's daughter over the weekend!

When?

[Kalosi]

The morning sun
Rises
I greet the world
Suprises

What is to happen
Who can say
Will my morning
Be a Rising?

Morning-meaning-rising-setting

Doing-loving-living

Not dead.

WAKE UP!!!!!

[Kalosi]

Great Brigid, Goddess of the forge, I ask for your help. Litha, the Mother and Protector, help me. Please keep my vehicles running, so that we may successfully pay our bills.

Thank you, great Goddesses, for giving me aid when most I need it.

[Kalosi]

Goddess come
When most I need
God provide
The waking seed

Many things run
through my head and
can't shut off and
Morning dread

Memories
Realities
Dignifies and
Crucified

Sleep, in peace
Not pieces

[Kalosi]

Ashakta! Ashakta? Ah?!

What does it mean? Why do I hear this?

I ask for divine guidance, on this day of mysteries. I do not know what is to come, only that I learn from it. Lord and Lady of protection and providence, help me as I wander through this life, and let me know what it is I seek.

[Kalosi]

Beautiful night, come morning
I wake with hope

Long time, that.

What is happening?
Oh, I'll find the answer
in a millenia or two.

Thank you
Great Mother
Great Father
For blessings given and
about to be recieved.

I'll sleep peacefully.

[Kalosi]

Please, Mother Earth and Father Protector, help me at this auspicious time. I NEED to get out of this living environment!! The apartment we found is good for our needs, but I have not heard whether the application was approved. We do not live in a healthy area. Can I please, please, have a living area that I feel comfortable in? This area has gotten overwhelming, and the other place is quieter and more private. Meagan could have her own room, we are close to the park so I can get out to feel the Earth without driving miles, and we can afford it. I LONG to move!! Please!!

What more can I do to ensure that we can move to this healthier environment? I humbly ask for your assistance.

[Kalosi]

Thank you, Lord and Lady, for answering me. You chose a test, though! Knowing my tendencies to procrastination, you gave me ten days to get going. I can do this!! I want to!! I NEED to!!

With your strength, I will conquer my challenges.