Struggling with substance abuse

[Tifa Lockhart]

I will be fully honest here... I use heroin sometimes and am currently struggling with breaking my addiction to cocaine. I want to break this habit, I know I've disappointed so many people I care about and I can see in their eyes that they are hurt by my actions... but it's just so difficult. It seems that once I am getting to the point of being free I slip again. I know I am basically flirting with disaster everytime I snort or shoot up... After losing Eric to drugs I want to clean up and I'm starting to detox...... it's so painful. I just need a hug... and maybe a few reassurances. Thanks.

[Tullip Troll]

(((((((((hugs)))))))))))

Get a team and set your self up to win hun, with my nephew(your age) the second time we helped clean him up, we made sure to change his enviroment, new place to live, job, life etc, it helped to keep him from falling into his comfort zone. I am not saying this is what you must do this is what worked for us. It is heart breaking watching someone go through this.

(((((((((more hugs))))) lots more when ever you need them, if I were closer Id offer you free kicks in the pants too : )

[Annorah]

Positive and strengthening energies flowing to you.

:hugz:

[Brigid Rowan]

Well, you have a hug, for sure. But honestly, if you had an iron chain locked around your wrists...you could not break it on your own. No matter how you tugged and gnawed and pulled, the chain would be there, undented, still locked.

You need a treatment option that is based on psychological counseling, and medical care...detox sucks, and will be unpleasant. It isnt safe to do alone. Call your doctor, or health clinic..or if you have a therapist, call them.

They can help you unlock that big, nasty chain you are dragging around.

Good luck, lovie...

~hugs and a kiss~
Brigid

[Catiana]

:hugz:

[Tifa Lockhart]

Thank you all... I have separated myself from most of my friends who use and I am sad that I've had to do that but it's necessary for me if I can ever achieve my goal of being free of this monster.

[Willow Rosette]

:hugz:

[Myzterio]

:hugz: You have the right spirit to break this! Good luck!! :hugz:

[Tifa Lockhart]

:hugz: You have the right spirit to break this! Good luck!! :hugz:
Thanks... I needed that. _pounce_

[Brightshores]

:hugz: Just remember - you are in control of your life and of your destiny. You have the power to make the right choices for yourself, each and every day. :hugz:

I also agree with Brigid Rowan - a treatment center of some kind might be a good option for you. A change of scene is always useful as well.

Blessings and peace to you - may you find the path that leads you away from all this.

[Merrilyn]

You are wonderful and you can do this. :hugz:

[Sakurako]

:hugz:

[Bettie]

I've been on a similar path - admitting you have a problem is the first step towards dealing with this. You *can* do it, I promise you. I wish you all the best with your struggle - and it will be a struggle, the road you have ahead of you is not an easy one but you can do it. PM me if you need to. :hugz:

[Shawn Blackwolf]

My Friend...

I am sorry , I can not call you a broken soul...

You are worth more...you know this...underneath
all this , is the little girl , the soul , who was never
hurt , who never took this path , who stands at the
crossroads of her life...the one who just wants to be
loved , to be heard , to be seen for who she is , and
was , and is about to be...

And that is the one I speak to , that is the one I call
forth , that is the one I ask , to remember...

Who are You ? Why did you come here ?

What do you have , that is just you , to teach us ,
share with us , that nobody else can ?

We need you...the you that came here , to share ,
and laugh , and love , and be , and be cared about ,
and cared for...the one who cares...

I speak to her , my friend...remember...she is you...

And you...are loved...

[TheWomanMonster]

I know many people who have beat their addictions using treatment programs and group therapy.

I wish you luck,
Be strong, for you...

[Astara Seague]

hang in there hon
you can do it_pounce_

[Glowy]

_pounce_ _pounce_

I am on your side. I cheer for you. You will do this!

[Fire-scryer]

I have been where you are and I know coke is a monster to beat. With me, I always thought I was too strong mentally to become addicted to it.

Until I realized one day that everytime I got paid I spent my entire paycheck on it and I was just flat miserable until my next paycheck and my next fix. On top of it all, I had the runned down, coked out look about me that I knew everyone could see.

You can do this though. It is hard and if you can find the support to help you through this it will make it easier, even if just a little it still helps. I did not have any support or medical care at the time. I had to do it on my own. Quitting cold turkey was probably one of the hardest things I have ever done.

If you would like a little advice from a veteren, since this battle is going to be mostly mental (detox does affect you physically as well, but the mind will be your biggest advasary here) get rid of the "I am never going to do coke again" attitude for the moment. I know that sounds crazy, but the amount of will power it took me to quit, I could never set a lofty goal like that and follow through. I had to promise myself "I will not do coke at all today". That was a more achievable goal.

After I made it through that one day, I had a refereance point to look back on. Every day was the same goal. "I will not do coke today". That little bit of gratification you feel when you achieve that goal makes the difference. When things would get hard, I would think back on the day(s) I made it without doing coke and it would give me a little strength to know that since I have already done it for (x) days, I could make it through this day.

The quitting cycle will look like a hill. Easier until your body and mind are like "whoa! where is my (insert addictive chemical here)???" then it will get harder, then at the moment when it cant get any harder you come off the top of that hill and it gets progressively easier.

Always remember, you can beat this. The drugs are not stronger than you. They do not control you or your life. Now is your chance to prove it to them and yourself that you are in control.

I know I am new here and none of you really "know" me, but I am going to give you a hug anyway :hugz: because I know that the more support you can get, the better.

Good luck, you can beat this thing!

[airmist]

There is much good advice and love here for you. You aren't broken despite how poorly you feel about yourself. You're courageous to recognize the problem. You can get better.

I identify a lot with what Fire-scryer posted. I would only add to what others have said here, ask for help. There is no shame (regardless of how you feel about it) and you don't need to do this alone.

[Tifa Lockhart]

Thank you all for the support. I have a small support group made up of 2 of my friends who have beaten coke addictions and my cousin who has beaten coke, herion, and painkiller addictions. I think with their help I can achieve it.