it is a blessing to be alive

[cydira]

Today, actually just a short while ago, I made a crucial decision. One that I would like to share with all of you because this community in part has been responcible in helping me make it. I have been struggling with depression for the past few months, including several suicidal periods. Earlier tonight, I found myself face to face with a suicidal urge and instead of fleeing in terror at the concept, I faced it.

It is with great joy that I would like to share with you all that I have decided to live. I have faced the root of my suicidal urges and I have emerged with strength and hope. All of you, with your acceptance of myself and each other, taught me that we all have a place in this world. I have been afraid of not having a place to call home, where I could be myself and be accepted as who I am. All of you, my close friends and my loved ones have taught me something very important. Everywhere I go, I am home. I can never be alone or abandonded because there will always be some one to love me, even if I don't know who they are.

Thank you for being my lifeline. May the Lady and Lord bless all of you with joy and love, and may you always have peace in your life. My gratitude can not be put into words because they are too pale and too weak.

All I can say is thank you.

Blessings to you and your kith and kin.

[Mairwen]

Wow! I applaud you! I've been there, myself, so I understand.

I was just telling someone the other day that it is a lot harder to be strong than it is to be weak, but the benefits are worth it. :D

{{{HUGS!}}}

[bluecat]

Yes, life is good.

I know this because I am one of the disabled folks in the world. I lived life very hard and very fast and it has finally caught up with me, but I have no regrets, I would do it again.

Because of my health problems, including the most severe (and was recently discovered), a pulmonary embolism and enlarged was described by the doctor as being a ticking time bomb in my chest.

Because of my personal beleifs and my personal strength, I have overcome, on more occasion than one, the urge to just cash in my chips.

I have also found a new person in my life who has given me purpose.

You are loved and you have worth, never doubt that. You also have many friends and loved ones who would miss you.

I know that you have been through a great deal in your life, but your living through those things is a testament to your strength.

With All My Heart

Blue :cool:

[Aspasia Sariel]

Blessings Cydira,

I cannot think of a more beautiful realization and choice that you have made. In my experience, I have seen a great many witchy folk who have fallen prey to depression, including myself. I can only wish you the very best on your journey through life, and that although laced with hardships, the beauty of living far outweighs them.

You see, no matter what belief system someone may have, they live on, through the lives they touch, in their children, and in their works. We never truly die, we simply transcend. To take one's own life robs yourself of the chance to reach out and experience all there is out there. Each hardship we face teaches us an important lesson that we need to know. I agree with your choice.

Aspasia

[Fawn]

*big hug* am so glad that you decided to stick this life out--it gets tough at times but when the Goddess hands me lemons I make lemonade!!!

[Xois]

Blue

Glad you are with us! what a regret for all of us if you were not!

Cydira

I do hope that you get some help (if you need it) I also have dealt with depression and though I am not on anything now, medication can really help...

Now I am under so much stress, I just have to stop mixing my sleeping pills with the whiskey :eek: but as soon as I am done with my masters degree (3 weeks and counting!) I will be able to sleep normally!

Cheers and take care of yourselves!

Xois

[Swanspirit]

Merry Merry ,
and a bright new day to you , sister of life :>,
I heard this , and it has helped me many times....
Dont give up five minutes before the miracle ,,
I am supremely happy for you HUGE HUGE HUGS,
May the sweet breath of spring surround you ,
oh wow i was thinking of you just now, a HUGE YELLOW BUTTERFLY
flew by, and if you are in Maryland , then breathe in this georgous spring
day, for you are a part of it :> ( I am in Maryland as well, and if you want to get in touch let me know)
Love and Light
Swannie

[moonmagick4]

Hang in there!!!You will be fine!!You have us to talk to whenever needed!!Brightest Blessings to you!!

[Lisa McKay]

I am so glad that you are okay. I too am battling with depression and suicidal thoughts, and it is hard. But something or someone let's me know in their own subtle way, that I am not alone. And neither are You!:) I'm glad to have found this community of amazing people, and that you're here as well. Keep up the good fight!

In Love and Light

[Lilu]

:) I am very glad you are ALL here! Cydira, Blue and Lisa, this has been such a home away from homes for me, and I'm glad I am here to share it with you! Being 12,000miles from my homeland can be a little depressing sometimes, but this place always cheers me up!

You are all wonderful people and I am happy I have the chance to get to know you all.

LIFE IS BEAUTIFUL! :D

Bright Blessings,
Lilu

[Mariposa De La Luna]

*big hug* :D

I'm so happy you have faced the challenge and come out victorious!! You are not alone, I have been there too. Keep finding one good thing that has happened for every bad situation and things will start to turn around. I am so happy this community has helped another in need, even if we didn't know it at that instant. Yes we are here for you with open arms and understanding. :heartthro

*Tempest we will not forget you.*

[vocis noctis]

ok people... time for a GROUPHUG :bigredgri

And :sunny: blessings to you all!!

[Earth Walker]

:D I love life and being able to help people, and love
this family here. :sunny: :heartthro

<<Hugs>> :)

[Ozymandias]

Choose life always m'lady. In life there is always hope.

[cydira]

I'm not really sure what to say. I'm actually rather overwhelmed with emotion at the moment. Y'all have magaed to bring tears to my eyes, it usually takes a bit of work to do that. ;)

You are all wonderful people and it truly is a blessing to know you. I am getting help with my depression and I'm actually starting to do some reaserch on medication for it. So if any one has any suggestions as to where I might find some good information, please tell me. :)

Goodness... I'm amazed and awed by all of you and your wonderful love.

I am so happy to be a part of this community. I think at some point in time we should all try to meet face to face or something. I'm sure it would be a wonderful thing. :)

Blessings.

[Hestia]

Hope you have room for one more hug :heartthro
Glad to hear things are looking better :D
Athough not as severe, I have experienced depression before. What keeps me going is always my son. Hope you find your well of strenght too :) :) :)

[Amora]

It's not often anyone can bring tears to my eyes either. I am so moved to hear the stories on here. You are all wonderful people and we would miss anyone who decided to leave us! Hang in there Cydira I'm sending you light, love and really BIG HUGS!!!:) :) :) :) :heartthro :heartthro :heartthro :heartthro

[rantnraven]

Always room on the porch sister. Suicide has never been the answer - olny the easy way out.

Bleesings to you. Have a seat and we'll have some lemonade together.

RnR

[cydira]

:) Y'all are going to make me blush soon, you know that don't you.

Thanks for being here for me. I'm starting to learn that it's ok to be different and even off on your "own" for a bit. But I'm learning something even more important, that it's ok to ask for help when I need it. I think I might have a bit of that lemonade but y'all have to try the shortbread that I've got with me. :)

[vocis noctis]

cool, I guess I'm over my little depression cuz my girlfriend and I'm spending more time with friends now cuz they are really helpful:sunny:

I was really in a baaaaaad depression over losing her, but I'm over that now and can finally continue my life.

Yeah, see the sun, smell the air, play with the fresh morning dew, look at the moon, flowers and trees, and know you are alive. It's great!