Lightnings prayers and hopes

[Lightning Strike]

Mother,
please take my negativity and wash it clean within your Ocean. Purify my being, my Soul, and my Heart. Take the anger I stored and obliterate it into the Abyss of nothingness, so that I may feel calm again. Allow me to find within myself, the energy I need to repay those who once gave theirs. Send me the strength to face what I must face, and give me the courage to accept that, which I must accept and ultimately face alone. Let me right the wrongs, and Know that I will never stop until they are repaid, or unless I pass on to the Summerlands. I am willing to risk everything in order to put right the mistakes. Even their wraths upon my very being. I ask you Great Mother, please be with me and remain at mine side and guide me.

Mother please bless all my friends, past and present, that they may know calm and happiness in their lives, and may their days be graced with the beauty of life in everything they shall do. Here and forever more.

I am your loyal servant, and shall love you always.
Blessed be.

[Lightning Strike]

Mother, I thank you for guiding me to such an amazing place, and I thank you for allowing me to meet such warm and wonderful people.
I thank you because I don't deserve this good treatment.
Mother, blessings, may the Morn' light shine on your face and light up your shadow.
I am forever your loyal servant, honor be to thy name!

Be blessed.

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Great Mother,
Can this be possible? An instant feeling of calm, all fears washed away in a split second? How can this be when the years have been so concrete with negative and doubt..is this something or is it something that I only dream of, Or is it just something I am choosing to see? I do not understand the meaning of it, and cannot seem to forget it either. It is like a riddle, when will the fog lift? When will be the truth revealed, and what happens then?
Mother guide me to a place where I might seek the answers, tell me this isn't just another cruel visionary dream, all this time- I don't understand why now, why this, it is scarily confusing and everything seems warped-unclear even. I do not want to cross the line, I do not want to escape this feeling either..Is this wrong? On the one hand I feel completely at ease, on the other I feel nervous and fearful that this, like most things I touch, will become toxic.
Mother help me not to ruin my friendships, help me to see my faults and guide me to rectify them, with clear head and cool mind. Tell me the truth, that I may accept it either way, and make peace with this unease of the unknown.
I am forever your Loyal Servant.
Blessed Be.

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Mother, please give me the strength to pass my finals, give me the courage to make new changes in my life and help me to see the way. Allow me to find my inner strength in order to face this fear, and help me break through the barriers I have long erected to protect myself. I don't need them anymore, Mother.
Send me calm and send me your blessing so that I may begin down this path of unknown, with courage and trust.
Always your loyal devoted servant,
Be blessed.

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Great Mother, O gentle and most powerful force, I feel your energies about me as if to guide, I feel the pulling toward a different path than the one I am currently treading, it is an unease, yet it is exciting. Help me to understand that which I am being shown, enable me to become inspired by this difference rather than fearful.
Bless those around me always, and steer hand of fortune their way, all this I do ask Graceful Ruler and thank you in return.
Ever your loyal and devoted servant,
Be Blessed.

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Great Mother, perhaps this is the path that I am being shown I admit to being worried, because I thought it was going a different way. I am worried about this way, this journey, this. I have made preparations for the future and now they are stamped on like they meant nothing. Goddess of Mercy, answer me this why now? I didn't see this coming and it has knocked me on my backside. What am I going to do? This is making me uneasy, like my feet have been kicked from beneath me. Please let them find someone better to take my place. Because I really don't need this.:(

Your Loyal and Devoted Servant as ever.
Blessed Be.

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Great Mother, I got the date I leave. I have to go on the 2nd. They're saying that it could be months not weeks. I'm not really looking forward to this. Something doesn't feel right about it. Please be with my friends and those in my heart to watch over them when I am absent. Always fancied a holiday to India, but didn't expect it to be like this.
Thank you for this opportunity though I am wary.
Every your devoted loyal servant.
Be Blessed.

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Great Mother, I don't normally talk openly to people, but I find myself needing to just talk about this. Please send a friendly ear my way so that I might be free for a moment of this inner anxiousness and worry. Allow me to vent please. I feel like I am going to go crazy. Nobody has offered any of us any support or counseling. It'd be nice not to be treated like we are just numbers of insignificance. The more time that passes, the harder it is all becoming. Maybe I was wrong that I didn't need to talk before. I am feeling the nerves and nothing is calming them. I do everything to keep my mind off this, but it doesn't seem to be helping. It's always there, and the closer the time gets, the more intense the nerves. Haven't been sleeping well and I don't feel like eating much, it just makes me feel sick. My legs feel as if they have just exited a theme park ride. I am doing OK to 'hide' this from those that I need to, but really, I can't just be expected to be OK about this. Mother of all things, please help and guide me.
Ever your devoted Servant.
Blessed Be.

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Great Mother,
I would like to thank you for so many things. I would especially like to thank you for life, and the gift of Loved ones; family and friends both inside and outside of the Army, the great sun that shines on us all and the stars that light the dark skies at night, thank you for the trees, the flowers and animals, the birds who, like free spirits rise the world and thank you for the chance of opportunity to do what I am put here to do. Thank you for the air that I breathe, the music I hear and the beauty I see around me, thank you for the food that feeds us and the fertile lands within which our food grows, thank you for all of these things, and more.Please watch over these people who have touched my heart in life, and see to it that they are blessed and have many fortunes and good health. I thank you for hearing me, great Mother.
Ever your devoted and loyal servant.
Blessed Be.

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Great Mother, I ask you please,
to keep my adored, my family and friends safe, watch over them and be their comfort when they are low, bless their lives, in my absence I ask you to look out for them, show them the wonderful things in life, and I ask that you send good luck their way.
Guide them Great Mother.

Great Father,
Lend me your Hammer, Sword and Shield.
Lend me the power to carry on even when I feel I can't. Lend me the strength I need to overcome all and any obstacles ahead in life. Lend me your guidance.

Your devoted and loyal servant.
Blessed Be.

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This is it Great Mother..
Please look after them and guide us safe.
Your loyal and devoted servant.
Blessed be.

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Great Mother, What hell is this!!!??? Send me the hug home. These people don't want help ffs!
......UGHHHHHHH I don't know if I can put up with this rubbish everyday without completely losing it..This is just beyond hell. Not how it is meant to go down at all. Make it stop!!!!:ahhhhhhh::uzi::damnpc::awwman::wah:

[Lightning Strike]

Great Mother..
Please be with these people and guide their hearts in life, under any name they choose for you. Send your blessings to those who need it, and be present and adored.
Great Mother, I know I shouldn't ask for myself..but please,
Help me to be a stronger person. Help me to help myself and my body to be stronger so it doesn't let me down any. I failed yesterday. I am cross that I let people down and myself..It was shameful and embarrassing..Great Goddess please allow me to do my job without hitch if possible, but if hitches there must be, please be at my side.
Also, please bless those I love, family friends and be with them always in everything they do.

Great Father, Thank you for keeping my calm, and my willingness to do my job, thank you for the strength you give me to continue, thank you for your guidance.

Ever your devoted and loyal servant.
Blessed be!

[wolfjan1]

What a beautiful prayer! So VERY well said.
Blessings to you! Happy holidays!

[Lightning Strike]

Ty WolfJan..

Happy Holidays for you also, and everyone else in celebration this time of year.

*hugs*

[wolfjan1]

The first one. And the last one.
Love,
wj

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Good God almighty..*sighs* Tense. So very very tense..Great Mother, Great Father, please be with us all..Bless and keep us all whole, sane and alert....Please be with the others and guide them in this time of unease..nothing is assured here..even if one outcome is definite..
May {!] rest easy in the summerlands..will be remembered as a friend and fellow serviceman.
Fly free mate.

Blessed be.

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Great Mother.
ffs..a little guidance here please.

*sobs*

:sadeyes:

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Good God almighty..*sighs* Tense. So very very tense..Great Mother, Great Father, please be with us all..Bless and keep us all whole, sane and alert....Please be with the others and guide them in this time of unease..nothing is assured here..even if one outcome is definite..
May {!] rest easy in the summerlands..will be remembered as a friend and fellow serviceman.
Fly free mate.

Blessed be.


Shortly before 1010 hours local time Sergeant Johnson was taking part in operations to recapture the town of Musa Qaleh in Helmand Province when an explosive device detonated - suspected to be a mine - resulting in the death of Sergeant Johnson and inflicting serious injuries to another soldier in the same vehicle.

Sergeant Lee Johnson

Lee Johnson was born on 7 June 1974 in Stockton-on-Tees and started his basic training on 30 July 1990. Upon completion of this he joined the 1st Battalion The Green Howards. He served in Canada, Germany, Belize and the United Kingdom, and deployed to the following theaters: Northern Ireland 5 times, the former Yugoslavia once and twice to Afghanistan.

Sergeant Johnson joined B Company as a new recruit and served virtually his whole career in that company. It was fitting that when recently promoted to the rank of sergeant and appointed Platoon Sergeant, it was in B Company. An accomplished sportsman, he represented the Battalion at boxing and the Army at Judo.

Sergeant Johnson was serving with 2nd Battalion The Yorkshire Regiment as a member of the Operational Mentoring and Liaison Team, tasked with training the Afghan National Army, when he died on Saturday

[Also Great Mother, be with those who need you, hear their pleas and comfort them.]
Ever your loyal and devoted servant.
Blessed be.

[Lightning Strike]

Well I guess I must have really done something bad in my life. Thanks for nothing...
:wah:

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:fpraise: Thank you thank you thank you eternally grateful!
Bless those I care about, now to ask for your help again..Great mother, guide me.

Ever your devoted servant.

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Guide my friends great Mother. Great Father give them strength in whatever they need. Take care of them.

Blessed Be.
Ever your loyal and devoted Servant.




Thank you, my friends, and may the Gods [whomever you choose] bless you and keep you.

:ringaroun

[Lightning Strike]

Things you want to say but were never given the opportunity to properly say.


1#edited becuase I am a twat.
2#
Thank you for taking the time to talk with him you are a true friend and I shall not forget this. I wish you all the best and hope you'll stay in touch. Hold up your head and be strong, no matter what difficult, unnerving challenges life throws at us, fight them head on and aggressively.
And I know you HATE James Blunt so I won't post his corny sad song for the above [1#] 'Goodbye my..blahh' even though I am actually half tempted! I shall save you that torture of having to read it on here if ever you do.

3#
..........................I'm sorry.

4#
I love you all.



Nothing further to add.....:(

[Lightning Strike]

Asking for strength here, for help to heal his and my heart, please help us get through the pain, take away the emptiness, the longing, the agonizing aching, still..
Requesting further guidance and blessings for my friends and family..
...sometimes I think that my heart will break right in front of....am I really that weak I can't accept this and move on? After all, wasn't it my own fault! Limbo, yes, I understand what was meant by that now I think. I think maybe it was never meant to be, or it would have been..
Trying my best to remain 'happy' or at least ensure I don't project my negativity, started studies again too. But there is still a massive empty space, I just can't fill............pondering on all my mistakes, or at least the ones I realize I made, trying to see past the fog, to what lies beyond. I am so negative lately it has scared me, I hardly recognize myself, in all sense of the word. Taking back up painting, started another picture this time it is a portrait of my daughter. I cannot get her eyes right!
The ex is giving me hassle....and he wonders why he became an ex in the first place. Sometimes I swear to god, I am just put here for peoples amusement, all that comes outta his mouth is only ever vicious. I guess I bring out the worst in people sometimes. He walked away, he didn't WANT to know and now he does??
I don't know what to do! He likes to exploit my weakness, damn him and his arrogant self centered ego, why can he not just piss off and crawl back under the rock from which he sprang!!
I am keeping myself as busy as I can, both physically and mentally, some days are harder than others, and I am like a 3 year old I nap in the afternoon a lot now *lol*
It's fun though, I get to fall asleep to the T.V all the rubbish afternoon soaps they put on! Darned annoying too because it means I'm up through the night. At least I am managing my weight, it was dropping from me like like shiiite from an arsehole!:lol: On a serious side of things, I'm awaiting my next appointment to see what is what, if anything has changed etc.
And this post has turned into quite a larger post than what I intended originally!
Ima stop now *lol*