Moonlite Faery
October 31st, 2007, 03:48 AM
i feel as if my head is going to pop. i have been a mess of stress the last few weeks. first i got home from my trip, hubby and i had a big confrontation of each other, that brought on stress but we were working on things and that was good. then he lost his second job ( i havent been able to work for awhile, but am searching again), more stress there, then my whole tooth ordeal- more stress,- and thats partly over but i have to go back so they can finish. and tonight kind of just brought everything to a head. there is a chance we may not make rent this month, im having a hard time finding a job and my hubby got so drunk tonight he lashed out in words, basically saying that he couldnt do anything right, not making enough money, not having enough sex (in his opinion), not playing his games well enough (avid video gamer), and when i said i was doing my best to find something he said "yeah right" under his breath (sometimes i wish i didnt hear as well as i do). then like 10 min. later he is saying "i love you" to me, he didnt know he brought me to tears and since he was drunk i thought it best not to tell him. oh, and on top of all this my hair is falling out at an extremely rapid rate, which i figure is because of the horrible infection i had in my tooth- no health insurance to check otherwise. the stress is so bad i can feel the knots forming in my back >.< so hugs and helpful words would be appreciated...