Two sides to every coin - but two names?

[Evinmeer]

Has anyone been told they have two names (outside of a diagnosed multiple personality disorder)? I was just told that I am both "Diedre" and "Landra" - WTF? According to this person, Diedre is "a total badass" and they called Landra "a paladin of sorts", and apparently they think I'm headed to some kind of implosion if I don't learn to bring the two into some kind of balance ("pact" was the word they actually used).

Thing is I've always been told I'm an incredibly balanced individual; I'm the person everyone always says, "Oh, I wish I could have your cool head!" I'm the one my friends call on for motivation or arbitration. I'm "...the one who never loses her temper or her passion..." - direct quote there from the person who also just snatched the rug out from under my feet w/ this two-names proclamation.

I'd say this person telling me this was a total crackpot except that they're the most practical, non-fantastical individual I know - the kind that reads historical biographies for "fun". Hell, when they told me all this it was in the most non-plussed tone of voice ever; they might as well have told me, "Btw, you're a caucasion female in your 20's...." Like they thought it was the most obvious thing ever. Except it totally isn't and it kind of hit me like a 2x4 - and I've been told some pretty strange things about myself. I trust this person almost implicitly; we've known each other since forever and they're not one to spout off random bullshit. And here they are talking like I'm some kind of bottle for 2 different genies. It just sounds so.... insane, y'know? Like I ought to be on medication or something.

So I'm pretty freaked out, and I'm really hoping that someone else around here has a rational explanation that doesn't include a strait jacket.

[patch]

Sounds like this person was either a total crackpot, or winding you up. xD

[Brigid Rowan]

Ok, well...time to play with this new info you have, and see how it all feels to you. (Once you've er, become less...freaked.lol..) One thing you need to remember, this knowledge/idea of two names/personalities..well, in all honesty, it changes NOTHING. If its a lie, then, oh well, nothing changed. If its true, then, oh well, you've been doing just fine with it till now. Either way, you are ok. You are safe, and I dont think you are crazy or weird...(the really crazy ones never worry if they are crazy/weird,unbalanced, or headed towards implosion..lol).

So, I suppose what is ahead is to search your inner landscape and see what you find..

Blessings on your path.
Brigid

[Ambrosia Stormsong]

First, I would ask myself, "why does this bother me so much?" Just the fact that you're so freaked is a reason to look for a lesson here. You sound like a very sane person, like someone who cares for her friends and family deeply and devotes a lot of time and attention in those areas. But none of us ever stops learning, and we all have our own lessons to learn while we're here.

Forget about "Diedre" and "Landra" for a second.

Maybe this person meant that we all have that "dark side" (for lack of a better term). Think of the yin/yang. We're all capable of horrific actions, we choose to do otherwise. Doesn't mean we're not capable. Sounds like you're doing pretty good controlling yours.

Maybe this person was trying to say that rather than pretend it's not there, acknowledge that it is so it never sneaks up on you from out of nowhere. Maybe you're supposed to realize you have a fear of insanity or something.

I could be way off base here, but if what this person said shook you up, it's for a reason. I would meditate on it, and figure out why that is.

:)

[Evinmeer]

I am much calmer now. :-)

Thank you for the replies - good points all around. I think Ambrosia is onto something about acknowledgment.... thanks. *breathes sigh of relief*

I'm going to go get a cup of Sleepy Time (TM) now and do some meditating as suggested.

[Brigid Rowan]

Glad you feel better, dove. Take care...and let us know what you discover!

[Evinmeer]

Well.... I took some time to meditate on the issue. Since I tend to meditate in pictures, I started out by focusing on the idea of 2 women but midway through I saw something else lying curled up between them, a little child. It looked like it was carved out of marble, or some kind of polished white stone. Then (this is hard to describe) water just sort of welled up from underneath it and pooled around all 3 figures - and then everything turned a dark purple color and sort of faded out. I didn't feel any emotions during the whole thing, just got that tingling feeling like after a hard run when all my blood is rushing. But my heartbeat wasn't elevated when I opened my eyes; the only physical effect from the meditation was that my right hand was abnormally warm and my left hand was strangely cold.

And since I can't leave well enough alone and I am insatiably curious about things I don't understand, I decided to further muddle the picture and do a random tarot draw per hand. Left pulled out The Moon; right pulled out the 10 of Wands.

*sigh* I'm still perturbed.

[aranarose]

Left pulled out The Moon; right pulled out the 10 of Wands.


You are burdened by illusions, or by illusions being stripped away.

[Evinmeer]

That would explain my extreme reaction to being told I'm two seperate entities, wouldn't it?

[EvieLee]

I wouldn't go so far as to think of yourself as two seperate people. We all have multiple faces to our personality - perhaps this issue is about you being afraid of one of them, or being afraid of not being in control of one?

Whatever you eventually decide this whole thing is meaning to you, your freaked out reaction seems to think it's a big issue for you to deal with at the moment. I have to say props to you for not shying away from it as some would, but trying to get to the bottom of it. Definitely not something a whacked out nutter would do. :hahugh:

[Evinmeer]

Whatever you eventually decide this whole thing is meaning to you, your freaked out reaction seems to think it's a big issue for you to deal with at the moment. I have to say props to you for not shying away from it as some would, but trying to get to the bottom of it. Definitely not something a whacked out nutter would do. :hahugh:

Awww.... *hugs to everybody who replied to topic* You guys have been great. I'll work it out somehow.

And for the record, I agree with you Evie about our personalities being multifaceted rather than dual - I was just horribly concerned that the multifacted aspect had somehow become twisted into a duality without my realizing it!

[skilly-nilly]

Has anyone been told they have two names (outside of a diagnosed multiple personality disorder)? I was just told that I am both "Diedre" and "Landra" - WTF? According to this person, Diedre is "a total badass" and they called Landra "a paladin of sorts", and apparently they think I'm headed to some kind of implosion if I don't learn to bring the two into some kind of balance ("pact" was the word they actually used).

That's a lot like Jungian theory. He believed that all people have their outer self and an inner 'shadow' self that they need to understand. Though his belief was that your shadow self is the opposite sex (that would be "Diedre" and maybe 'Landon').

But the principal is the same; you have to accept all of your facets.

[aluokaloo]

I'll go with either a total crackpot, or they were just yanking your chain, as a practical joke