MoonLyte Rambles

[Earthy]

For a long long time, I have looked, i have sought..i have turned myself inside out searching for answers.
I have prayed, I have read books and I have sought oracle cards..but my answers are always empty.I hear nothing,i feel nothing.

The answers are inside me,I know that now.
The only love that is going to fill me,is self love.
God doesn't exist for me.Only i exist and only I can change things I am unhappy with.
I am fed up with fighting against everything,raging against life,against depression,against myself.

My spirit within me will teach me to love myself.

[Earthy]

I am special.

I dont need to compete with,or compare myself to anybody.

I am Me

[Earthy]

Will people laugh at me when i say i dont feel like i belong here?
Will people mock me when I tell them i miss home,when earth is my home?
Will they think I'm deranged when I speak of other places,other homes that i dont remember,but long for?
Where love came first,and anger,hate and revenge didn't exist.
How i long....

[Earthy]

Depression
Why does it come to me so much.
One day i am feeling fine, the next i can barely function.
I have dealt with my past,i dont even think about it now...and people who needed to be forgiven,have been.
So why does it persist in dragging me under.
I hate living under this black cloud.

[Earthy]

What is my purpose? I have asked myself this again and again..and i still have no answer.
I no longer believe in god and that leaves me feeling empty.I need to believe in something,i do..but that little candle of hope within me has flickered out.

I feel the light within me trying to get out,but the darkness overcomes it time and again.
And so i struggle.....
The battle is never ending...
Light or darkness
Life or death.

[Earthy]

I received this today in an email,and it spoke so strongly to me,as if it had been written just for me,and not for the hundreds of people who must subscribe to the same notes.
The italics wont mean anything to anybody,but te one person here who does understand me.


You are never alone. You have with you always yourself, that higher and wider version of yourself that is light and love and nothing but these. You are always with yourself, that version of you that is infinitely wise and deeply connected with all that is, that knows of everything that happens, does not happen, has happened and will happen. This self, this timeless eternal self, is you and you are that.

You can, at any time you choose, sit quietly, close your eyes and open the crown of your head. Then feel yourself reaching upward, into a golden glow of being. This golden glow is you. This is your eternal self, your being, your awareness, the I of your I am. This is who you are.

And this life you live here, this life of joys and sorrows, of expectations and achievements, of giving and getting, this life is a shadow dream projected out from that self. And whenever you begin to connect too closely to this shadow existence, whenever you feel overwhelmed by its demands and full of fear for your future, then it is a good time to remember that you are not alone. Then it is a good time to connect to the vast intelligence that is there for you.

And there, in the deep and connected presence of your very own soul self, of your I Am presence, of the God that is you, you can feel the love flowing again, replacing the fear and the doubt. You can feel again the warm and loving presence that you are.

For you are your own creation, and as such you exist in this timeless eternal state as well, for that is the reality, the truth, the real you, and this is but its reflection.

And what is that eternal glow, that being of light that is you? That is also a reflection, a little speck of the glowing godhead, the all, the great and vast connection, the ground state and the highest state, the being and oneness that is. And since you are of the higher soul self and this higher soul self is of the all that we call God, then you are deeply connected with the very highest, widest and deepest, the flowing, the moving and yet ever-constant, the very heart of existence.

And at any time, you can simply be still and connect to all of this. For it is you and you are it. There is no difference. You are God and God is you, expressed in every atom of your being, in all that you are and think and do and feel. The ups and downs, the tears and the laughter, all of it is goodness and God-ness. All of it is spirit expressed. For that is what you are: spirit expressed.

Do not allow the world to fill you with doubt. Do not lose the underpinnings of your true knowledge, your true belief that you have the power. For you do. You have all the power. How could you not, when you are God?


What does it benefit you to doubt? There is no benefit there. There is only loss. What does it benefit you to believe in yourself? It is like turning on a light so that the world can see you glow. It is like lighting a fire that warms both you and those around you. For you are the light and the glow, you are the spark and the glowing, the creator and the created. You are one with the vast unending source of all that is, a spark from the brightest and greatest. It is all you and you are all it.

Set doubt aside. It does not serve. Strengthen yourself in belief. Take a sip from this brew and let it fill you. Believe in the miracle of your existence. Believe in your power through connection. Believe that you are a light strong enough to illumine the world.


And now, up at the highest level, opening to all that is and connecting with it, float a thought upon the ethers. Watch it flow out into the vast universe, into the great mix of all that is. And know, absolutely, that it will create, that it will sprout like a seed and begin to grow and that one day, as your life progresses, you will encounter a tree covered with sweet fruit and know it as this thought, finally bearing fruit, after effortlessly becoming and growing, drifting through the strands of becomingness, among the other strands and thoughts that float across the vastness of being.

A dream awakened into life. A tree from a seed of thought. A smile so broad and vast, so wide and mirthful that all sadness disappears. Such is your power. Such is your life.


Be the dream expressed. Assist the dreamer. Awaken yourself to all that you truly are. Know the full glory of your freedom, your freedom from fear, from doubt, your freedom to create, to weave a tapestry of life that sounds like laughter, looks like a smile and feels like love.

[Earthy]

I think I may have found my way.
I think I have a lot of reading to do tonight, but from what I have found,it fits.I fit.I belong.
I am not alone.


I feel it.the excitement within.
I am awakening.
I feel alive.
Oh boy!

[Earthy]

I have been feeling pretty good lately,have even cut my meds down to every other day.

I felt a little odd yesterday,not depressed exactly but lonely.Struggling to feel at home on an alien planet.

[Earthy]

Can.Not.Cope.In.This.World.Of.Hate.

[Earthy]

Oh Moon, i feel your pull,
And sometimes I tap into your power,
And I know I am powerful,and good and self assured,
That i am beautiful inside and out.

[Earthy]

I don't feel alive.
Everything feels hazy,and i move through the days in an almost dreamlike state.
I am here, and yet I'm not.
Unable to believe anymore, and yet so wanting to.
Full of doubt, and yet not wanting to.
I'm struggling to stay above the surface,pushing people away, keeping my distance and building up the walls around my heart.
I connect with nobody,and even though i am the one pushing them away, I hurt.
I have forgotten how to cry.
I have forgotten how to live.
And so, I just exist...neither in one world or the other.