My life is one big cosmic joke.

[SpikesPet5150]

For those of you who chat with me outside of MW, you know I should be moving to Phoenix on the 27th. Everything was going as planned... life was good. Then, a couple days ago, all of the plans died. Then, they started moving backwards. It's a long complicated story... but the point is... I can't move to Phoenix yet. I've had to put this off a few times now, because every time it gets close, everything goes to hell. All my plans, all my investments into this... they all just die. The biggest one this time, the job I was supposed to get when I got there.. yeah, I won't be working there. And I have over 7000$ in debt right now. So if I move there, without a deffinite job, it could be almost a month before I see any money, and thats *if* I get a job within the first week. And not knowing the city, now being able to drive very much (My car doesn't have air conditioning), I just don't see me getting a job that quickly. And I can't put off ANY bills for longer than a week, cause otherwise I get all kinds of late charges. I just can't deal with this let down anymore. I get *so* excited to go.. it's almost time to go.. and then BOOM.. it gets royally screwed. Why is this happening? I meditated for a few hours last night/this morning... and all I got was "Stay put, everything will be answered later." Which to me, is like a huge cosmic busy signal.. I don't want to wait.. I want to go to AZ. Maybe I'm trying to force it too much and somethings telling me to wait it out a bit... wait until I'm sure I won't fail and get myself into even bigger debt than I am now? I don't know. I just desperately needed to rant. I'm so mad I can't even see straight. Any thoughts on this would be helpful.
~Bree

[Myst]

Shit happens. I know how you feel (for other reasons) and lately I'm feeling that way too. I know nothing I can say will help but I'd like to think maybe there is a reason for this sort of thing even tho we aren't given it yet.

[Xander67]

Bree, DR K lives in the pheonix area, (Kahlan)

mabey she knows of any openings at the hospital,

I will send her an email and ask if you like.

((((BREE))))

Remember, when it comes to the Goddess's will, She will make a way :)

Xan

[Azure]

*rueful smile*

That's been my whole year too. I think things are happening for a reason right now.

((((hugs))))
I hope things go better for you - perhaps Xander's contacts will pan out for you, or something. If not, just focus on moving at a later date. I know you hate it, but there may be a reason why you're still in the place you are. That doesn't mean don't fight for what you want, just that you may not get instant gratification.

[SpikesPet5150]

But.. but.. I want instant gratification. I just feel like I've been working so hard for something thats never gonna happen. But, as you guys have said.. things happen for a reason. Everything will work itself out, in time.

And hey.. if anyone lives in Phoenix and needs an apartment/roommate... I know a girl down there, with a bad ass 2 bedroom apartment (that *I* was supposed to be living in.. grrrr) that desperately needs a room mate now.

Thanks for the hugs, guys.. I needed it.
~Bree

[Azure]

Psst. . . Bree. maybe bunnies did it. *small giggle*

[materra]

Oh hun....I know how you want to be here...I struggled to get here too. I do want to say if the air conditioning in your car exists, get it fixed before coming, the heat is very :bug: difficult this time of year. It will be cheaper to fix there than here, as here it is in demand (to say the least).

Perhaps the fates are protecting you from heat stroke? :huh:

I will send you our website for jobs, maybe someithing is open where I work...we are huge. Waiting to achieve something is hard, but you have us pulling for you.
BB

[MammaStar]

Bree, I remember our conversation on Thursday. I guess that's why you're detector went off!!!

I'm sorry hon! I know it'll work out for ya. Hang in there, Babe.

:heartthro :heartthro :heartthro

[Xander67]

B... Bunnies :woah:

ya know, I was supposed to start teaching color theory in a craft store in philly this month, but they extended this other dude's class... but I see why now... the school in Queens, (flushing) where I taught web design.. asked if I would like to come this fall 2 days a week and teach html again, and when i told them i could teach Photoshop and PSP basics, they said they would have students for that too...

so i guess timing was key there :O)

hope that helps Bree!!

[Witchy Cowgirl]

There's always a reason.....sometimes we just aren't supposed to know what that reason is.
Instant gratification? I personally don't trust it.
I do understand what your going through. The only words of wisdom I have is to hang tight, and look around you at your present location....maybe there's something there that your missing....something you should be picking up on but can't cause your too focused on wanting to move, or too focused on your disappointment.

[Xander67]

well Bree, what do you do?
what are you looking for...

Mabey I can help you find a few sites that have listings

[Mithrea]

Can you hear me screaming?

[MistOfTheSea86]

I am disheartened that you can not come down here. But don't let yourself be really hurt by it, because you will be down here! It will just take a little bit longer. Which I am sure we can both get through together:)

And Until then we can blame the bunnies!