Fears

[Annyka]

Well I was looking at someone's website (I can't remember who's it is but they are a member here - so if you recognise can you fess up?? - Sorry)

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I thought it was a good topic - What fears do you/have you had to face to help you evolve spiritually??

At the moment I am having to face a fear I have lived with for a while now (since 1998). I have the ability to predict death.. This scared the bejeebies out of me. I managed to block the ability because I didn't want to do it.

This blocked my ability to evolve spiritually though.. Only now do I realise this.. So I have been allowing myself to utilise this ablity but trying to focus on the fact that I am able to predict this as to help people avoid death... If someone may be going to die - and I predict it, I take it as a sign that they are meant to have the choice to change it and thus I tell them...

Since I have accepted this, I have been able to do so much more spiritually (such as my rune reading)..

I am so happy

Blessed be all
Annyka

[Tammy Sullivan]

It may have been my site, I do have a page on that.

[Annyka]

Yes I think it was your site --- Lovely site also if I do say so myself..

Very interesting.

[Sequoia]

one of my biggest fears used to be, to be raped.

I was so afraid of it, when it happened, I wouldn't even admit that it did, to myself. That was something I had to face. . . In fact, the whole relationship.

but to be perfectly honest, I wouldn't be this openly pagan if I hadn't been in that relationship! It brought a new world into perspective, even if in a strange way. So I guess it was nessicary! bler.


one of my personal biggest fears. . . . and I have no idea how I would face it. . . . is that I can't have children. Ever. I know, I know, I'm awefully young to be even thinking about that. . . but it's still my fear. And maybe not nessicarily that I can't get pregnant, but that I just can't carry to term. . . something like that. . . ah, I don't know. You all probably think that's a stupid fear for someone my age. But . . .it's my biggest one. Because that's the one thing I want most out of life - to be a mother. So. . . that would be denying my biggest, and really my only, dream. (well, the other dream being happily married hehe yeah yeah call me old fashioned :p )

[Tammy Sullivan]

There is no such thing as a stupid fear
if it scares you, then it is scary.

[Djiril]

I think my biggest fear is doing wrong in a major way, of being trapped in an unhappy marrige and having kids and making them miserable, of never being able to concentrate enough to do the work I need to do, and of making the world a worse place.

[Myst]

Originally posted by Annyka
What fears do you/have you had to face to help you evolve spiritually??

Channeling and mediumship. Also that I might just be crazy, that this may all be a joke :)

[SpikesPet5150]

I have alot of fears. Normal ones, I'm scared of spiders. Clingy bugs like grasshoppers and crickets, cause you actually have to touch them to get them off of you (YUCK). I'm scared of the dark, but only inside a house. Outside dark is fine.

Onto my irrational fears. I'm scared of phoning people. I don't know why. I can call certain people with no problems, but others, I have a huge panic attack and can't breathe and it's a horrible experience. Don't ever ask me to call for Pizza. I'd rather go hungry. I'm also severely scared of the thought of "forever". Like, being married forever, or having children, cause that means they're mine, forever. Even thinking about it makes me all twitchy and weird. I'm scared of happiness. I've spent most of my life in chaos and general unhappiness that I don't know who I'd be if I were happy, really truly happy and content. I don't know what I would do. I thrive on chaos, and for some reason I'm scared that's going to go away if I become happy. Thats not to say that I'm depressed or whatever.. I'm just not happy.

Yup, thats it for me. I'm a psychologists dream come true. ;)
~Bree

[flar7]

carny folk.

[MidnightSun]

Hmmm.....

My biggest fear right now...is that I will grow up and be all alone for the rest of my life. I want to have children and get married and all that cool stuff so bad.

The other fear is that I won't learn as much as I can. Like I'll fail. Failing has always been a fear of mine.

[Tammy Sullivan]

I'm scared of phoning people. I don't know why. I can call certain people with no problems, but others, I have a huge panic attack and can't breathe and it's a horrible experience.
I do the same thing at convienence stores. I Have no idea why.:huh:

[Cait]

As silly as this might sound, I'm terrified of needles. (Uh, that is, like syringes, not sewing needles. I'm ok with sewing needles.) Seriously, I'm absolutely terrified of them - it's a proper, full-on phobia. I have to leave the room if they show anything involving a needle on TV. I don't even like being in the same room as one; when I go to see my doctor, I can't relax because I know she has a box of them on a shelf somewhere.

It dates back to a traumatic childhood experience, I think; anyway, whatever the reason, I hate the things. (Random tangent: I'm now also moderately scared of dentists, because the last time I saw a dentist, they tried to PUT A NEEDLE IN MY MOUTH. Gah. So not happening. I'd rather have fillings done without anaesthetic. And I'm absolutely serious about that.)

Anyway, spiritual evolution? I'm not sure that this is relevant... however, a little under a year ago, I got pretty sick with some viral infection, and was told that, well, I needed to get a blood test done. And I did it. I cried like a baby, and I came close to passing out, and I had to take the rest of the day off work, but I did it. It was pretty much my biggest fear and I came though it and didn't die. I was ever so proud of myself. And... now I know I can do things I'm afraid of. It felt like some sort of spiritual growth, in a way, although probably a pretty trivial and pointless kind compared to the other things that have been described in this thread.

[Cait]

Also.. SpikesPet, I hate phoning people too. I don't know that I'd class it as a real, major fear, but I will avoid it if at all possible - and if I really can't avoid it, I will put it off as long as I can, or try to get someone else to do it for me. Almost everyone I know thinks I'm deeply weird for this. :)

[Flaire-FireStar]

Big crowds (like concerts...and school...), leaving home, looking in the mirror, calling people on the phone (talking face to face & online is fine...I HATE the phone. :rolleyes: ) Meeting new people, airports/airplanes/flying in general. Being sick in public. Bus rides. Falling in quicksand (which I've done once already. :rolleyes: )

[Annyka]

Reading everyone's posts I have realised how many fears I actually have - I am sitting here nodding my head goin - "mmm.. yep.. I understand"

I used to be petrified of needles - I litterally ran out of the hospital when they told me that I had to have one and I get all of my dentistry done without anasthetic. Everyone thinks I make it up and the actual fear doesn't exist to the extent it does. I recently got a blood test too - and since then I don't seem to have the fear anymore - I still don't like needles - but I'm not scared of them.

I hate talking on the phone. I refuse to call any home delivery to the extent I pay my bf to do it for me - he thinks it's a joke. I have had to get over that because I wasn't returning messages from strangers on the answer machine at work and thought -- "well I better get over this or I might get fired".. I still hate it though.

Another one of my fears is that I am wrong in my path. What if the Christians are actually 100% right?? Then I am up s#!+ (parden the french) creak. I don't particulary like the idea of sitting in their version of Hell with Satan himself....

I hope that my path is right...

And I have a fear of dying. I don't know why but it scares me so much that when I think about me or someone close to me dying I have to fight back the tears.... Maybe it's because I don't want to be alone and I don't know what is really out there - I hate knowing.....

Gee I have soo many fears.... Maybe I should try and concuer them all!!!!:bigredgri

Well c you all
Annyka

[Valnorran]

Well, I suppose every parent's worst nightmare is harm befalling their children. I also seem to have a sort of selective arachniphobia - I only hate big spiders. I don't know where this comes from. The first time I saw a big one when I was five or six years old, I felt only fascination. Not long afterward, I was taking a broom somewhere and my mother gave me a simple, friendly/motherly reminder about not running into the spider. I was immediately consumed with freezing terror and took off screaming. Yet my entire family loathes snakes. I heard nothing but bad things about snakes while growing up, yet I'm probably the only one in the family who is not phobic about them! Go figure. Still, I managed to watch an entire documentary about tarantulas on Discovery. I think I'm a little better than I used to be.

However, my absolute worst fear is probably failure. It was one of the factors that cost me a career with my local police department. I graduated as top cadet in the academy, but patroling the streets brought certain things home. I'm too stupid to worry about being killed. No, all I could think of was what if I arrest someone who turns out to be innocent? If an officer, following all the rules and going strictly by the book, arrests the wrong person, I would not hold it against him. Officers are forced to work with incomplete information. If he made the mistake in good faith, I would have no contempt for him at all. If I made the exact same mistake, I would never forgive myself. I would spend an eternity tearing myself up over it. I have no idea why I'm like that, and I can't seem to unmake that aspect of myself. What I find irrelevant or acceptable in others I will find totally unacceptable in myself.

[DragonDawn]

My biggest fear is of the dark. I mean I'm almost 21 and I still sleep with the tv on. I can stand the dark when someone else is with me but if there's no one around i start to panic.

Hate spiders. Like Valnorran, only big spiders.

Also had the same fear as Annyka for a while ("What if the Christians are actually 100% right?? Then I am up s#!+ (parden the french) creak.") Had a dream that pretty much told me I was on the right path so that took care of that fear. :D

[Emaleth]

My biggest fear concerning spirituality is that I will come back to Christianity one day. It really scares me, it would be like being blind, then being able to see, and becoming blind again8O .

I'm also afraid of phoning people, I'm happy I'm not the only one :D .
I'm afraid of being buried alive:blushake: . Of not finding a partner for life and being alone. I'm afraid of going to the dentist. Agressive and drunk people. Major changes, like moving out, changing the shool or the job. Meeting new people, I'm afraid they won't like me.

Blessed Be

[Illuminatus]

Originally posted by Greta
There is no such thing as a stupid fear
if it scares you, then it is scary.

Right, no fear is stupid.

But some fears are categorized as Phobias, or an Irrational fear. Those aren't stupid, but they are very serious.

[SpikesPet5150]

The reason I call mine irrational is because I have absolutely no reason for being afraid of some of these things. I've never been yelled at over the phone or anything.. I honestly can't remember when it started. I used to have no problems with phones. And now, panic attack city.
~Bree