I would be most grateful for some energy right now...

[serenarian]

I got sick last night and keep having panic attacks related to it. As a result, my boyfriend is worrying about me a lot and I hate that I am a burden to him. I can't stop crying about the way I feel so if anyone can just send me a little energy that would be such a great help.

[Philosophia]

Sending healing, positive, and comforting energy to you and your boyfriend! :hugz:

[Lunacie]

Sending some Reiki energy for healing and calming. I don't have panic attacks but my daughter worries about me when I get sick, that's natural to worry about the people we love. :hugz: to both of you.

[Infinite Grey]

I got sick last night and keep having panic attacks related to it. As a result, my boyfriend is worrying about me a lot and I hate that I am a burden to him. I can't stop crying about the way I feel so if anyone can just send me a little energy that would be such a great help.


Are the panic attacks fairly common place for you?
Do you sometimes feel numb inside, sort of a disjointedness from the world?
Do you feel every day is the same as the last?
Do you hear your own voice in your head telling you negative things about yourself?
Or strange voices?
Do you have periods of no energy (you can bring yourself to do anything) followed by a period of so much energy people start checking you for Speed or Cocaine?


A little information would be nice.

[serenarian]

Are the panic attacks fairly common place for you?
Do you sometimes feel numb inside, sort of a disjointedness from the world?
Do you feel every day is the same as the last?
Do you hear your own voice in your head telling you negative things about yourself?
Or strange voices?
Do you have periods of no energy (you can bring yourself to do anything) followed by a period of so much energy people start checking you for Speed or Cocaine?


A little information would be nice.

1) The panic attacks are fairly commonplace, but not necessarily connected to one thing. I have been known to get panicky while driving, or while being ill, or even when I am alone.

2) I do sometimes feel numb inside, yes. As though I am pushing people away when what I need is their support.

3) I don't feel every day is the same, but I do sometimes get down about the routine.

4) YES. I definitely have that little voice inside telling me I am worthless.

5) No strange voices. Just my own.

6) I do have periods of no energy or motivation, but I don't have the opposite you describe. It's either that I'm just content, or I'm feeling down. No hyper happiness.

I hope this helps some.

[Against The Tide]

First up - dont feel guilty about leaning on your boy friend. He wouldn't offer support if he didn't want t give it. We all have times where we can't cope on our own, accept the help thats being offered.

Maybe go see your GP about anxiety. There you might recieve something to take the edge off it or counciling so you can work your way through negitive thought spirals that usually lead to anxiety.

Sending energy.

[Infinite Grey]

1) The panic attacks are fairly commonplace, but not necessarily connected to one thing. I have been known to get panicky while driving, or while being ill, or even when I am alone.

2) I do sometimes feel numb inside, yes. As though I am pushing people away when what I need is their support.

3) I don't feel every day is the same, but I do sometimes get down about the routine.

4) YES. I definitely have that little voice inside telling me I am worthless.

5) No strange voices. Just my own.

6) I do have periods of no energy or motivation, but I don't have the opposite you describe. It's either that I'm just content, or I'm feeling down. No hyper happiness.

I hope this helps some.

The good news is, you're probably not bipolar. There is no real bad news, :T You do not have to make the answers to the next question public, but if the answer is yes I would recommend seeing a therapist in the near future. No it is not something to be ashamed of, nor does it mean you're crazy.

Did you have a rough childhood; the following situations are common (unfortunately); sexual or physical abuse, over demanding parent, parents that were not really there, excessive bullying in school (primary or high school), overly critical parent, overly religious parents or environment.

If any of the above are applicable, either one or all of the above; again I would advise seeing a therapist or Psychiatric doctor.

An even bigger qualifier is you have self self damaging behaviours; excessive drinking, sabotaging relationships (platonic or intimate), compulsive drug use, or even promiscuous sex. Also self mutilation; cutting, wrist banging, burning.

Please do not answer these questions publicly (unless you want to).

The other option, though not recommended would be to look into Zen Buddhism... not so much the religious element, but the philosophical practices. These elements have been incorporated into new therapy techniques for people dealing with personality issues.

Just my suggestions.

[Lunacie]

Yes, those things can all play into major depression, along with ADHD. I just wanted to point out that not everyone with bipolar has manic episodes or really noticable mood swings - some alternate between long periods of depression and periods of seeming contentment.

Some prescription meds can also trigger panic attacks.

[serenarian]

Thanks, guys for all your replies and support. I think Lunacie and Infinite Grey, you have definitely touched a nerve there. I never really thought that it may be depression but on reading your replies perhaps I'm wrong to discount it without thinking. The idea scares me though as I wouldn't know how to go about getting treatment discreetly.

[TheWomanMonster]

Thanks, guys for all your replies and support. I think Lunacie and Infinite Grey, you have definitely touched a nerve there. I never really thought that it may be depression but on reading your replies perhaps I'm wrong to discount it without thinking. The idea scares me though as I wouldn't know how to go about getting treatment discreetly.

First step is to see your doctor, they'll talk about the options with you.
Being depressed is nothing to be ashamed of either... and with the right help it is very manageable.

[Lunacie]

Also, if you're nervous about taking an anti-depressant because you've heard bad things, you can start with something like Omega 3 (fish oil) supplements. I've heard very good things about using it for a mood stabilizer, it certainly has helped me. And the only bad side effect I've heard is fishy burps, and very few seem to have that problem.

[serenarian]

I think it's just the idea of going to the doctor and having to admit how low I feel. I don't know my doctor all that well so the idea of going in there and crying my eyes out scares me to be honest.

[Against The Tide]

Take your fella to the appointment for support. It is hard taking it to someone outside your inner circle, but doctors only exist to help people out - at least see what they have to say. Your bf can have a list of behaviours and symptoms and speak to the doc for you.

[Infinite Grey]

Thanks, guys for all your replies and support. I think Lunacie and Infinite Grey, you have definitely touched a nerve there. I never really thought that it may be depression but on reading your replies perhaps I'm wrong to discount it without thinking. The idea scares me though as I wouldn't know how to go about getting treatment discreetly.

My fiancée has had similar issues (she is afraid of doctors), but the will to get better turned out to be stronger. It's tough, but she is learning to deal with her Borderline Personality Disorder. The reward is definitely worth the effort.

[aluokaloo]

sending healing, soothing energy to you both. and your not a burden. I'm 100 % sure of that! :hugz: